What is the best way to detox from narcotic pain killers? - Addiction: Substance Abuse

momentarydu02

Mar 28, 2012

To: Forum

For the last 1-2 months, i started out with one percoect a night, soon and fast it became 3 1/2 pills a night for pain. Soon I ran out last week or so, began to felt sweaty (cold/hot), flashes as well, shaking, clammy, and wanting more. Monday (march 26) m ydoctor gave me a lighter medication to taper off and detox. 1 pill a day of hydrocodone, which i take at 4:46pm. He says i will be symptom free on sunday april 1st. is this true? I'm on my third day today. I'm still feeling the symptoms: cold/hot flashes/sweaty, shaking, nausea, diarrhea, bowel movements. How long does this work?

IwillDoThis

Mar 29, 2012

To: momentarydu02

Hi - I was taking hydrocodone 10/350 - 4-6 per day for two years plus several years sporadic use before that.  I tapered down to one hydro before I jumped off and still had awful withdrawal.  Everyone is different but you still withdraw from hydro and I did a pretty efficient taper for myself I believe - sick as a dog.  Just prepare, hunker down, get yourself plenty of immodium, gatorade.  Take the immodium aggressively to control the trots.  Days 2-4 are worst for most, on day 4 force yourself up and out, take a walk get your blood pumping.

You are in the infancy of dependence, whether you are an addict or not is something you know.  If you stop now, which I highly suggest, you might not have it too rough.  I CAN tell you with certainty if you continue down the path you are on, you will come to be very sorry.

I assume you take them because of pain?  That is how many of us started, myself included.  I never abused my meds but here I am just the same - longterm use breeds dependency, and long term dependency can really mess with you mentally.

Have you thought about alternate pain management?  If not, that is a must.  Pain can be managed without narcotics but you need to get educated and have some tools in your kit to deal with the pain.  If you want some further advice or tips on this just send me a PM and I'm happy to share with you.  I don't want to write a novel here just give you some support and things to consider!

Good luck!

zo6ls603

Apr 01, 2012

To: IwillDoThis

I have been addicted to Hydrocodone for the past 5 years.10/500 3 a day. Well,we all know how that goes. Soon i was taking 8 pills a day and started to get really concerned about my health. I have a amazing girl friend and 1 year old daughter that are my whole life and they deserve so much more than this. So i made a huge mistake. I asked the doc to change my meds to Oycondone with out tylenol. I knew what I wanted and get gave it to me. To be honest i was taking Roxys as well for the past 2 years. Snorting only. I cant believe that it was so easy to talk my doctor into them. I have lied to my whole family for entirely way to long now. I have told the I promise im going to quit story to my girlfriend more times than i can remember and I always let her down. I really dont deserve her or any of my friends or family. I get up snort 30mgs and snort 15mgs every 3 hours until i go to bed. Ive spent over 3 grand in the past months alone pawed everything i can think of sold everything i can think of. Im sick of it. But like everyone says i am terrified of the withdraw symptoms. I sent my girlfriend and daughter down to her mothers in Florida this week so i can get off this ****. I just dont think i can do it. Today is day one and i regret deleting all of my dealers from my phone. She is so encouraging but its just so hard. Its all i think about. I am going to make a real effort but i just dont know if i can do this. I dont want to let them down cause i do feel this is my last chance at this getting my life back and restoring my relationships with my friends and family.. The thing is if i had a roxy laying next to me lol like i would it would be gone. Im in to deep and have even though of shooting myself. I gave my gun to my buddy in the police department who i have kept in the dark somehow but im scared. Really and truly scared. I want to get better. I cant stand this anymore. To make matters worse Im a commercial aircraft mechanic for Us Airways and I could lose it all to this ****. So here goes. Day one. this site has inspired me to try so i will keep updating my progress or lack there of....

Rickyneedshelp

Apr 03, 2012

To: zo6ls603

Hello Friend , I hope you don't mind me calling you Friend.. I'm in the same boat as you. I worked 30 + yrs in power plants , pulling down 100 K + / yr raiised 2 kids , my son joined the Army straight outta High School, did 3 tours in Iraq as a Special Forces Para Trooper , got out alive and now works as a consultant to the armed forces ,going to school at night to get into the FBI all the while pulling down some serious $$ , my daughter graduated from college and had a job the next day at a University in Boston making the bling. I got hurt on the job in 2008 , slipped in oil and messed my back up really bad. I was stupid , I had a supervisor who had a son in law that was a sports pain med DR and I went to him for therapy, what a joke, it was stupid CRAP .. like hot packs on my back , roll a big rubber beach ball around with my hands while sitting in a chair, electrical shock therpay on my back with a tens unit and walking back and forth in a pool that was 8 ft long 4 ft wide and 3 ft deep , thats it for 2 weeks 2 days a week 4 hrs a day ,then he said I was ready to go back to work w/ no restrictions , DUDE , I had to use a cane to walk ,even then I looked like a 90 yr old man walking. It took me 15 minutes to walk 200 ft to the parking lot. The depression and the pain caused me to try to gas my self in the garage , luckly my wife forgot something at the house and caught me. So I spent a month in the mental hosp. and my wife raised 9 kinds of hell with my work and got me into the top of the line rehab place in Dallas
( PRIDE ). After 8 months 4 - 5 times a week 8 hrs a day of serious phys therapy , I'm talking Olympic training and all the bellsand whistles yoga bio feedback EVERYTHING !! , I was able to go back to my job , although I was only about 50 % , I hid it by using the 10/325 hydros , even then I had serious pain but I didn't let anyone see it in fear of loosing my job . I worked 12 hr rotating shifts ,both days and nights ,back and forth with a **** load of OT. Then 2 - 1/2 yrs later , during a ice storm , I slipped on the 3 " of ice that was everywhere and busted my back again, this time I went straight back to PRIDE , but after 4 months I knew I would not be able to do the physical work in the power plants and IF anyone would hire me it would be $ 6 - $ 8 / hr when I was making $ 34 / hr ( $ 51 / HR in OT which I worked 1000 hrs OT per yr every yr before I got hurt ) YES thats 1 THOUSAND hrs OT a yr !! SO , because my wife is disabled , she got hit by a drunk driver in 1998 and really messed her up bad , we sold everything we owned down to the dishes , cashed in my 401K's and started traveling the world while we were still able , thinking when the money or pain meds ran out we would " CHECK OUT " . My wife had a pain management DR in Dallas she had seen for over 8 yrs , who besides prescribing her OXY 20 and 40 mg , Hydrocodine 10/325 Xanax 1 mg Nuerontin , Soma ..**** I cant name it all ,but I'm talking all of the above + more at the same time AND he implanted a Dalatid pump in her stomach pumping direct to her spine , like I said , she is messed up. Now all of a sudden , outta the blue he dropped her because he said " He dosen't accept cash patience anymore , I mean WHAT THE FK !! We were paying cash up front , now the only way for us to get meds is to buy off the street. Did I mention we moved to Panama , ( think the CANAL ) yes Central America , cause it's so cheap to live here. , BUT they dont have the drugs she and I need here .so every 3 months we have to leave because of the visa requirements AND to by off the streets in TX . Also because that DR implanted that pump , which has run empty and is giving a audible beeping alarm every 15 minutes , NO other DR will touch it because THEY didn't implant it , almost sounds like I'm making this **** up ... but swear on my Mommas grave it's all true , so anyway I'm taking 6 - 8 hydro 10/325 or 6 -8 15 mg Morphine , which I see a DR here and thats all they have as far as narcotics go , but he wants to do spinal fusion on me for $ 15 K and I have had 8 friends that have had it done in the states and 6 outa the 8 were worse off after the surgery , and that was with DR's in the states. I'm really scared I would be worse off after the surgery , BUT I don't know for sure , thats the HELL of it .I try to streach out the pills as far as I can , up to the point that I think I know what a 5 yr herion user would feellike on WD EXCEPT .. it's always my back pain that starts killing me , not the WD stuff I have been reading here... POOR SOULS , I feel for each and everyone who has to deal with that.

