Sudden anger

[tjrusert]

I just suddenly snapped at my husband. Is that what RIBA rage is about. It's so not me. It shocked us both. I said  I was sorry but he is sulking still. I feel really bad. He's my biggest supporter. He came in and turned off my tv and said you need to get up and move. I said " umm I was watching that". Then he turned on the radio and tried to make me dance with him. It was sweet but I got so angry because #1 I was interested in the show and #2 I hate when others make a decision about what I need to do for me. But he was trying to be nice. I feel awful. Does the med have anything to do with it or am I suddenly becoming a mean girl. I really never yell at him. I'm totally stressed now

[stormy456]

I couldn't agree with Advocate any more.  My husband is on week 9 of triple, and we've had one rage incident.  While I didn't feel physically threatened in any way, his verbal abuse was worse than anything I've ever experienced, and unfortunately my children were witness.  When things calmed down, I explained to him (and his doctor) that I would not accept nor expose my children to this behavior again, and that they needed to come up with a plan to help control these episodes.  My children and I continue to advocate for my husband at every step of his treatment, and I personally have worked very hard to take any unnecessary pressure off of him as we own our own business.  To say that we don't understand what these drugs can do is blatantly unfair, and incorrect.  I am familiar with nearly all sfx from these drugs, but will not excuse a complete lack of self control.  

[Hepcwife926]

You have to realize, your husband, like myself, is being told by the doctor to get you moving. Even when we know it's just the meds - it really doesn't make it easier. We're inna ****** situation no matter what. I'm sure if you told him you appreciate his help - it would go a long way.

[JasmineT]

Not an expert but just based on my personal experience, Rockymoe is right, controlling the rage is unfortunately not something you can just choose while on tx.  At least not all the time.  There are time when something of little concerned couples with the chemicals and an inferno spills out.  Afterwards I am in shock and left thinking oh my gosh, what did I just say?  There are times I think I did not even recognize after the fact that I surged so am not even aware of the damage I may have caused.

It is correct that abusing others is unacceptable, those of us on treatment need to try to control it and stay out of interactions that can trigger it, but when we are having episodes where we cannot control it, we need to talk to the doc about the issue and look at adding medications to help with that rather than hurting others.  We also may not be the best judges of ourselves on when it's time to do that. The rage is a physical and chemical reaction, it's not really grounded in logic and reason.  Our brain is not firing properly due to the chemicals.  

Brave people going into a walmart.

[BigDaddy_59]

I went to a "Train the Trainer" Hep C education class by Hep C Advocate and the nures giving the class asked at the start of the class "Is treatment the hardest thing you have ever been through" (about 90% of the class had been through treatment) and most of us raised our hands and agreed it was.

She said although the 2 treatments she went through were tough, she said her marriage was way tougher. It made me stop and think and realize that she had a good point.

I agree we should watch what we say (the First Agreement - Be impeccable with your word), and I also agree that we shouldn't take things so personally (the Second Agreement - Don't take thing personnally).

The best book I have read (and I am currently re-reading it now BEFORE starting treatment) is the Four Agreements.

Get it, read it, know it, live it. It will teach you how to love unconditionally (not putting conditions on who is or isn't worthy of your love).

AND it comes with my million dollar guarantee - you give me a million dollars and I will personally work with you until you understand it and live a happier life - guaranteed  :o)

Peace Out,
Chris

[rockymoe]

I had a bout of it last night and my poor husband was the victim. The thing I hate is you really have no control once it shows up.

[suezeeque]

Walmart is a rough place for me on a good day, no treatment.  I often tell my husband to watch his cell phone before I go.  I might need him to bail me out.