I am worried that I got HIV :(

[misha_md]

Well, I got tested this morning. I have to wait 2-3 days for the results. I never thought that i was infected but i am now seeing someone who brought up the fact that i have had unprotected sex with a guy multiple times, who has cheated on me probably multiple times. :(
I have spent the past 2 days searching HIV related info online and i am going crazy. One conversation with my bf drove me so nuts, that I did a whole test this morning and that i really think that i am infected :(
I even called my ex-- twice!!-- and asked him all kinds of questions -- as if he'd tell me the truth anyways.
I don't know what I'm going to do if i find out that i have it. Life has been so  miserable lately-- my father passed away, my mom has serious health issues.

I guess, I am primarily venting...i am panicked to death. But i will still ask you, what do you think the chances are that I got it?

p.s. I have had abnormal paps for a few years  now...always mild display, never goes away but never gets worse. not sure if that means anything.

[sandra12r]

Was it unprotected vaginal sex? If so refer to my comment above.

Do not anticipate a positive result, just try and put your mind on other things whilst you wait for your result. It is unlikely that you will test positive, educate yourself on the risks of HIV, but indeed do not panic. HIV is not the death sentence it was once perceived to be.

[misha_md]

It was vaginal sex.
The relationship ended 8 months ago, and although it crossed my mind that he may have given it something, it also never crossed my mind to get tested.
One conversation with a person that i care about a lot changed everything. I almost am anticipating now that the results will show that I'm HIV+ :( That's how anxious I am!

[sandra12r]

You have engaged in unprotected sex so therefore you are at risk, dont panic, it is unlikely that your partner had it thus lowering your risk further. I hope that you have learnt from this experience, condoms!. That said, try not to let your anxiety get the better of you it will make you feel worse and start to experience symptoms that arent even there. For peace of mind test at 3 months post your last exposure, I think you will come out of this okay. All the best :)

[7heaven7]

Hi there,

I'm very sorry about your recent problems.
you haven't given much detail as to what kind of exposure.If it was unprotected oral sex then you have no risk for hiv. However if you had unprotected vaginal/anal intercourse then you have put yourself at risk. If it is the latter take a test 3 months after your last exposure for a conclusive result.