Owlbaby, I know what you are feeling. Sometimes, people who can be so mean and careless, can have what seems like everything they ever wanted. I have definitely felt like that with one family member from my husband's side also. I am not jealous and I wish her well but her attitude towards me has been simply mean and all I have been is nice to her.
I know you probably don't want to hear this but HAVE FAITH. That is all we have. If we can just believe that God will make this happen for us, when the time is right. My prayers are with you, have strength and leave the rest to God. That is what I am doing after what seems like a non-ending story of (5 years of trying) plus 2 cycles with clomid...
Thanks for listening to me.
I am on the same boat. I HATE feeling like this! I am not hating everyone who is prego! I just hate that I am not!! I hate that I am working so hard, I hate that I am more then ever taking care of myself! I hate that I can't give us a family!!!!wooo hooo sorry! I am just soo... rrrrr words can't even come out. I feel so sick today! I have a headache, i don't want to eat anything because I fear that it will come right back up. I just want to be fat (fater), have a little baby growing in me, I want to be all glowy, and I just want to feel complete!
I am about to pray because I just want it so bad! and I am just getting mad that it hasn't happened yet! I am praying for all of us on here! And I am praying that when our time comes that we can all look back on here and be happy with everything that we have done to get to that point. I have love for all of you girls! And I know we can! And I know that our day will come, even if it take till the end of the year!
Amen!
Hi All: It doesn't sounds like a good day on here, and I just have to add a little something to it... I woke up to find an email from my sister-in-law -- an ultra-sound to announce her 2nd baby. Unlike my friend whom I heard from the other day, this is making me so upset. She has recently caused so much strife in our family and for my darling darling DH and this just pisses me off to no end. Am I awful? She's older than me too... and honestly she's a bit of a b*@!. This just cuts me to the core... especially b/c of what I told you all about my DH's grandparents.... now she is having her second, his brother just had his second, and us? I HATE HOW UNFAIR THIS IS.
So I am just really upset now, I have the worest headache in the lord! I don't want to eat my lunch because it will come right back up. I am feeling awful! For some reason, I just have a bad feeling about provera. My doc said that she dosn't think I need bloodwork, and that she knows I am not prego! So she said that she dosen't think I need a blood test right now. WTF! I am 3 weeks late...bloodwork proved that I Oed last month..and now I am getting upset..sitting here crying in my office, and my headaches. I am getting tiny crap like on my left lower abdom. I dislike my doc right now. :(
Camdy: I had the HSG done. So many said it wasn't painful but that wasn't the case for me at all. I don't ever want to do that again! Luckily all was clear. Also, my temp did drop last cycle for 2 days and so I thought it was over but then it came back up so was hopeful. Obviously I am not pg though. Af showed up about a week later.
Sherry & Rain: So sorry to hear you both got another BFN! This has been a bad month! Im so bummed :(
Wanna: Very sad, I teared up with the onsie thing. They do come true as I know from having my ds. I am very blessed to have him but just so ready to have another. I am happy you got you :) though!
All: Anyone having trouble gaining weight on clomid? I feel like I have gained 10 lbs! It is frustrating and not sure what to do about it. I am hungry all the time which doesn't help and I never ate sweets before which now I crave! Well, it's half way through another week. Hope everyone has a good day!
Still no BFP!!!! AHHHHHHHHHHH So frustrating.... But on the bright side you do not have AF, so there is still hope! Keeping my fingers and toes crossed for both Rain and Sherry.
Wanna- YAYYYYY finally a positive opk for you! Wooohoooo- I cannot believe it came so late.. but better late than never. Get busy girile! SSBD- And I am going to look at the onsie now--- how frickn adorable it sounds. hehehe
Camdyn- wow, that is def weird. I dont know what to tell you on that one. I guess only time will really time. But dont lose faith yet! :o)
And enough already with all these funky dreams lol I had one last night too~ I had taken a hpt and it said prego and I went to the dr who confirmed it and I was so baffled I did not believe it, He was like yes, you are. And I had like this breakdown because deep down I never thought it would happen for me. Then I woke up and it felt so real I couldnt figure out if I had gone to the dr and this had happened or was I dreaming. Sat in bed for about 5 min collecting myself before I realized it was a dream- These frickn meds are making us all nutty! lmao