Sounds to me like you need to ditch the Physc, and stick with your reg. Dr.
Thats pretty bad when a regular Dr. Knows more then a Physc. Dr.
I agree about the sensativity, and it definently sounds like your brain has enough seritonin.
What you said about your pupils is a clear indicator that your brain doesnt need anything "upping" the seritonin
Sounds to me like it might need something "upping" the GABA.
Have you ever been on anything else?
Hi, well i'm on Propanalol 40mg x 2 times daily, which helps my GAD enormously, other than that not really, my GP did give me several months ago now Diazipam 2mg but said it was a one off prescription due to being a highly addictive drug, so i only take it when i'm climbing the walls...literally. Erm, also my GP tried me on Risperidone an anti-psychotic to calm my anxiety, which does work but leaves me feeling like total poo once it wears off....so i stopped taking that.
I'm also having CBT which doesn't seem to be working so i'm fast running out of ideas and losing hope. I'm only depressed because i'm unable to stop panicking everytime i go out which is causing severe agoraphobia.......
Don't know hat else to do????? Do you have any suggestions???? Ohh and thank-you are replying.... what you have just told me actually has helped, i think i need to tell that to my psychriatic nurse.....
Hi Julie. I used biofeedback therapy several years ago with great success when I suffered from anxiety. I would look into it if I were you. Good luck and feel better!
Heya Julie! I'm sorry you are having such a rough time!
Let me ask you something....when you noticed the strange changes with your pupils, was the light changing in the room at all? Was the change occuring as you looked continously in the mirror, without changing the light, or without blinking? Reason I ask is b/c our pupils are supposed to react with light...they become very large (dilated) in the dark (to allow us to see better) and constricted (very small) when exposed to light. Even just the act of blinking many times can cause them to dilate then constrict. If you noticed this without any light changes, etc...that is definitely odd, and something that warrants a call to your doc to discuss both the symptoms, and the Paxil.
Certainly sounds as though you don't tolerate the Paxil very well at all. Now, to label it an actual "allergy" is a little more complicated. Either way, the verbiage isn't as important as staying away from the medication. Remember to mention that to every Doctor, Pharmacist, and medical facility you deal with so that it is in your medical record to avoid somehow you being inadvertently put back on it.
How are you feeling now? Most of the effects dissipated I hope? I'll be anxious to hear what the doc says...please be sure to update us, okay? Hang in there!
You can talk to your doctor about maybe trying Gabapentin ( Neurontin ) or Pregabalin ( Lyrica ). They are good mood stabilizers and proven efficient for anxiety but some people and especially women are sensitive to those as well. When we talk about ''upping your GABA'' they are the drugs of choice. If you are still sensitive to those meds maybe try to go for a natural solution like gamma-Aminobutyric acid ( GABA ) that can be bought in food supplement stores and see if it works.
Anyway those are all issues you will need to discuss with your doctor and don't take anything ''natural'' along with regular medications before talking with your doctor.
Best regards,
M4
Hiya Nursegirl, erm no the room was well lit and as soon as i looked in the mirror i straight away noticed how big my pupils were, as they normally are fairly restricted, so without blinking for about 30 seconds or so i just watched my pupils and they were dilating and restricting without any light changes, all i know is they got very big. This seems to be the one thing that happened while trying to get onto the other anti-d's.... it happened with all of them actually, then i find if i continue to take them i get severe weakness in my legs and in a matter of 4 or 5 days my legs are so weak i can barely walk.... so i know from this the drugs are attacking my nervous system. However the GP or the Psychiatrist will not for some reason see this as a connection with the drugs.....stupid ars* holes. I even went into the doc's one time with crutches, limping like crazy and all they could ask is DID I FALL..... and put it down to a trapped nerve...i mean DURRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR!!!
Anyway, sorry it just makes me mad that they don't seem to be taking what is happening to me as serious and just keep throwing these drugs at me, i feel like they are gona end up killing me before too long....... However only now it seems my GP is beginning to understand but even still he is now offering instead of SSRI's and SNRI's he wants me to try Tryclic anti'd's..... which as far as i know carry far more side-effects than SSRI's... All i know is this is making me crazy.
Thankyou M4YOU i'm gona google these drugs and have a read..... can i ask something though is Wellburtrin in the same family as GABA cause i've read up on this and it ani't a true anti-d like SSRI's it has more anxiety controlling properties i've seen... but the only thing that puts me off is that it can lower the thresh hold for seizures...and is known highly for this. Otherwise i would of given that a go to..... does these other drugs do that?
Personally i don't recommend Wellbutrin for your anxiety problem. Wellburtrin is a norepinephrine and dopamine reuptake inhibitor, and nicotinic antagonist. Dopamine surely boost the moral and norepinephrine is synthesized by dopamine but i personally don't think you're are going to tolerate it more since of your previous overreactions and you are right about seizures threshold and that would puts me off too.