builder1976

Apr 15, 2012

To: zo6ls603

I'm a little late on this post by the date but you got more guts than me. I'l pray that today all is going well. I realized that today I've got ot stop taking this pain meds because they are hurtting my life. wish you well and like I said will pray for you.

littlebit667

Apr 15, 2012

To: builder1976

If you are ready to quit, post a new thread and we will help. Go to the top of any page here and click on the orange ask a question icon. It will start a new topic thread and the ones here will see it and respond. It is a pretty active and very helpful forum. Hope you do!

nicbo

Apr 16, 2012

How is the easiest way to withdraw from lorcet?

littlebit667

Apr 16, 2012

To: nicbo

see the post just above yours for help to start a new thread to get the help you need!!!!!

DeePowers

May 06, 2012

To: silly677

I am 40 and have chronic migraines most caused from 3 damaged vertebra at the top of my neck. I spent 2 years in bed due to the severe pain and the nausea following it. I've been on stadol, oxy, methadone, ext....... I hate these pills but I'm scared of the pain. I really don't want to suffer withdrawal either. I'm scared of it too. I was looking for a place to go that helps you get off all the prescription meds without the pain & discomfort of withdrawals and found a million people suffering just like me. Seems like a cruel punishment except we've done nothing to deserve it. Pray for me for I will pray for you. I wish you the best of luck.

RSTANKIEWICZ

May 07, 2012

To: ninthave

I have never been a site like this...i am so emabarrased...i am so addicted to pain pills - i dont know what to do...i feel like nobody can help me...i put on a front like i am ok, but i am not...i never told this to anyone before...i probably will not get a response but i just hope....

gnarly_1

May 07, 2012

To: RSTANKIEWICZ

HI well your not alone many people here are in your shoes and many do home detoxes we can help you along but you got to want it
if you do spend some time reading the other posts look up the thomas recipe on the lower right of this page and pick up the stuff
get a case of gatoraid also the rest we can walk you threw in about a week you can be free and no longer chained to a bottle good luck and God bless.......Gnarly

LodiDodi

May 08, 2012

To: Benji333

I have read through tons of comments but yours was real and to the point. My husband is on day 2 and couldn't even make through the day at work. He came home and has been sleeping all day. He revealed to me a couple of days ago that this has been a year long struggle. I knew he would take a pill now and then, but didn't realize how bad it had got until a few months ago. He went from orally taking pills to crushing and snorting them and then to smoking them off foil. I have been questioning the hell out of him the last couple months and he finally came clean. We have 2 daughters and that is his main motivation to quit. He suffers from anxiety issues and mild depression and has smoked weed since I met him 20 yrs ago. It balances him out. Weed to me is no big deal to me but I had no idea how bad this was until I realized that he wasn't smoking weed at all anymore. I just don't know how to help. According to him I have taken a way too harsh approach. I just don't know what to do. I am wondering if his insurance will help him get into a rehab program. He has a great job with good benefits. I just feel very helpless.....any advice for me as far is how to approach him and help him?

1_detox_now

May 10, 2012

Hi I'm new to this forum but I've read every single post ..I've been popping pills for 3 years straight now after I broke a shoulder. I came to this site looking for advise and help for detoxing myself knowing that my girlfriend and I are having a child soon and knowing that ...I'm finding out its costly ..which means buying pills of the street is now beginning to be last on my list ...I'm getting worried that I just went thru a night of frustration and kicking and sweats trying to sleep so I mass texted people I knew the next morning and sure enough that day pills were right back in my hand to swallow ...sheesh I feel like I'm just another sucker writing crap on a wall right now..before I felt happy to be on any type of pill ..Vic.oxy.t3.t4.perks .etc..but now when I take it I get depressed cause I feel like I'm letting down my girl ..and my soon to be daughter :( idk what to do ..this is the first time I'm actually googlein "detox"

1_detox_now

May 10, 2012

Hi I'm new to this forum but I've read every single post ..I've been popping pills for 3 years straight now after I broke a shoulder. I came to this site looking for advise and help for detoxing myself knowing that my girlfriend and I are having a child soon and knowing that ...I'm finding out its costly ..which means buying pills of the street is now beginning to be last on my list ...I'm getting worried that I just went thru a night of frustration and kicking and sweats trying to sleep so I mass texted people I knew the next morning and sure enough that day pills were right back in my hand to swallow ...sheesh I feel like I'm just another sucker writing crap on a wall right now..before I felt happy to be on any type of pill ..Vic.oxy.t3.t4.perks .etc..but now when I take it I get depressed cause I feel like I'm letting down my girl ..and my soon to be daughter :( idk what to do ..this is the first time I'm actually googlein "detox"

littlebit667

May 10, 2012

To: 1_detox_now

I kept telling myself...YOU HAVE the FLU!  It will be over and I will feel so much better.  My brain seemed to get that and settled down a little.  It is hard, but doable!  The Thomas Recipe (bottom of the page) under Health Pages will help.  I did not to the tranquilizers and had to cut back on the Ltryosine, but the rest really helped.  Imodium (immodium), Imodium (immodium), Imodium (immodium) (liquid or pills if the liquid can't be found or you can't swallow it) will help.  I took double the dosage for a few days (personal choice) and it helped so much..even with the withdrawals in general and the opiate trots which sucked.

Hydrate and eat! ((gatorade is good) Even if it is just a little every hour or so.(boost or ensure might work for both food and drink)  You have to eat something to keep your energy up as much as possible.

If you have Restless legs..it is hit or miss what works.  Walking seemed to help me some.  Hot bath with epsom salts..a little.  I finally had to get my doctor to refill my restless legs meds (non addictive) to get some sleep.  If nothing works,your doctor might help.  Benedryl or OTC Alteril helps some with sleep issues and you will have them.

One hour at a time is all anyone can ask.  After 2 weeks it gets a little better and I started to say, One day at a time!  Your brain will do all sorts of things to get you to take a pill.  I found if I was hungry..the cravings got worse.  I would try to eat a banana, a few grapes or a few crackers to get that under control.

The hardest part comes after the detox.  Your brain will be all over the place and will try to get you back on the pills...It is having to work and not depend on the pills to help.

