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Guilt driven anxiety..
I think I have an HIV anxiety that has manifested through guilt. 17 weeks ago I think I strayed. Sure I did. Immeadiatley full of intense regret, remorse, contemplated suicide. First thing I thought of was HIV. I have tested using 4th gen elissa at 6 days 3, 6, ,10 and 13 weeks all negative.
I cant let it go though. I keep finding things on my body that worry me- researching the internet. Thkinking everyones wrong, the tests are wrong and I have infected my wife and son. My wife has just had a uticaria rash followed by a cold and cough. Almost pushed me over the edge!
I know GUILT is one of the strongest human emotions. Is it possible because I have done something I shouldnt have, and not got caught or punished. Guilt is inadvertantly punishing me- we all expect consequence for breaking rules. When that doesn't arrive we imagine that some way or another it will, and we will get or punishment..... Can you see where I am going?
How can I get over this? I cannot keep going. I feel on the verge of complete breakdown. SOMEBODY PLEASE ADVISE ME!
I cant let it go though. I keep finding things on my body that worry me- researching the internet. Thkinking everyones wrong, the tests are wrong and I have infected my wife and son. My wife has just had a uticaria rash followed by a cold and cough. Almost pushed me over the edge!
I know GUILT is one of the strongest human emotions. Is it possible because I have done something I shouldnt have, and not got caught or punished. Guilt is inadvertantly punishing me- we all expect consequence for breaking rules. When that doesn't arrive we imagine that some way or another it will, and we will get or punishment..... Can you see where I am going?
How can I get over this? I cannot keep going. I feel on the verge of complete breakdown. SOMEBODY PLEASE ADVISE ME!
I wouldn't dont worry. i couldn't. I love my family immensely. I jjust sometimes feel really sad. Its not really a serious thought. I wouldnt leave my family too cope alone.
Its abit silly really your depressed because you think you are going to die- therefore you contemplate ending it even sooner- paradoxical or what. Maybe in some weird way its trying to take control of your lifes own destiny and path.
Its abit silly really your depressed because you think you are going to die- therefore you contemplate ending it even sooner- paradoxical or what. Maybe in some weird way its trying to take control of your lifes own destiny and path.
Please see my reply on your other thread. The answers you need are there.
You have now twice mentioned suicide. Just a stern caution.....if you EVER truly feel that suicide is an option for you...seek IMMEDIATE and URGENT care, call 911 if you have to.
Suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem, and while YOU may think you are freeing yourself from pain and anguish...the pain you would cause those who love you is indescribable. Talk about guilt? Those left behind from suicide will FOREVER feel guilt that they didn't recognize the signs, or didn't do SOMETHING.
It isn't something to take lightly.
You have now twice mentioned suicide. Just a stern caution.....if you EVER truly feel that suicide is an option for you...seek IMMEDIATE and URGENT care, call 911 if you have to.
Suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem, and while YOU may think you are freeing yourself from pain and anguish...the pain you would cause those who love you is indescribable. Talk about guilt? Those left behind from suicide will FOREVER feel guilt that they didn't recognize the signs, or didn't do SOMETHING.
It isn't something to take lightly.
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