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Please help..losing my mind
I'm losing myself in this health anxiety....please tell me how to stop thinking the worst...I can't survive like this anymore...its unbearable..the fear...the worry....my life is consumed with it all...from one disease to the next.....someone..anyone...tell me how to make it stop...I'm starting to feel like at least in death there will be some peace...
I know exactly how you feel last august at the age of 39 I was rushed to the hospital by ambulance in a-fib,ive had every test known to man and my heart is healthy, I wish the dr's could atleast give me a reason for the a-fib because since then I have developed panic disorder with pharmacphobia (fear of takeing medicine) I live daily with anticipatory anxiety wandering when the next attack is going to happen and im totally fatigued and out of it all the time,my dr gave me ativan but with the phobia am scared to take it, I have made numerous er visits thinking im haveing a heart attack or something and always been sent home with no answers to why i feel the way i did until i researched the anxiety, i have been working on cognitive behavorial therapy because anxiety is a learned behaviour and we have to pretty much rewire our brains to get relief from it,if you can remeber to tell yourself its just anxiety it will go away and let yourself feel the physical symptoms and know that NOONE has ever died from a panic attack and it will pass and go away...I always seem to do better when i have a busy day because i dont have time to think about anything but those days when i have nothing to do are hard..i faced a fear about 3 weeks ago and had a hysterectomy, i felt great for about a week but the anxiety returned with the fear of meds and thats silly because they gave me all kinds of meds in the hospital for surgery and im still here....its a vicous cycle but with a good support group and some self preservation i think it will be ok and i will be back to normal in no time as will you......Michele
Lol...I just had a nice laugh over the jacket potato...thanks...what wonderful information you have given me..thank you for taking the time to write all that.....I appreciate it more then you know...I have had anxiety my whole life...I can look back at my childhood and recognize some anxious behaviors and OCD....I handle it well.on the outside...there are very few people who even know the horrors that I suffer...I think going forward I am going to see a psychiatrist and talk about medications...it can't hurt..I just want to wake up in the morning without this dread and feAr every day....I have a wonderful hubby's and 3 incredible children..a great career....but inside I'm just scared....it's a fear no one understands unless they suffer from it...my father is bi polar and schizophrenic and has been institutionalized for over
ten years....sometimes I fear that will happen to me....
ten years....sometimes I fear that will happen to me....
LMAO!! Ohh i guess it's just us English that call it that...haha a jacket potato is a potato that is cooked in it's skin in the oven. You eat the whole potato, skin and all. Really nice with Tuna and salad...yum!
Julie...I have to ask...what the heck is a jacket potato? A tater that's cold and needs a windbreaker? ;0)
Really...I've never heard of it!
Really...I've never heard of it!
I am currently reading "the secret" Its a good book but as of right now I have a hard time focusing on it. It is good to try it helps alot. I know how you feel. I feel the same way everyday. Honestly been on meds fr 9 years and up until the past 4 months I was good an it was manageable, But i think the meds stopped working for me since I have been on them so long. Your deff not alone. We all I think feel the same way you do at one point or another. My heart goes out to you!!! I know what your going through an everything will be ok. I tell myself that everyday. This forum helps alot. Try meds, you will have to figure out which meds work for you but its worth it,
sorry forgot..... please don't try to treat yourself for Pyroluria by taking large amounts of B6 and Zinc as these two nutriments in large amounts can be toxic to the body if you do not need them. So plez make sure you get the test first if you decide to.
Also working with a nutritionist will teach you how to provide your body with the best nutrition, so you learn how to group top powerhouse foods together to gain maximum benefit. People really under estimate how the diets we have become use to really has a massive impact on our bodies. For example: did you know that margerine is one molecule away from being plastic! margerine will never grow mould like other foods and if you leave it out in a cool area no flys or any other bug will go near the stuff..... makes you think hey! We really do not realise what we are ingesting.
Also working with a nutritionist will teach you how to provide your body with the best nutrition, so you learn how to group top powerhouse foods together to gain maximum benefit. People really under estimate how the diets we have become use to really has a massive impact on our bodies. For example: did you know that margerine is one molecule away from being plastic! margerine will never grow mould like other foods and if you leave it out in a cool area no flys or any other bug will go near the stuff..... makes you think hey! We really do not realise what we are ingesting.
Understanding that u are not alone is a great comfort within an illness that brings such utter darkness. You are far from alone in ways you probably don't even realise and yes this forum is amazing, it certainly helped me out in my darker moments.
Can I ask how long you have been struggling with amxiety and why you have chose not to try med's? If ur not sure about med's you could first try herbal supplements. There are herbs such as Valerian, passion flower, hops and more. Some combined together to produce an agent that will help in times of great distress. Most health food shops will have them.
It is a great shame ur still having difficulty after having CBT, maybe you need to concentrate more for the moment on ur nutritional needs as vitamin and\or mineral deficiencies can cause anxiety, depression and a whole host of mental and physcial problems. Being low in B- vitamins, omega 3 and minerals such as magnesium, zinc can make you feel very run down and ill. There is also a condition called Pyroluria, which robs the body of B6, Zinc and sometimes Magnesium which then causes mental health issues which can be severe. A simple urine test will diagnose you and a blood test will look at your B6 etc levels. The great news is all that is needed is to supplement the body with these lost nutriments and within a few days to weeks people start feeling better and more calmer. You probably won't be able to get this test done through ur PC\GP doc, but you can get it through a nutritionist. Have a read up on google about it and see if it fits your symptoms.