Good for you.  I hope all goes well.  You have made a good start coming here....this site has helped me so much!!!  Keep posting!!!!!

teitelmama

May 15, 2012

To: Badjuju67

Good For you!!! I am in the same boat. I have Severe DDD and L5-S1 8 degree slipped/bulging disc. I too started at paint management around July 2011. I started just on Naproxen and once in a while one vicodin. For about 6 months i have been on vicodin 10-325 about 4 pills per day. I am having other issues with my body so i decided to change it. I got the flu on thursday and decided this is a sign and i am done with pills. I think your mind decides for you. Listen, and it works. I am pill free ( just a few days). although i wouldn't say i had a problem because i never went above my dose i was prescribed. I have to say after the pills , your right, you can live a life with out a cloud following you. I still have a few minor systems but Pain Management said it would take a few more days.
I went to the health food store and started getting natural pain relievers. And i start acupuncture soon.

Good luck everyone! Back pain is not easy. Until i decide to do fusion surgery i am sure i will be in a bit of pain. But i think i would rather feel the pain then be in a cloud. Our bodies are stronger then we think.

djean567

May 28, 2012

To: fedup253

DAY TWO FOR ME AND I FEEL LIKE IM DYING TO I HOPE U CAN DO IT ON YOOUR OWN I CANT I CANT LAY LIKE THIS NO LONGER I WISH THE LORD WOULD ANSWER MYY PRAYERS AND JUST HELP ME GET OVER THE SICKNESS ITS TOO HARD FOR ME I AM NOT STRONG ENOUGH TO DO THIS. PLEASE SOMEONE TELL ME WHAT TO DO

janice25

May 28, 2012

To: cat76133

I am so sorrry to hear of your situation.This is to big for you...give it to God this is to big to do alone. I have had times of severe depression. One year I was hospitalized 8 times! I didn't get well till I got sober and have God in my life. He's awesome and can do anything. hang in there, keep talking and it helps.
Janice

dd04622

Jun 01, 2012

Guys Immodium AD for the diarrhea, if you can get your hands on Tramadol it will make the world of difference. It is a non narcotic pain killer that helps with all the symptoms. You can finally get some sleep and they are easy to come off of. If you have a benzo to mix with the tramadol use a small dose. DO NOT go over 400mg of Tramadol in 1 day it may cause seizures. However, I've taken the max on real bad days and it worked like magic. I take 50-90 mg of oxy/day and often run out and supplement with Trams. If you can't sit around then go for a walk, if you can't take the RLS then take a nice hot bath and get instant relief. Put some aroma therapy candles in there with you and you're mind will stop trying to convince you to get more. Stay hydrated and take your vitamins cause you'll have no appetite. The absolute worst should be over after 5 days depending on how big of a dose you are taking daily and how long you've been on that dose. GOOD LUCK and stick with it. You'll feel SOOO accomplished when you get past it that it will really lift your spirits. I know it did for me. Unfortunately my back went out again and I'm back on but I am confident I can stop just like I did last time with this same method. Its will power, help from family and use all those methods together. Try to make a long weekend out of it if you are working because you wont be very productive at work.

ImDONENoMore

Jun 01, 2012

Tramadol is a narcotic which is why you didn't experience any withdrawal symptoms. And if you keep reading, you'll find a ton of stories here from members trying to get off the tramadol.

Getcleantostayclean

Jun 04, 2012

To: Get clean to stay clean

Im new to this but I'm taking the jump tonight is the last one I take. I'm gonna do everything I can to last the 24 hours of hell detoxing until I can take the suboxone I just got. I have been on a 3 year 15-30 a day norco/Percocet habit and have never made the 24 hours off so this will be a big step for me. I want nothing more in my life than to be clean and not be controlled by a tiny yellow pill. I need them to function and it depresses me everyday yet it still goes down my throat. Any support for me would be much appreciated

Getcleantostayclean

Jun 04, 2012

Im new to this but I'm taking the jump tonight is the last one I take. I'm gonna do everything I can to last the 24 hours of hell detoxing until I can take the suboxone I just got. I have been on a 3 year 15-30 a day norco/Percocet habit and have never made the 24 hours off so this will be a big step for me. I want nothing more in my life than to be clean and not be controlled by a tiny yellow pill. I need them to function and it depresses me everyday yet it still goes down my throat. Any support for me would be much appreciated

Pat1956100

Jun 04, 2012

To: Getcleantostayclean

Hi there.
You have posted on a really old post and I am sure lots of people won't see it. Please start your own post. Click on Ask a question and copy and paste this into a new thread.
There are lots of people who can give you the support you need but I want to make sure they see your post.
Good luck and with the help of this forum and your strength I am sure you will make it.
Pat

Kristinsnightmare

Jun 12, 2012

To: Whomever

I had a massive car wreck and lost half my arm..needless to say I've been on oxyicotin percocets and Xanax. My pain is so intentense it takes over my LIFE. Nothing helps it's always there and will always be! However my children and husband pay for it. Im in bed literally 24/7 I never leave my room/bed. I take my meds and sleep wishing I was dead. I decided my babies were more important and suffering wasn't an option for them anymore. I will always be in insufferable pain but 3 daysother ago I took my last pain med. Right now I wanna die my pain is sooo intense I'm grouchy well really being mean :(but I'm trying right? I'm not a bad mom I have a legit reason to be on opiates but how can I survive this pain?

Pleeeeeezhelp

Jun 12, 2012

To: Pat1956100

Hi Pat. I saw your comment to the other Kristinsnighthat's and am wondering if I am doing the same thing wrong. I don't think I am doing something right bc I don't seem to have the interaction that I am viewing of others. Do u think you can help me solve this???? Thanks ahead of time and if you aren't avlble I totally understand
;0)

Pleeeeeezhelp

Jun 12, 2012

To: Finalstop

I don't think Hippa allows him to do that but I'm not sure. Why wld you think your DR wld consider reporting you? Are you in a position of Authority over any vulnerable ppl or anything ?

Pat1956100

Jun 12, 2012

Hi. you are posting on an old thread and not many people will see it. Scroll up to the top of the page and click Back to forum. Then go to Post a question and start your own thread with your own questions and concerns. People will see it and be happy to help you.
Good luck

k1k1k1k1k1

Jun 12, 2012

To: Please Help!!!!

I started taking painpills after neck surgery. After 3 yrs i cant live wthout hem. I take my script of 220 hydro 10-325 in 10-12 days then spend the next days with WD or buying them on the street. Dont know what to do. Please Help!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Holly8156

Jun 16, 2012

To: JK234

Hi Jk, my name is Holly. I had a back fussion 2 months ago and am doing good with that. But I have a 5 year old daughter and want to get off the pain meds. I had a back operation when my daughter was 1 and ever since then have been on pain meds. i was taking 30 mg ms contin 2xs daily and 7.5 percocets for break through pain. so last month I told the doctor I wanted off the meds.So he dropped the ms contin and I was just taking the percocets. well I didn't make them last the month and ran out 2 days ago. So at night its so hard to sleep, I sweet like mad, throw up and have the runs. How long is this going to last? Is there anything I can do to ease it?