Anyway those are issues that should be addressed with your doctors and my opinion stays the same about Lyrica or Neurotin. They are totally different from SSRIs and SNRIs and Wellbutrin is not so different from the SNRIs since it reuptake the norepinephrine inhibitors and an overreaction to a dopamine reuptake doesn't sounds good too. Chronic secretion of stress hormones, glucocorticoids and catecholamines may reduce the effect of neurotransmitters, including serotonin, norepinephrine and dopamine, or other receptors in the brain, thereby leading to the dysregulation of neurohormones.
Good luck,
M4
Thank-you, i spoke to my GP today, he reckons that my reaction to the Paroxatine might be due to the fact that becuase i have had bad reactions to some of the other anti-d's i have become so terrified of them that i am causing a reaction. He reckons that my pupils reacting like that could just be a reaction to fear, he said that pupils do widen in a fear response to allow that much needed awareness and view of the surroundings...makes sense and is true. He does make sense as since i had several bad reactions to previous SSRI's i am shi* scared of having another. The mind is a powerful thing and i'm now just so utterly frustrated by the whole thing.
My psychiatric nurse is coming over tomorrow so i'm gona discuss it with her and see what she can come up with to help me relax about this whole situation. Maybe i need some Valium or something for the first few weeks of taking it...
I totally agree with you doctor and he seems to be a very good doctor because the fact that he talked to you about this rather than saying ''it's stress''.
Keep us posted regarding how it goes with the psy.
M4
Psychiatrists very seldom admit the downsides of these medications. I'm not even sure if they care. They consider actual patients to be merely anecdotal data and disregard it. What I can say, and this is also purely anecdotal, is that people who are on ssris for a long time seem to have more problems quitting them and using them again than people who only use them for short time periods. Whether this indicates some kind of subtle brain change, who knows? Nobody's looking. Tricyclics do have different side effects -- for me it was dry mouth, headaches, and constipation, among others -- but it might be better than what you're experiencing. ssris have a lot of side effects, too. As nursegirl said, it's not necessarily or even likely an allergy as much as your body not wanting to go back on that kind of med for whatever reason. One of the reasons meds have side effects is that the body thinks they're toxic and fight them -- that's one of the reasons it takes years to develop a new med, getting it past the body's defenses. We're not adapted to taking these substances, unlike plants and animals that have been around for centuries. So it might also be that if you stayed on the med, the intense reaction would eventually dissipate, but you'll only find that out by going through it awhile, and it sounds pretty unpleasant. As for GABA, again, MA, GABA is not considered well-absorbed as a supplement. The best way to work on GABA is to take taurine and perhaps tyrosine, the amino acids that manufacture GABA in the body. And research gabapentin carefully; it can be a difficult med. Wellbutrin is a pure anti-depressant that often is very stimulating and wouldn't be a first line treatment for anxiety, though it might be combined with an ssri for some people. And as for this being psychosomatic, I doubt that, I really do. Trust your instincts.
While I'm a big proponent of meds, I agree not not enough attention is paid to the adverse effects, most specifically the discontinuation syndromes that SSRI's are famous for. I also think that the severity of the withdrawals could be greatly reduced, if not eliminated all together for a great majority of people if only the docs properly tapered pt's off of these meds when the time comes to D/C them.
I always advocate for pt's in our facility when they are on these kinds of meds and stress to the MD the importance of a proper taper, some listen, some don't.
So, while I am always sensitive to "bad mouthing" meds or docs when it relates to someone's personal experiences, I couldn't agree more that this is a big problem, and that is sad when a lot of it could be easily avoidable if the meds were prescribed and discontinued properly each and every time. That's why I am so glad that forums like this one exist, to help with educating people about these meds...both the good and the bad.
Wow. Lots of good comments here Julie. Like nursegirl, I simply can't be totally anti-medicine for depression and anxiety.
I am now 74, retired public librarian who got along just fine on Klonopin for years (yes I know it is habit forming)....but psych thought I should be on antidepressant since I've been through alot.
I relate to nursegirl's comments....believe I've been on at least 20 meds since age 40 when I had first meltdown....and wound up in hospital and at the mercy of a shrink.
The current shrink is kind but he is just putting me thru unbelievable misery with antidepressants...I've tried 5 in past year. All had incredibly frightening results.
I know my body has changed since anal cancer treatment . Age is possibly a factor, and maybe my brain is just saying 'no' to these meds. Like you, I'm afraid one will kill me if I keep up the experiments.
Zoloft was the last one I tried...when I took it for a month or so 20 yrs ago...all I remember is that it ramped up the anxiety..and didn't help with depression.
This time...1/2 tab put me in bathroom for about 12 hrs....worse than Lexapro, another he wanted me to try, altho I remembered it caused explosive diarrhea after taking a week back in the day.
