Little thing ruin your day?

[worryingwort]

My anxiety makes little things ruin my day.
I was having a great day today, ( took one of my Klonopin to help with the morning anxiety) school went by fast and OK, work was easy and fast, and i was having good conversations with my girlfriend.
When i finally got home, i went to get out of my car, and my brand new cellphone falls out of my lap, breaks into 3 peices and skipps all over the driveway getting all scratched and dented. It was put back together after that, and still worked, but now its all scratched. THis just ruined my great day completely.
I went into the house mad and upset and just layed down and went to sleep, even tho i had tons of hw left. 45 min later, my gf called me and started getting all mad at me because i didnt call her when i was suppose to. THis further agrivated me, and i got mad at her for being so controlling and nagging. THis one little thing of dropping my phone ruined my day, and i know it shouldnt...

[shelzmike]

First of all, having something like this upset you is not uncommon - not only amongst us anxiety/panic sufferers, but of "normal" people without the illness as well. It is part of being human. However, it does seem to affect us quicker and more severely, which is really the basis for our illness to begin with. It results from a sensitization of our nerves, which, you guessed it, is DIRECTLY linked and influenced by our mood and emotions. While many others have more of a "dimmer" switch when it comes to these types of things, we on the other hand have a hair trigger. We can go from calm to angry, anxious, etc. SO fast that we can hardly tell why - this is why it is so hard at first to learn to control these feelings. It is in a sense, just like trying to dodge a bullett. Very hard to do. But unlike bullet dodging, dealing with and immediately analyzing the situation and accepting things that we cannot change, can be done.

I am lucky in this department. Sometimes my wife tells me that I am not normal because little things (and even big things sometimes) do not bother me either at all or for an extended period of time. I tend to "go with the flow" and am lucky I am able to do something. Would I be mad if I dropped my cell phone? You better believe it, but shortly after, I would HAVE to logically tell myself. "Well, I have known about gravity for some time now, and it still does work! I cannot go back in time to change it, only move forward from here, so I need to deal with it."

Oh, and be glad that you do not want to drink rum because of SSRIs, calming with alcohol is NOT another monkey that you need on your back.

Mike

[heartfluttersflyawayplz]

yeah sorry to hear that,it really dont take much to set your mind at anxiety level.i know its the same for me, but after you calm down mine gets better but sometimes leaves me with anxiety a couple days if it was really bad. i hope you have a better day today

[worryingwort]

THis is the only time i ever feel depressed, when i do something or something happens that could have been avoided. I just worry and worry thinking what if i hadent done this and what if i had done this, and i just cant stop What IFing even if its something this little. I hate it, i cant stand it, and i cant stop it even tho i know it wont help and its stupid!

The only sollution seems to be to drink some rum, even tho im on stupid SSRIs.

I swear the prozac makes everything 5 times worse.