Sherise102

Jun 16, 2012

To: gnarly_1

I think I may be addicted to pain pills as well. Been on oxys for few years now over bottom leg tendon rupture (first) then I found out I have stage 3 colon cancer last July (2011). I've had 2 major surgeries, a colostomy, a resection and went through 6 months of chemotherapy. I have been in a lot of pain and I want off the pain pills. Right now I'm down to 80 mg (40mg at night) (40 mg in the am) but I've also been on the short term 15 mg 1 every 4 hours. I'm not sure but I think I'm addicted because I seem to be feeling WD symptoms. I get so nauseous some days other days I'm fine. I've never shot or snorted any ever only taken exactly as prescribed and weaned myself off the short term 14 mg (every 4-6 hrs) oxys. I'm wondering if thats why I just break out in a sweat sometimes and other times I am freezing, I have been very nauseous off and on all the time. I want OFF the pills but I'm so afraid of WD symptoms getting worse. I'm almost willing to just stop them all together but I still have a lot of pain and I don't know when the cancer will be back or even if it's still in there.....please help any suggestions/advise will be greatly appreciated. I've read the above posts. I'm on so many pills already from the surgeries and cancer (non-narc's) and I'm SO tired of pills. But seriously I want OFF the oxy's Please help

beckyanna

Jun 16, 2012

Hi. Seen this page and need people like you in my life. I been on pain killers for 2yrs and all that is said sound so like me. It started with my leg. And then went to oh this helps me threw all that's going on in my life. I had a son that was born with mental challenge and clift lip pilot. And not no I was never on pills while being pregnant or before. It all happen after. I been taking Norco 10 for the 2yrs. And am slowly cutting down for about 6days from taking 8 a day to now 4. Am still filling the withdraw can anyone help. Am lowering dose today.

LendAHandJoe

Jun 17, 2012

To: JK234

Hey my name is Joe, I am 20 years old and have been doing different pain killers (whatever i can get my hands on basically) for about 6 months (3 months heavily) I feel I am addicted now and am having withdrawals when I try to quit. I know I need to stop before I get to deep into the horror I read about and can already feel. I need some advice on some home remedies to help control myself and take my RLS away and my cravings. I figure someone on here can help me out. First time on this site, read a bunch of stories and I feel really bad for the people who have actual pain and have gotten addicted but wanna quit but now they cant. I feel like i ****** up big time and i am strong, and i will get over it, but i need some advice from you folks. Can someone help. Thanks, Joe

selfinduced

Jun 17, 2012

Hey Joe, You may want to start your own thread to get more specific advice. Look up the Thomas recipe and get started on that. Do you have a time that you are going to begin detox? Please don't let the post scare you into not quitting. YOU can do this and we are all here to help. Do you have anyone you can confide in? Keep posting ok. The weekend are slow, but more will be along to help.

joey1961

Jun 17, 2012

To: miikex123

i live in a small twn,ive bn on vics for 15yrs,im pretty sure my doc will give me wht i would need to detox frm the vics,any sugestions on wht i could take to help wth the wthdrwls,ther real bad...thnks joe

joey1961

Jun 17, 2012

To: dying123pills

im in the same boat,ive been to the hospital many times,but they no who i am,i live in a small town,once they had me sighn a sheet of paper,what i didnt no was it was to commit myself in a mental hosp.luckly i had them on me and hid them,they give you nothing,so what im gna do is be honest with my doc,and see what can be done wth out going to rehab,i no how you feel,man the withdrwls can be real bad,i will be praying for you,remember we are good people who just got caught up into an addiction.god bless...joe

conhall

Jun 17, 2012

To: joey1961

I Havent WD yet But I soon will be in same boat Thomas recipe is suppose to be great help Exercise also Hot baths lots of fluids. I just started this Forum and their is alot of great advice on here. Everyone is great! I would Post your question on main forum and you will get alot of help from alot of caring people. Good Luck to ou and God Bless.

DesperateMOMMY3

Jun 20, 2012

To: DESPERATE MOMMY

Im addicted to vicodin,this addiction began 5 yrs ago after havin my twins by c-section two yrs later I had my daughter by c-section, i really dnt know how to explain but when it was time for the epidural,the needle wasnt where it was suppose to be and it messed up the nerves in my back nd I also hav scoliosis of the spine... I hav been to detox twice already nd have relasped.. I can take up to 20 pills per day, im losing weight, I dnt eat like I should, I hav started stealing from friends to get pills , I dnt care about anything but pills, nd my kids are the ones that are bein neglected... My boyfriend(my daughters dad) of 6 yrs is not makin this any easier on me, all he does is tell me that he contributing to my habit nd I need to stop before I lose him, he wAS addicted to crack nd he was out there bad, nd the only way he got clean was becuz he went to jail nd when he got out he left it alone an has not used since.. And he doesnt understand that this is not easy nd his altimatums nd talkin dwn to me is not helpin it jus makes me want to get high.. Im tryin my best nd nothin is workin.. Without pills im irratated, dont want to get out of bed, nausea, diarreaha, its feels like im dyin,my everyday routine is gettin money for pills then gettin more pills, I dnt get out of bed for nothin PERIOD.. WHAT IS THE TAPER METHOD?? PLEASE PLEASE HELP ME

sickofbeingaddicted

Jun 22, 2012

To: zo6ls603

Oh, my god! You are in the exact same situation that i am in. I get 3 30mg roxys a day. I am down to only taking 2 and a half a day now. But, like you, i snornt them. Because you feel them quicker. I used to be an heroin addict. But, stopped that 20 years ogo. I do not do illegal drugs anymore. I am having enough of a problem with the "Legal" ones! Whick are just as bad. Back in 1994, i was shooting a gram of black tat heroin every other day. My weight was terrible. I weighed 147 lbs. And i am six foot tall. Anyway, about my withdraws from my herion experience. You think kicking pills is something! Not to make fun of your situation. I'm just telling you how bad you can go down. I went to prison for trying to break into a pharmacy to get some opiated for my withdraws, because my connection went to mexico to re-cop. And did not tell me this, so i could re-up. I got caught. Got five tears in prison. When i was in the county jail, it went like this! I was puking my *** off for almost two weeks. It was the worst experience of my life. So, i completly quit using that crap. And have been off that stuff for almost twenty years now. The reason a get 30mg roxys, is because i broke my neck in a car accident back in 1992. I also get 10mg of valuim, and somas for my muscle spasms. I was taking more than prescibed. But, yesterday, the girl who had been supplying me with the "Extra" roxys called me. Wanted to know if i wanted more. Well, i never called her back. My point is, if i kicked a really, really, bad herion addiction like i had. Kicking this might not be as difficult. At least i wont be throwing up. Of course i will go through diarria, cold and hot sweats, and all the other things that come with kicking roxys. All i can say, is i wish you luck! Because i myself am in the same boat that you are. I am more concerned about my pain(Without the pills) than i am about the withdraws. I probably need to take a week off from work, and just do it. I have the support of my family. Which helps alot. I just got into a car accident, and they drew my blood. Now i am facing a Driving under the influence of prescription drugs. Yes, it is against the law to take pain killers and drive. You can be charged. I have a pretty good attorney. He used to be a prosicuting attorney. So, he knows the system here in oklahoma pretty well. I was on morphine, but i had my doctor take me off that. Morphine is to close to herion. Which is MUCH more addicitive. My doctor told me the other day that i will be on pain meds the rest of my life because of my condition. I DID NOT WANT TO HEAR THAT!!!!!!!! I am set up for surgury in a year or two. I hope that they can fix this mess!! But, i have been told that it may not be able to be fixed!! Again, that *****! Like everyone else with injurys, i did not ask for this to happen to me. My advice, is to slow down on the intake of your meds. Then, if possible, call your employer and claim to be sick with the flu. You should be better in around a week. Thats what i am planning on myself. Get some sleeping aids, and some anti-diarria pills. Try to stay asleep while going through the withdraws. The anti-diarria pills might help with the diarria. I even thought about getting on methodone to dose down. But, methodone is SO,SO, addicting. You think you got problems kicking roxxs? Try getting of METHODONE!! My step dad is on it. And he tryed to use suboxone to get off of it. He could not handle the withdraws. My mother got ran over by a car when she was just 16 years old, and is on roxys also. She will be on them for life. My whole family is on opiates. And i am the only one who sees the light. Good luck with your situation. And i will pray for you! As it says in the good book, ALL THINGS SHALL PASS!

