I can relate. I think I have anxiety because I'm afraid they will find something wrong with me or the doctor will not listen or care about me. It does help to take a list so you feel more in control. Also, breath in and out deeply helps to slow the heart rate a little but not completely. I am realizing that I too need an SSRI. I'm hoping to get a prescription this week.
You need to get rid of that fear somehow. They are there to help you. They are good!
Eeverytime I go into my family doctor my Heart rate goes up to 160 and BP skyrockets. I have whitecoat anxiety.
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I meant to say I'm perfect from the Paxil.
This really sounds like anxiety and your not alone.I had anxiety eight years ago and it recently came back about three wks ago.U would be amazed all of the things your body can go threw when your stressed out or in a difficult situation.Read plenty of the post on here and u will see your sooo not alone.They have really helped me during my attacks and just getting more information.But,i was struggleing with the insurance problem to and so i went searching for places that would take a co-payment or Ones who billed me.I finally spoke to a doc.about what i was going threw.Knowing i would have an anxiety attack in the office to.I wrote down what i needed to say before i even got there so i didn't have to explain so much and freak out more.It really helped.He gave me 1mg of adavan and 10mg of lexapro.I was reluctant to take it at first even though i just bought it.How silly huh?So after realizeing i had a problem and it was not going away unless i did something about it.,I finally took the medicane and feel alot better.Matter in fact i just started today and notice some changes.Now everyones systems are not the same but,atleast u have hope.Keep your head up.See a doc,and a therapist if u can.And honestly realize u can win this battle.Good luck to u.Keep us posted.
You are definitely not alone. You need medication like an SSRI. You have to somehow see your doctor to get a prescription. I finally did it after four years. I was rambling on about symptoms and he said "Stop. I can clearly tell from looking that you have anxiety." Gave me Paxil and I'm not perfect, so far anyways. Been on it for 6 months. Rebirth.