is this ocd and stress related

[richtaz]

hi i am just asking if this is happens or happened to anyone else. When i appear to be stressed or when stress builds up mainly on a subconcious level say after more than 4 weeks of it. I start to notice myself building up tears and getting irritable etc like i can feel my depreesion episode brewing and i cant do anything about it. Then a few days later bang i loose all feelings of love for my fiancee and my mind starts questioning everything and goes on a rampage. i get all bad memories from different parts of my life just randomly popping in,flash backs of situations when i felt numb trying to kiss my fiancee. All at the same i get upset i have loose stools, my neck gets stiff etc and have mild panic attacks mainly adrenaline rushes etc. When really my fiancee have been fine etc right up till that moment. we never argue etc. I would say 80 percent is work stress the other is money and things. it always happens to me as i have looked back in my diary and its a common pattern. is there anything i can do to stop being so sensitive to stress. please help !!!!
on top of that for past 3weeks i have had ocd thoughts of telling me i dont love my fiancee its killing me they are there 24/7 and i cant stop them. i just cry

[annalawny]

Is it OCD?  not sure but then, I'm not a doctor so... talk to one, I would think, if you have depression building to that degree.  I have 'OCD' myself, and I recognize some of what you go through - the building up of stress, and then it comes out in 'OCD" ways - for me, it involves thinking I am sick, or that something I have used or touched is 'contaminated' somehow, and I obsess over whether I handled things correctly.  I agree w/ Jeff that you are using a lot of 'energy' - energy that could be channeled in more positive ways.  At least that is my own situation.  I finally went to a psychiatrist and got some meds (citalopram).  It's still early, and a work in progress, but even with the low dose I am on, I am doing better.  I can't answer what your thoughts about your fiancee represent - whether they're valid concerns, second thoughts, or the ruminating and repetition that characterizes OCD.  I'm not a medical person of any stripe, just a fellow sufferer here - I hope you speak w/ a doctor / preferably a psychiatrist, to see whether there is any meds or perhaps therapy of some sort e.g. cbt, that might help and they can also determine if what you're suffering IS 'OCD' or some other form of anxiety.  Good luck - hope things get better soon.

[jeffmason]

Hello richtaz
dont be sad

The Depression creates frustration to the person all time and ocd thoughts is a subsequent case after the depression... like this "telling me i dont love my fiancee its killing me " ....the Cause: most of the time you are busy thinking.. and you are thinking about the past....  i think you have huge energy must to be discharged as you feel "getting irritable" .. but not this is method.
Put a limit to this  thoughts and  you must take vacation 1 week and getting relax time with your fiancee and forget everything in your diary