Crave1583

Jun 22, 2012

To: Concernedformyspouse

I know a nurse who was also a pill addict, and this nurse check into a methodone clinic. They dont report the issue and he will not lose his licence. Now that this person is on methadone , its very hard for this person to get off beuase this person is scared to go back... so this could be dangerious. But this may help him now, if he contnues to shoot up the next cheaper thing is herron and i dont think that is something you both would want.... God Bless.

thequeen676

Jun 22, 2012

To: huggybear3063

thank you so much for this advice, I need to get off the meds & see if I still have the same pain without as I do with the meds. I go to the gym almost everyday & I feel almost perfect, but I still need the meds for the fibromyalgia, but if last year my pain was a 10, this year it's a 5 (& may even be less) i just tried to taper off & couldn't, so I'm going to go on vacation, do a few epideral shots & then hopefully taper off to nothing or just when pain is 10+

phoebedoll

Jun 23, 2012

To: IwillDoThis

i saw your post and i had to write. im struggling myself. im terrified because i just had gastric bypass and went from 300 to 150 lbs . last nov. its 6 mo later and im still and more so adicted to hydrocodone, wanting sooo badly to not have to deal with this issue becuse of my family and i just was raped. this is all too much to deal with right now. if theres any advice you can give id really appreciate it. i am scared to the withdrawl (withdrawal) because i get sick, and am affraid of my heart stopping or someting, i dont have heart problems but did have a bit of high blood pressure when i was over weight. i am also very disabled although looking at me you cannot tell. i have so many thing wrong and just about to be 30 year old. so please please any imput,(hopefully respectfull) imput would help me so much right now. andi keep hearing my heart beat in my right ear, what could that be? too much pain meds? i took 3 ten mg tablets by back hurts so bad and i have a couple tumors, is why i take them,. please get back to me when you can. thank you so much...

phoebedoll

Jun 23, 2012

To: zo6ls603

id really like to know how your progress is, im having the smae issue. hydrocodeon, like 10 a day ten mg.

phoebedoll

Jun 23, 2012

To: littlebit667

scared

gnarly_1

Jun 23, 2012

To: phoebedoll

HI.....well you got a lot going on but lke most addicts we have a list of reasons we cant get clean.......this has to stop in order to beat this thig you got to want it bad ......yes you will be sick but onlly for a few days you need to embrace the withdrawal it is the beginning to the end if you dont stop using serious health risks lye ahead we can help read some of the other posts go to the top of the page and click on the orange btton and start your own thread this isan old one new ones get more responses and just know you can do this we will support you all the way good luck and God bless.......Gnarly

sophia42

Jun 23, 2012

To: Sherise102

Hi my is Jesssica and I myself am trying to take conttol of my life and not allow this pain pill to have to control. I really didnt think I had a problem until my boyfriend made me aware of how my mood swings would be and he knew it was starting to take control of my life.I couldnt get out of bed until I had a lortab 10. I wanted the enenrgy. It really wasnt for the High anymore but for the energy. So, I tried the cold turkey....... OH NO.. NOT GOING TO WORK!! I was taking 4 a day, then went to 2 then went to none, and I couldnt do it. I talked to a friend of mine and he said to TAPER off, if you are taking 4 ( for examlpe ) take 4 for three days, ( SAME TIME EACH DAY) then take 3 for three days, ( AGAIN, SAME TIME OF DAY) then take 2 for three days, then 1 for three days then go down to a half. You body will still crave them. I have learned this.. stay away from artifical sweets, in the morning take a Niacin pill ( 500mg flush free) , this is a wonderful pill ( OTC ) and can be taken on an empty stomach. Take 10000mg of Vitamin C threee times a day..Lysine, vitamin d, and E and a fish oil.. The energy will come with time and I have learned that when I crave I have to go and do something to take my mind off of it. It only lasts for about 10-15 minutes depending on how addict you were to the pills. Cold Turkey I think is just something that you need to do in a rehab or have someone there in case it gets to the point of needing to see a doctor. Some of the pills out there are to bad to detox alone or without Medical help. Exspecially the OPANA'S. to many people have died trying alone. rememeber that you arent alone, have one or two people that you can count on to be a support team for you and when you craving or wanting to get high. I dont want to sound like some "Religious" person. But GOD and praying has helped a lot. Try to find this book
BATTLEFIELD OF THE MIND, by Joyce Meyer... It will help you so much with your mind and being able to control it, and help with the addiction. I pray for all of us, its a DAY BY DAY thing.. And who knows, tomorrrow I might fall and relapse. But I have a support team, and I want a Healthy life for myself and I dont want my son to have to Bury his mother at a young age. I hope this has helped and I will be praying for you and all of you on this site.

sophia42

Jun 23, 2012

To: DesperateMOMMY3

taper is a process of say you are taking 20, ( WOW ) you take 19 the next three days, ( same time each day!!!) then you take 18 for three days, then you take 17.. if you really want this try to start with taking 10 and then trying the taper, get you some vitamins,
Vitamin c,d,e Niaicin 500mg flush free ( take niacin in the morning, helps with the cravings) and you take them everyday.. even after you are off the pills, fish oil and lysine.
potassium and stay away for articfical sweets. they make you crave more. detox tea while you are tapering helps also.
and you can make your own BTW.
cayenne pepper/ hot water/ halfa a lemon/ soem fresh ginger root. and garlic. this will start cleaning your insides and if it gets to bad take the Imodium (immodium) for the diarrhea. I hope this has helped.
once you are down to only take a half for 3 days ( same time everyday) you will start to feel so much better. just keep busy, and when you crave do something. walk, garden, read.. it will pass. I will be praying for you

ToughItOut

Jun 26, 2012

To: Substance Abuse > Discussion

I've been unable to completely kick for over 5 years. Sometimes at extreme levels. I have not read post that I haven't been through myself. I'M determined this time. Relapses are common, but make up your mind to eliminate that as an option. This will suck. Days 2-4 (even 5) are the worst (b/c ur system won't really start calling for the 1st 24 hrs). I recommend deleting any/all phone #'s or sources u might want to call when u are desperate to find something. U need at least 1 support person who knows whats going on and will be there to give u support when u want to give in. Dont give in. If u want to do this without professional help u must tough it out at points. I recommend getting down to 10 mg per day for 2-3 days. Stock up on bananas, Gatoraid, Emergen-C, BC Powder, Immodium (liquid is best), Alieve, etc. You will not want to, but take showers, move around, eat, hydrate, & repeat. Days 5-10 are better. 2 full weeks to start feeling right again. Most importantly- do not relapse or u can plan on going through this again. This is what I've most recently discovered- I/you are addicted. Its over. There is no middle ground. Mark the calendar and go 30 days 100% clean & never go back & you WILL reclaim ur life.

