I feel so helpless

[nervous15]

I am 59 y.o. woman getting ready for my first "put to sleep" surgery.  The surgery is a UPPP, brcause of lack of Oxygen to my brain and heart.  I have a highly recommended surgeon who has taken much time to talk with me.  He explained everything.  I am NOT fearful of his abilities.  Secondly I have to be put to sleep.  Oh my Begeezes I feel like I am going to die.  What does it feel like, OMG the anticipation is killing me.  Here's the clincher.  I have high blood pressure (also a complication from this obstruction).  My blood pressure is controlled by medicine...EXCEPT when my anxiety and fear take hold.  I am due to have the surgery on May 21st and my pressure has been up and down.  I am so scared that I will stroke out!  I cant imagine NOT going through with this as I definately need the surgery.  How do I come to terms with the waiting and the waiting at the hospital, stuck in a bed, with IVS, no where to go!!!  Run!!!!  I am afraid my pressure will be extremely high...OMG what do I do Please someone help.

[nervous15]

Yes I will follow your instructions, I am sorry I sound so frantic.  I am NEVER going on any of those sites again.  I have to recover from what I read yesterday night.  My pressure is higher today .  I just took it and it is 106/83..I had to calm down a little, cause it was 130/90.

I wish it was NEXT week.....


Stay with me,

Carole

  

[nervous15]

I forgot other stuff I read... It states in publications, that a person should be closely monitored for O2 saturation, that some patients with this surgery could die from lack of O2?   I know my surgeon stated I would be on humidified O2 the night of the surgery?  I guess he's expecting bad problems too.  They also say that  someone older , with this surgery should be placed in a room right outside the nurses station...OM....OMG I will fight the MEDICINE and stay up all night so I dont DIE or have a Hemmorage.  Does percocet have steroids in it?  I am now searching for a pain medicine that doesnt.....if I take steroids my pressure will surely shoot up....swelling in my throat without steroids am I going to die, will my throat close and stop me from breathing?    OMG I am so F****N scared...

Carole
sorry for using profanity

[nursegirl6572]

First off...STOP READING!!!!!  :0)  And, yes, that is an order, dammmit. LOL

The reason you can't find anything...is because ANY surgery is going to carry slightly (notice I said SLIGHTLY) higher risks the older the patient is.  Just because of the "bounce back" factor.  YOUR age?  Not a concern.  Unless you're really 90 and didn't tell us.  ;0)

The docs will monitor you closely for any bleeding or problems...and remember he does this day in and day out...and could prolly do it in his sleep.

Finally....do you REALLY think that YOUR one surgery is going to buy him a new Mercedes?  :0)  Or maybe that he needs one more pair of tonsils in a pickle jar to complete his collection?  :0)

I'm not saying docs don't EVER do unnecessary surgeries...but from what you said...you were supposed to have it done last year and didn't right?  Most conditions become worse with time, not better.  If I hadn't had my gallbladder removed when I did...I guaruntee I still would have had to have it out....and if I would have put it off...I would have opened myself up to more complications just by it BEING there, being ucky (yes, that is a medically approved technical term....UCKY...meaning "of the yuck").

I've got my listening ears on....I know 6 days and counting is nerve wracking for you...just THINK!  This time next week, you'll be DONE...eating jello!  Wa-hoo!

No, you hear me about the reading, woman?  NO more googling, yahoo-ing, or askmrjeeves-ing.  GOT IT?

;0)

Now that I've scolded you...I'll give ya a hug.......  :0)

HANG IN THERE.....

[nervous15]

Some more WAY big concerns.  HEMMORAGE  the more I read about this thing (and I definately shouldnt) it stresses HEMMORAGE, and how this is likely in older patients, its life threatening, the pain is unbearable, on and on.   I cant find ANYTHING that comforts a person MY AGE.. I am a stress eater and honey have I been doing just that.  
i still have yet  to read anything that tells me exactly WHY the DRS dont like removing the tonsils of someone my age. Then I am thinking is MY DR just doing this because thats how he makes his money?  OMG I am getting very very frantic here....my BP is noticeably higher...HELP!!!

6 days and counting

Carole

[lonewolf07]

Hi

Sorry this is so short.

I saw the medicine woman today and we prayed and smudged and even had a little ceremony for nervous.  There was also singing and drumming which, for us, is healing.

There's a doctoring ceremony on the weekend and we'll all be praying and asking the Great Mystery to be in the OR when you have your surgery.

TTYL and ....

(((((HUGS)))))

wolfie

[nursegirl6572]

I tis here, with ear at the ready...bend away.

That BP is awesome, by the way!!!

Look at Carole go!!!