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[Soscarred]

I had a simple hernia surgery that went well except I got sick from anesthesia and then was allergic to the pain meds and thought I was going to die. Since then (6weeks ago). I developed anxiety and depression for the first time. It was getting uncontrollable and I was seriously freaking myself out then woke up thinking why do we live had trouble staying in the present and was tired of living. These thoughts completely freaked me out so I made an appt with my gp and a therapist. So far I've been on sertraline for two weeks at 50 mg and diazepam to help thru start up. I stopped the diazepam after only about 3-4 days but now I might need it again. It is my first day back to work in two weeks and I know that upped my anxiety but I'm feeling so hopeless. I have no appetite and feel sick which reminds me of the close call on the pain meds and again I start to panic. When will I get some relief?  I had a few nights I thought ok I can do this but then today l can barely function. My gp wants me to stay at 50mg a little longer since it hasn't been long. I hope my therapist can help too I see her on Thursday. I just feel so lonely sometimes and so scarred. Any good advise on how to hang on would be very much appreciated. Good luck to everyone else out there.

[Paxiled]

Careful trying to treat a problem created by drugs with more drugs.  Your body and mind need time to heal, and more drugs can make that less possible by artificially altering the way your brain works again, making it harder for it to get back to normal.  I'd try the therapy and a natural approach before I tried to treat drugs with drugs -- the meds will still be there if that doesn't work.  It sounds like you have two problems -- whatever the meds did to your brain function that needs to heal, and the PTSD reaction you're having to that stress.  Both need to be worked out.  Good luck.

[Life360_Dave]

Hi So,
Its is a scary feeling with the pain meds, especially if you were not expecting the feeling. One thing to realize is that you were not at death door with the pain meds as the doctors know what to perscribe. Your the type of person that is clear minded and just was not comfortable with the feeling. So put this behind you and next time just take 1/2 the dose as you are very sensitive to them.
If a person lives some time with a clear focused train of thought, as with you, that experience with the pain meds broke your thinking, and in a way,  you were faced with your humanity for the first time.

Try adding some more spirituality to your everyday life with the God of your choice. Try to pray a bit more and realize that we are all in this together and thank God that your in good health.