ToughItOut

Jun 26, 2012

To: Addiction: Substance Abuse > Discussion

I've been unable to completely kick for over 5 years. Sometimes at extreme levels. I have not read post that I haven't been through myself. I'M determined this time. Relapses are common, but make up your mind to eliminate that as an option. This will suck. Days 2-4 (even 5) are the worst (b/c ur system won't really start calling for the 1st 24 hrs). I recommend deleting any/all phone #'s or sources u might want to call when u are desperate to find something. U need at least 1 support person who knows whats going on and will be there to give u support when u want to give in. Dont give in. If u want to do this without professional help u must tough it out at points. I recommend getting down to 10 mg per day for 2-3 days. Stock up on bananas, Gatoraid, Emergen-C, BC Powder, Immodium (liquid is best), Alieve, etc. You will not want to, but take showers, move around, eat, hydrate, & repeat. Days 5-10 are better. 2 full weeks to start feeling right again. Most importantly- do not relapse or u can plan on going through this again. This is what I've most recently discovered- I/you are addicted. Its over. There is no middle ground. Mark the calendar and go 30 days 100% clean & never go back & you WILL reclaim ur life.

MickInNYC

Jun 27, 2012

To: DesperateMOMMY3

It is interesting the various ways that people get rid of an addiction. You should remember that most people can't  shake it, and that's why they have trouble. If it was easy to get off pills there wouldn't be expensive clinics (that for a lot of money basically lock you up for a week or two), there would not be criminals who entered into a life of crime to feed an addiction, and there wouldn't be the "Hollywood star confession" of a "pain killer addiction" every other week (by the time they confess to the media they have tried to shake things many, many times).

The "taper off" method of shaking an addiction is quite simple, in concept anyway. You take fewer pills each day, to where eventually your body no longer needs the pills. It is getting addicted in reverse. We all started our addiction with one pill, then two, then three, and eventually for some, taking 20 to 30 pills a day.

I am an addict, but a personal one as no one thinks I am. But, and this is a big but, I have always recognized how addictions can develop into a heavy habit, to where one needs more and more pills. So while this may not look to some as an "achievement" I have paced and limited myself to 8 pills a day. Yes, an addiction, but I never got to the level of taking or "needing" more than two pills every six hours, nor let myself take more than that.

Anyway, I decided about three prescriptions (100 Vicodin X 3) ago that I was going to quit. I had read about the "taper off" method and doctors swear by it. It makes sense to me so that's what I am doing.

The "taper off" method is simple, and IMO (I am NOT a doctor and I am NOT an expert) you need:

- At least two months supply of pills. (This is very subjective, since that can mean anything from 6 pills daily to 20++.  The bigger your addiction the more pills you are going to need to taper off.) Note however, IMO you would be very surprised that if you took only two pills every six hours instead of four or six, that your body will quickly adjust and your mind will deem that sufficient. I know this sounds stupid, but if I take one pill every four to six hours my addiction is satisfied. But yes, it is easy to take two to three pills at a pop and the body/mind will adjust to that just fine.

- A LOT OF DISCIPLINE, if you taper off on your own, without anyone's help.

- A dedicated alarm clock next to the pills. (Something like a Big Ben).

- A daily pill minder/dispenser so you can place in each day/compartment the number of pills you are allowed each day.

- A really good friend or significant other who will help you taper off, if you can't do this on your own.

- An Ambien per night so you can sleep as long as possible, to not lay awake dealing with withdrawal symptoms.

- And this is probably silly, but I find what helps are two things to control the mind, 1) I know the withdrawal symptoms will be over in about 5 days; in a lifetime of Christmases, good times, and happy days, 5 days is nothing; 2) I try to think of other people who have bigger problems than my addiction and who would gladly trade places with me. There's people in here, for example, who have life-altering pain, that will never go way, there's people who face prison because of a drunk driving fatality, there's people who have nothing to eat where before they were going on world cruises, and there's people like my sister (who I am visiting tomorrow) who has ALS and the doctors have said she has about six months to live, but she has decided to terminate her life on a day certain in three weeks, so she can donate her organs. So she is doing a modified bucket list. Yes, when I start to think of my problem, the addiction and withdrawal symptoms are nothing compared to what my sister (who is 66) CHOOSING the date of her death.

- I also try to constantly remind myself about the absurdity of a Vicodin addiction. Every addict knows that we build up a tolerance so it either takes more pills to "get high" or we simply need pills to feed the addiction, not to get high or experience a buzz. Because of my controlled dosage (2 pills every six hours) I am in the latter category.

Bonus Tip: I think it would also help to be honest with your doctor. Tell him or her about your addiction and that you want to "taper off." The doc can then regulate how many pills you get, and if you don't have an illegal source (friends, relatives, doctor shopping) the doctor can control your supply and simply cut you off if you stray from tapering off.

IMO it is the discipline aspect of this that causes most people to fail at the taper off method. When you have a fresh refill of 100 pills like I do (10/325, 2X every 6 hours) it is so tempting to not watch the clock or pill minder box, and to pop a few pills every four hours. Next thing you know you are saying "I'll start the taper-off next prescription." And after that 6 to 12 months have gone by without any changes in your abuse.

(The discipline part is why I think a good invention would be a "taper-off safe." It is a crack-proof safe, and maybe so expensive its cost will act as an additional deterrent to breaking it open. Anyway, what it would do is automatically dispense pills at times set. Let's say you load it up with 100 pills. In 6 hours it would dispense two pills, then two six hours later, then after four days it cuts back to two pills every 8 hours, then four days later, one pill every six hours, etc., etc. Eventually, you taper off.)

In regards to having help, you have to have a really good friend or significant other, and I mean really, really good. Someone who will force you to stick to the program and not cave to your demands.

Anyway, I am a disciplined person and can do the taper off. For example, I ran out of pills on Sunday. So I have gone almost three days now without "a hit." I am feeling it, the withdrawal symptoms, but I am doing things to keep busy, walking the dogs, taking an Ambien and getting to sleep at night, so that I am only awake 16 hours dealing with the withdrawal symptoms, watching movies, calling friends, and doing anything to not focus on the withdrawal symptoms.

