Heartbroken...again

[Dani711]

Well, I just got back from the emergency room after my spotting picked up today, then got heavy.  They did an exam and found the conception tissue coming out.  He thought it was a blighted ovum.  I just can not believe after all I have been through that this has happened.  I am just so sad and lost

[CacyMichelle]

Not to gross you out, but I had this huge clot, and you heard it when it hit the water. I didn't see anything but blood, and then I stuck my hand down there and got it. So I never would've known it was there until I kinda searched for it. Sorry if I grossed you out, I just felt better after seeing it and knowing it had passed.

[Dani711]

Thanks, I was really wondering about what it would look like when it came out.  I just started to have a dark brown clot looking thing come out and DH of course wants to see what each little thing looks like (something about both of us going through and understanding it together) His comment however was it was pretty gross and that he wants gloves to clean the toilet really, really good since he thinks I should stay pretty close to it, and may need to use it alot, that it should be really clean for me.  funny.

I def. ovulate each month (can feel it so bad, which they say is a good thing when trying to conceive) so I feel lucky in that way.  As bad as everything seems right now, I am really thankful that I do O each month and have regular periods...things could always be worse...
I heard the same thing as being more fertile after..but It took so long after last time, I am just not sure I believe it.
I guess we will all have to see what they "next time" brings...and I just really pray that none of you have to go through this again...Good luck on this cycle!!!

[CacyMichelle]

I would think it would be about the same if it is a blighted ovum, because your still waiting for that little sack to pass whether there is something in it or not. I am unsure if mine was that or just a chromosonel (sp?) thing. When I passed it I looked at it, and I thought I saw something in there, but I'll never be to sure :( I have to take pills to make me ovulate, so I hope you are just regular and will get pregnant again quickly! My doctor told me you are more fertile, so I'm wishing that for you!!

[carebear0202]

I just wanted to say how sorry I am. This group of ladies are so supportive and I hope you get through this knowing we are all thinking of you. I was so praying good things for you!! Sending lots of support your way....take care of yourself and take some time to heal. I am so sorry.

[Dani711]

Don't say that about your BFP, we ALL deserve it!
I am just confused about since this is a blighted ovum if I will even have heavy bleeding at all, since there really wasn't a baby forming, if the placenta and stuff will cause bleeding or what?  I am waiting for the dr. to call back and tell me what they think.
You are right about not wanting a D&C if I don't need it.  I just am not positive it was a blighted ovum or a reg pregnancy without the u/s.  I think as early on as I was, no matter what I should pass everthing naturally, it is waiting for the preg symptoms to start to go away that is aggrivating.  I am SO ready to start to ttc again.  It is sad that we all will always be so worried and never have a care-free pregnancy.  Even this last time when i really thought everything was going to be ok, I mean staying on pre-natels and folic acid since April, hardley any caffine all those months, no alcohol...you think doing everything right would give us a chance.  But even after my BFP, I told DH that at least I still have a bund of pre-seed, OPK's and HPT's left...and that is such a sad way to have to go into a pregnancy, but if I didn't, I wouldn't be able to handle this constant heartbreak.
I really do hope and pray for your BFP...we all are ready for some happiness!!

[CacyMichelle]

I started spotting on a Sunday..went in on Monday they said everything was fine, then Wednesday they said my levels hadn't doubled. I didn't miscarry till the next Monday. I never bled that much, just a little bit, and then when I passed the clots. Luckily for me it also wasn't very painful. I think since you've already started the spotting you will probably miscarry naturally like I did and not have to go through the D&C. My doctor said that it is very invasive when our body can normally take care of it naturally. I guess it's just a personal choice. I bled for about a week after the miscarriage, but again it was never heavy bleeding. I hope this helps, and again, I am just so so sorry. I told BAM I don't even want my BFP this month because ya'll deserve it so much more than me :(