Exactly. For me I needed to give myself i kick in the rear to get going. I was in such a slump, it was awful. Everyday I had horrible anxiety, and everybody I would bother people with my anxiety, it got out of control, I was doing nothing with my life except having anxiety. I finally got the help I needed. If you are having anxiety I strongly urge you to get some type of help before it gets out of control. I am not saying jump on meds right away either, but if it comes to that, then hey it comes to that. Since starting my medication I finally feel like I am alive again once again. I can enjoy life, and enjoy time with my loved ones. I pray every night and thank god for giving me this life... should probably thank him for klonopin and prozac too :)..... I promise to all of you things can get better, but it is not going to happen over night and it is going to take hard work.. In the end if we all put in the time and hardwork, the award the priceless.
Thanks for this. I was literally sitting here crying having an emotional breakdown because of how bad my anxiety has been getting. I've never gotten help but I think it will start me in the right direction. Writing down my feelings also helps. This might sound crazy but letting myself cry releases a lot of the emotional tension I have inside and gives off a calming vibe. So crying just now did help. Don't hold your emotions in. That definitely makes you even more anxious.
What armira just said just touched my heart I felt every word she said ..
Hi,
I have had GAD for over 10 years now and it has sucked the enjoyment out of life... I feel like I have missed so many moments and times that should've been enjoyed!! I have tried therapy, herbals, but nothing really took the "edge" off, of course I didn't realise how little the natural remedies were doing until now.
I have friends, and even my husband who ask me.. what are you stressed about.. why cant you just relax and take life into stride like they do. I have so many regrets, especially when it comes to my children as I know how self-focused I have been for over a decade, and I know I didn't put in the time I could have because I couldn't cope.
I'd like to tell you that you are not alone in feeling so very frustrated and helpless... I come from a Christian background, but I have found that suffering from anxiety has made it hard to keep trusting in God, as I struggle to understand.. "why".. why do I have this.. why don't you take it away? Before the anxiety hit, I was a relatively confident Christian, not perfect by any means, but now I struggle. I have always felt that because I was always so convinced I was going to die that it meant I wasn't going to heaven, that I wasn't a Christian really.. this is why I felt that way.. All these thoughts, the absolute fear of death... I have had so many tests done for a 38 year old.. halter monitor, ecg's, colonoscopy, scans... I would always focus on one thing at a time, and once it was cleared.. fixate on the next one. Racing heart, feeling like I couldn' t breathe, funny head..all the classic things...made my life a constant battle..
BUT... I have to say... there is hope, and you will laugh again, but it might mean doing things that you are not comfortable with. I NEVER thought I would end up on Zoloft, It was always my very last resort as I was so very, very, scared of side effects.. but I am now. I'm not saying to "jump on the meds".. I tried for many years to avoid them, but since being on them.. my head is clearer, I am more relaxed, I laugh.. fancy that!! I have the weirdest feeling sometimes now... and I think its called happiness ... I'd forgotten what that felt like!! For me, meds have helped. I'm trying to go to bed earlier, get exercise, and not skip meals...all very important too!
I know what it's like to feel regret, believe me.. I want to cry to when I think of my family and how much more I should've been there.. but I can't change that now.. and dwelling on those thoughts wont help.
I wish you all the best. I suggest trying a naturopath and cognitive therapy first, give that a few months.. if those don't help you get to a better place.. then do consider meds. I wonder now.. why didn't I medicate a decade ago..but that's just me.. your experience may be different.
I have to believe that I have suffered each day with this for a reason, that God has not taken this from me for a purpose, and perhaps if I can help even one person through, it would've been worth it.
Take care :)
Thank you for shareing this post,But this life,these feelings,this reality is so awful :'(.....I wish I could smile again,not like a fake smile as i use to act every moment..I'm so tired to try to find happiness,so tired of trying to calm down my crazy heart,my creazy thoughts...I would like to just go away,somewhere where I'd feel happy....ohh I said "HAPPY" i forgot that feeling..I would like to have a time machine and just go back in time,to LIVE my life even for one day and to feel alive,to breathe sooo deeeeep and tell the world ''Hey I'm existing".I would like to run and run and run without direction just to wash away this pain I'm feeling...oh God Am I asking to much?????
Thank you for a great post! Have been struggling a bit the last few days, always good to get a reminder that this is a journey, not a one-and-done.
Take care and good wishes to you, too!
I meant ARE NOT Suicidal!!!!!