Also a sign of my discipline, I have a refill for 100 Vicodin. When I ran out on Sunday (two days ago) I tried to get a refill, but the pharmacy said I had to wait until Wed. for the refill. (100 pills = 12 day supply. Tomorrow is day 12 so I can get the refill).

However, I could have called my doctor yesterday morning (Monday) and told him to up the dosage. (Previously I was on 2 pills every 4 hours, but I told him I wanted to cut back (my idea to taper off) so I went to two pills every six hours). So he would have put me back to the higher dosage and I could have got pills yesterday morning.

But I did not call, choosing instead to start my tapering off, albeit I would definitely prefer not going "cold turkey." While this may not sound like much of an achievement I think NOT calling the doctor for a refill and going three days now without pills says a lot. (I say three days because I took my last two pills on Sunday morning. Withdrawal symptoms started seriously on Sunday evening because my body probably had enough narcotic in my system to tide me over for 8 to 10 hours.)

Well I hope this all makes sense. I was three days into withdrawal symptoms and simply Googled "how long does it take for Vicodin withdrawal symptoms" and came upon this page.

BobbyParker

Jun 28, 2012

To: zo6ls603

i feel the same as you. Im just so tired of this ****. I tried going cold turkey and that didnt even last 2 days. I tried suboxone and that **** made me sick as hell. the nasty orange taste made me gag and spit up and now if i even smell a suboxone i throw up. Im just at a loss right now. I dont know what to do.

Dragon808

Jun 28, 2012

To: zo6ls603

I'm in the same boat u are, don't give up! I'm doing all I can to stay away from my bottle of pills and it's a test I have to pass. Try to think of who your doing this for, it helps me! Try to picture your family! I know you can do it!

mikeyb818

Jul 05, 2012

To: djean567

get suboxone and see a counselor use turntohelp.com stay active saty away from other users i have been off six days hardly no wds except fr the mental part but thats where staying active helps out you have to change your routine of what you normally do when taking oxys to me suboxone is a miracle drug i was taking 8 to 10 30mgs a day now none now naturally you can get dependent on them also so now this months script my doctor will lower the dose and soon i wont need them as far as pain mine is my back i take aleve and swim alot joined Ymca and glad to say i lost 10 pounds already so like i said i feel great going to the counselor helps because most people like me and you have other issues only You know yours and thats really why we abuse our meds and turntohelp.com is great because you are talking to people who done it just remember being a addict is not you Good LUck MIke

papi1018

Jul 07, 2012

To: detox

Well im at 48 hrs of detox im hurting just aches but ive been on 160 mgs of oxycodone for the pst 2 weeks and vicodin 7.5/325 for the past 10 months due to shoulder injury in iraq. i just had it repaired surgically 2 weeks ago and hurts alot dont get me wrong i have alot of the pills still but i am not taking them i need off my insides hurt please tell me im almost done i hear about 72hrs and should be in the clear is this correct. im sorry if im a lil whiny but im just blah right now.

saveher911

Jul 08, 2012

To: IwillDoThis

hi my wife is very addicted to percs now she is snorting them how can i help her get off i have 5 kids and dont want to just leave because she thinks all im doing she wanting her to go though withdraws please help thank

MUSTDETOX

Jul 21, 2012

To: All

I am quitting cold turkey today and just snorted my last 15mg of Oxycodone. I have to pass a drug test on Wednesday and really want to get off this ****. I am sick and tired of being bound to it and it controlling every aspect of my life. I am hoping that if I stop the pain med then my husband will too. He has severe chronic pain so it will not be as easy for him. Although I have bulging discs I am also addicted to the buzz. Somebody, please give me the Thomas recipe. I cannot seek my doctor's help for several reasons but I do have an anti-emetic for nausea & vomiting and hopefully flexerils for muscle spasms and ativan for anxiety. This is not my first time detoxing but it is the first time I will be detoxing because I want to. Any suggestions or help would be much appreciated.

warrior01

Jul 24, 2012

I have been on xanax since 2008 my dr prescribed me 5 mgs take 1 and a half a day. today I went to see him for a sinus infection and he told me he would no longer be treating anxiety disorders and will only give me on refill. Is this legal in the state of alabama should he not give me a time and let him bring me down over period of time.

joann429

Jul 25, 2012

To: zo6ls603

how are things comng along for you... hope its getting easier.... you sound like you have alot goig for you so dont give up

RecoveringandHappy

Jul 25, 2012

To: joann429

I tried Detoxing on my own and it was miserable! I was sick to death, scared and had nobody to talk to. Went back to my old habits and gave up. Eventually I lsot my job and decided I had to do something about it. Decided to suck it up and enter Detox and drug rehab. did alot of research found a place other people I knew liked.. and here I am today 2 years clean and sober. BTW it was the Drug treatment center http://www.asoberwayhome.org that helped me, they are very understanding people.

Pumpkin1974

Jul 26, 2012

I have been on percocet for the last 6 years. I now think I have a problem even though I do have chronic pain, I have more than tripled the dose the doctor tells me to take, which is 1 (10/650) every 4 hours. I take 3 at a time and run out of my pills within 2 weeks. Pain management says that I need the pills but I think that I am developing a habit for them because in pain or not, my body craves for the medicine. I am between a rock and a hard place. I don't know what to do. Do anyone have any suggestions for me.

ImDONENoMore

Jul 26, 2012

Hi pumpkin - and welcome!

I think it would help for others to respond to you if you start your own thread? It's great that you found your way here and you will get a ton of support from the members of this forum. Start your own thread so we can help you through this.

Good luck to you and welcome again! :) (just click on "post a question" and that will get you started)

hopeful1177

Jul 28, 2012

To: All Desperate Detoxer

I am detoxing off of fentanyl patches 100/mcg, oxyconttin 80 mg/twice daily, and dilaudid 8mg q every 4 hours. I've been on all of that for over ten years, not to mention when I'M HOSPITALIZED THEY GIVE ME 6 MG DILAUDID IV EVERY 2-4 hours. I never run out of my pain meds, but I am a slave to it. I started a suboxone detox 4 days ago, and now i'm on day 5. The first day was hell, the tingles in my feet/legs, severe stomach cramps,diarrhea, fatigue, irritability, muscle/body aches-its enough to make you wanna jump off the roof.But day 2, I talked to my doctor, who wants me to stay on the drugs, and after insisting i don't need it everyday anymore he gave me klonopin which made a huge difference along with valium, llots of water, Immodium AD, and tons os prayer. Now on day 5, I feel like I'm over the hump.I can't articulate how difficult that 1st 2 days were even on suboxone. AND I still have a bottle of 58 oxy 80's that i had my husband hide from me. It was so hard not to give up day 1 an 2 and just atke an oxycontin to end the suffering, but i'm determined to get a normal life back so I'm enduring and if I can do it you caan too. i hate suffering, and I have a real pain disease I was born with so Ive alwaqys had to take pain meds since childhood but I never got physically addicted until they put me on the oxycontin, ans fentanyl patches. I never snorted anything, took it only as prescribed and still became adicted. And to make matters even worse I'll always have to be hospitalized and given IV dilaudid til the day i die because of my pain disease. I do have excruciating pain at times, like once a year approx, but theres no need to take all those strong meds everyday wehn i don't hurth everyday.Be encouraged you can make it, you can get off of these horrible drugs if you are deetermined. Stop exsisting and start living, we only get one life-IT IS WORTH IT! I can't stress how much the clonopin and valium helped me, but after you are done detoxing throw the clonopin away, as it can also cause dependence. Hope this helps some. I'll repost day8-9 to update my progress, I plan on only using the suboxone for 10 days to 2 weeks max to prevent dependence upon it. I'm only making it because of Christ-I can do all things through HIm for HE gives me strength, but for those who don't believe just make up in your mind that you are gonna get free from all addiction and you can do it. Don't listen evryone online with hopeless attitudes, or you'll become hopeless too. Remember it is human nature to exaggerate and complain when we are going thru tough times. God Bless