In the mean time I probabaly would say have a think about trying a medium strength muti-vitamin n mineral, increase fruit\veg, esspecially green veg, grab some oily fish like makeral, salmon and try lots of pulses, legumes. Try to cut out sugars, additives, processed foods and I bet you all the tea in china your body will start to feel more calmer. oooo n with each meal or snack make sure u have a protein, like if u have friut salad also include a natural yogurt or if you have a jacket potato aso include tuna.... The protein will provide ur body to produce amino acids which are needed to help the body function properly.
Hope u found something useful and good-luck.
Can I ask how long you have been struggling with amxiety and why you have chose not to try med's? If ur not sure about med's you could first try herbal supplements. There are herbs such as Valerian, passion flower, hops and more. Some combined together to produce an agent that will help in times of great distress. Most health food shops will have them.
It is a great shame ur still having difficulty after having CBT, maybe you need to concentrate more for the moment on ur nutritional needs as vitamin and\or mineral deficiencies can cause anxiety, depression and a whole host of mental and physcial problems. Being low in B- vitamins, omega 3 and minerals such as magnesium, zinc can make you feel very run down and ill. There is also a condition called Pyroluria, which robs the body of B6, Zinc and sometimes Magnesium which then causes mental health issues which can be severe. A simple urine test will diagnose you and a blood test will look at your B6 etc levels. The great news is all that is needed is to supplement the body with these lost nutriments and within a few days to weeks people start feeling better and more calmer. You probably won't be able to get this test done through ur PC\GP doc, but you can get it through a nutritionist. Have a read up on google about it and see if it fits your symptoms.
In the mean time I probabaly would say have a think about trying a medium strength muti-vitamin n mineral, increase fruit\veg, esspecially green veg, grab some oily fish like makeral, salmon and try lots of pulses, legumes. Try to cut out sugars, additives, processed foods and I bet you all the tea in china your body will start to feel more calmer. oooo n with each meal or snack make sure u have a protein, like if u have friut salad also include a natural yogurt or if you have a jacket potato aso include tuna.... The protein will provide ur body to produce amino acids which are needed to help the body function properly.
Hope u found something useful and good-luck.
Thank you all....it's just some days are harder then others.....last night was really bad.....I'm definitely not suicidal....I love living.....I just hate the fear...the worry....the frightening feelings....kinda feels hopeless...I've done cbt....read books...never tried meds.. Maybe I should..having this forum as an outlet is a lifesaver many days...just reading others stories....
Amen...I second the above thoughts. You are FAR from alone in this. Just browse the forum and you will see just how many people struggle with healthanxiety/phobias and have fought it for years, some decades. There IS help out there, sometimes it just takes a bit of trial and error to find the right treatment for you.
There are lots of options...anything from medications, therapy, meditation, biofeedback, natural/herbal supplements, you name it. There is truly "something for everyone" when it comes to anxiety treatment. Get yourself to a psychiatrist who can thoroughly assess you and give you an official diagnosis. From there, you and the doc can discuss the treatment options that would be best for you.
Hang in there, we're always here....things WILL get better, as hard as that is to believe right now. It will take some time and patience and work on your part, but once you learn to break that anxious cycle of thinking, you'll be on the road to wellness again. Take care!
There are lots of options...anything from medications, therapy, meditation, biofeedback, natural/herbal supplements, you name it. There is truly "something for everyone" when it comes to anxiety treatment. Get yourself to a psychiatrist who can thoroughly assess you and give you an official diagnosis. From there, you and the doc can discuss the treatment options that would be best for you.
Hang in there, we're always here....things WILL get better, as hard as that is to believe right now. It will take some time and patience and work on your part, but once you learn to break that anxious cycle of thinking, you'll be on the road to wellness again. Take care!
Also just to add if you are starting to feel suidical you need to be seen asap. If you feel the urge to do anything go straight to the ER/AnE and get seen. There is a tremendous amount of help out there for you, please dont suffer in silence!
There is another book that holds exactly what you are looking for, it is called 'The Secret' by rhonda byrne. You can get it on amazon. it holds all the info you will ever need.
I really really really suggest the Eckhart Tolle books, I am like you as we have noted before, the thoughts are dibilitating. His work is helping me soooo much. Please just go look him up on youtube and see what you think.
You have to recognize that you suffer from "thoughts" about these diseases, and not the actual disease. Accept that you have health anxieties and when you have these worries, remind yourself that you are healthy. You don't have cancer, you have thoughts that you have cancer. You aren't having a heart attack or a tumor, you have thoughts about having them. Learn to look at your thoughts and not from them. Look at your anxiety as something in the room separate from yourself. It's taunting you and trying to scare you. Don't fight it, don't try to make it go away, don't even ignore it. Accept it as something that is just part of your life, but don't empower it. You aren't dying, you just have fears and thoughts that you are, and that is the only thing that is real.
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