Hey guys, I'm 22 and scared to death of HIV... just looking to reach out.

[SMS0030]

Hey everyone, I'm a 22 year old male, recent college graduate who on the outside has everything going for him: on the path to a promising career, not a bad looking guy, and for the most part happy. A lot of people don't know what I'm going through on the inside... throughout my life I have found it very easy to get with females in a sexual manner and it's not a good thing and I have put this part behind me (college was crazy). For the most part, I have ALWAYS been safe and made sure to use condoms... but sometime it breaks and makes me wonder about my partner (or partners) at that time. Well, I got tested after the recommended wait time (3 months, 13 weeks... technically it was 95 days). I was negative.Usually after a negative test I am ecstatic, but something just doesn't feel right. I know I'm negative, but I don't feel like it. I'm not one of those who thinks you can get the virus just any way, but it stays on my mind... it's hard to explain but it's like a personal tormentor that I can't seem to shake. Anyone else went through this? Because I am tired of it and want to live my life.

[RubyWitch]

We're glad you chose us to vent to! And I'm happy to hear your test was negative. I think the lessons you've learned have served you will in your new mature outlook on sexual relationships. If, in the future, you still feel anxiety, please consider getting some therapy to help you deal with your fears before it ruins your spirit.
Peace
Greenlydia

[SMS0030]

Thanks guys, I mean I know I don't have it after looking at the negative test sheet prolly 20 times today, but it's hard to accept it. I am however going to abide by a new personal rule: I am not going to have sex unless the girl is my actual GF and we've been together for some time... because it's not worth the stress! Just needed to vent though...

[CanuckGuy42]

You have HIV anxiety..... look at the facts - you tested negative.... that means you DO NOT have HIV..everything else is just in your head.... always try and stop and look at the facts....and be safe going forward and you have nothing to worry about

[melipops]

Hi, You need to relax. I think you should take the neg result and run with it. Don't worry leave the past where it is and move on. Just make sure you are safe and more picky about who you sleeep with in the future. Good luck and take care