I was so terrified by Zolft as it was a complete surprise:, loud bowel noises, severe cramping, hours of burning diarrhea,then bright red bloody discharge. I almost fainted. Could Zoloft cause a return of anal cancer...my god...it was too awful.
Well enough....you are brave to keep trying. I will keep you in my prayers.
Best,
Ann
Sorry Julie...didn't ans your question about Paxil. I took it for a solid year about 15 yrs ago. It keep me in a blah state..which was ok as long as I could work, but then, suddenly there was extreme diarrhea. Back then, I tried and tried to follow doctor's orders, but it didn't let up, and I couldn't work, so stopped it.
Now after all the frustration and misery I've gone thru retrying old drugs, I absolutely won't try another.
The Tri Cyclics in my experience are sometimes prescribed by personal physicians. I experienced huge weight gain and bladder pooling when retried in my 50s.
Took with just the dry mouth, and other easy to live with symptoms for about 4 years when I was 40.
I am sure age makes a difference....so you may do fine. They give you a good sleep.
and that is what all people need to function well.
Hi all, well my psychiatric nurse couldn't make it for the appointment, some emergency came up, i thought if this was the day i decided to kill myself, she would be in a whole heap of dog poo for canceling on me, massive enquiry, maybe her getting sacked etc....
So i didn't get to sit down and discuss anything with her, so i have to wait now for her to phone and rebook a time, think it's bad really as i was on the edge yesterday, felt so low, and i really needed to get something sorted with the med's..... but again i'm let down. Tried to ring her but couldn't get hold of her, so left a message.
So yeah, thats my little update...... Thank-you to you all for caring and replying to me. Means the world and makes a difference to feeling completely alone and knowing there are good, caring people in this ugly, dammed world.
With the anti-d's it just goes to show how people react sooo completely different, my side effects are all nervous system related and airannie's is digestive related, sounds extremely unpleasant..... but makes sense as the majority of serotoin is actually in the gut.... so interfering with the serotion levels in your body caused such a bad reaction in ur stomach.
Thank's again xxx
Boy do I wish I had you around instead of my psychiatrist when I went off Paxil. He did taper me off, but when I fell apart he didn't mention it might be withdrawal. He never mentioned withdrawal to me, ever -- I had to find out on the internet, of all places. My reaction was extreme, and I don't expect many others get such a reaction, but what it taught me is patients need to have foreknowledge even when we don't want it. And age and length of time on a med are also critical factors, and that isn't explained to us, either. My current psychiatrist is much better, she listens and she knows the downsides of meds, but she doesn't work with insurance, which is also what I've found -- the good ones usually don't. What a system! She also has no idea how to fix what broke, so again, being prepared allows us to handle these things without so many of the problems people on here report. The answer isn't to never use meds, it's to use them only when necessary, and then with knowledge about how to use them and how to get off of them. I think we all need to quiz our psychiatrists about this before we trust them with our brains. And Julie's right, most serotonin is in the gut and works independently of the serotonin in the brain; there's also a lot in the blood vessels. It's always good to have digestive enzymes and aloe juice around the house.
Julie,
I am so sorry the psch nurse didn't sit with you today. You have my sympathy and concern. The world often seems ugly and uncaring to me too. Don't like having that feeling, but how we are treated by medical professionals when we need their help contributes to state of mind.
Thanks for sharing the information about seratonin residing in stomach....I couldn't figure out why I was having so many gastric problems....when I think about it, all of the SSRIs have at one time or another caused nausea, stomach cramps, and diarrhea (the worst!).
Stay with us, and at least you know you are not alone. Sometimes I don't know a message has been sent to me, but will always respond when I see it.
Love,
Ann
Julie,
I am so sorry the psch nurse didn't sit with you today. You have my sympathy and concern. The world often seems ugly and uncaring to me too. Don't like having that feeling, but how we are treated by medical professionals when we need their help contributes to state of mind.
Thanks for sharing the information about seratonin residing in stomach....I couldn't figure out why I was having so many gastric problems....when I think about it, all of the SSRIs have at one time or another caused nausea, stomach cramps, and diarrhea (the worst!).
Stay with us, and at least you know you are not alone. Sometimes I don't know a message has been sent to me, but will always respond when I see it.
Love,
Ann
Julie,
I am so sorry the psch nurse didn't sit with you today. You have my sympathy and concern. The world often seems ugly and uncaring to me too. Don't like having that feeling, but how we are treated by medical professionals when we need their help contributes to state of mind.
Thanks for sharing the information about seratonin residing in stomach....I couldn't figure out why I was having so many gastric problems....when I think about it, all of the SSRIs have at one time or another caused nausea, stomach cramps, and diarrhea (the worst!).
Stay with us, and at least you know you are not alone. Sometimes I don't know a message has been sent to me, but will always respond when I see it.
Love,
Ann