dustinellsbury15

Aug 01, 2012

To: Kristinsnightmare

My heart go's out to you. My birth mother was a big crack head and my ex, my son's mother was addicted to just about everything. I never understood how she could lie to my face about wanting to be with me and wanting a family. After all the lie's and stealing, I finally blew up one day after i caught he at the neighbors house smoking crack with him, I slapped her in the face. After all that she had done to me and our son, I was the one who spent 6 months in jail. Today I realize what she's been through because I've been addicted to pain pills for 4yrs now. You have to remember a couple of things. I know it doesnt seem like it at times, but you are a good mother and wife. You are going threw something that anybody who doesnt understand never will. The other thing is that because of what the put in the pills its really hard to not be addicted or even like the feeling that you get from taking them. But you have realized the error of your ways and the biggest thing is YOU WANT THE CHANGE TO HAPPEN NOW. Because you want it and nobody is forcing you, you keep your mind focused on what you need to achive and work hard, because it will be a struggle. You can do it beleive in yourself. From one addict to another, I know you can do it

dustinellsbury15

Aug 03, 2012

To: DesperateMOMMY3

All's i can say to you is dont give up. Ur hubby was addicted and he knows how hard it can be. Just because he doesnt anymore doesnt mean he should be all preachy to you. He wants to help, but he's afraid that if he gets to close it might cause him to relapse as well. Your in a tough situation.I've been addicted for awhile as well. I started taking withdrawl (withdrawal) ease two days ago and so far it has helped. It cost $90. 60 pills for the day 60 pills for the night. You can order them online. My symptomes are 90% better. I can sleep at night and i dont have the runs anymore. Sometimes i still sweat when i sleep but In two days ive been able to sleep. Without the pills, i couldnt sleep more than 3 hrs a night, even if i was so tired my sleep would never last. The first night i slept 7 hrs and last night i slept 10. Keep your spirits up this will pass. Everyone including myself looked for a easy way to get clean, honey there are none. These pills have been the best thing ive ever tried and its only been two days but so far im good to go. Let ur husband know the truth. Tell him you need him and just ask the he support you as best he can. Keep your head up and suck it out. Your kids need you and they will always love you know matter what. This wont kill you it will only make you stronger. If u can go for 4 days, then your in the clear. Drink gatorade, not water. If you drink to much water it will make it worse.

ashamednks

Aug 05, 2012

I never seen myself in this situation that I am. I have many medical issues that require the use of pain killers to live any kind of quality of life, however.... They have totally taken control of me and I can not seem to let them go. I want too, and have on many occasions settled myself in for the withdraws but the pain is too much to bear. My wife and children suffer from my addiction to these pain killers, and the rest of my story im really to ashamed to tell right now. Thank all of you for encouraging me to post and know that many are finding courage in your honesty, not to mention the desire to get clean. As for myself, i feel hopelessly and forever a slave to them. I have tried prayer, as I was really involved in church for many years. I have strayed away from there too now, because i feel even God has abandoned me to this over powering addiction. Many years ago I struggled with meth, but it was nothing compared to the many percocet i take each day.....

orangatang

Aug 05, 2012

To: ashamednks

Dude try walking..sounds crazy but try it mabee klonodine heard that helps too just do both of us a favor and stay off suboxone it will make a bad problem worse

OXY15MGIRL

Aug 08, 2012

To: zo6ls603

I am on day 5. your story sounds just like mine except that my husband takes them with me so i haven't had to lie to him but i have to the rest of my family. I am over the hump but not 100%. I am still craving them and there effects. I really wanted this and talked my husband into trying. we have tapered off for about 6 months then he went to jail so i got 12 last ills and left my home for my mothers(whom i dont 100% like). that was on wensday took my last on friday morning. it's now tuesday night.. It was really bad and i still haven't got a good night sleep. well i hope all is well. if u can try to let me know

hangetsu

Aug 08, 2012

To: OXY15MGIRL

Why don't you start your own thread? This one is 11 years old. That way you can get some replies to your posts and get to know people. ;)

OXY15MGIRL

Aug 08, 2012

To: MickInNYC

All I got to say is WOW... I am 34 yrs old and my son is 18 yrs old(long story but yes i was young). Anyways, I came across this sitting here on my 4th full day of no ills. Lets not get into how much i was taking lets just say it got worst when DOC moved my husband from 10/325 mg oxycodone to 15mg with no tyl. We have had this issue for 4 yrs now but have been trying to quite (for me) for about a year with the taper off thing... My husband having more trouble then me but i still taken them daily just to get by without being sick..

ok, so i said we wouldn't talk about that.. the reason I decided to write with so much passion I just cant express quit like you but I gotta say something.. I gotta know how you are doing..lol

I was on this site when i began this journey. looking for the "what if"'s. Today i came on to see how long my legs and arms will hurt or when can i expect to sleep again. when i came across your Post.. Just to let you know I read it out loud to my son. It started with just the first two sentence then i just kept reading. I really enjoyed reading it and adding my own experiences into it as i went along.

Mind you I am on day 4 of basically cold turkey since i was still taken at least 8 pills a day when my husband went to jail and I decided this was the best time as any and he has no choice to quiet. If I can get sober before he gets out we have a great(only) chance to bet this addiction. If I fall off(husband script due on the 15th of this month) then I am sure he will fall soon after leaving jail. this is the true test.. Can we do it..

My true problem IS.... I truly like taking him I truly know how this Legal drug could get so out of control.
- THE LITTLE HAPPY PILL
having a bad day take this.. it'll help
can't sleep- here's one of these
can't wake up- this will help
I mean who wouldn't like to be HAPPY when things are going bad. I mean a DOC gave them to me so why not RIGHT can't be bad or the DOC wouldn't give it to me right? WRONG

as i climb this mountain today i believe this med should not be given to anyone that is not terminal. this med. should not be given to anyone that will not take it for life.. (how do you walk away from happiness)

So if I like it so much why do I want to stop, You ask? I am an addict, I spend my last dollar and pawn everything we own because a DOC will not give out enough for 2 plp :) and when i am with out i am sick and since i just lost my medical i no longer get any. so i have found that i am sick at least 2 weekends out the month (not good).

FYI i raised my son to 13 yrs if age and i was 28 yrs old before i even took my first drink. i hated drugs and never seen myself doing them. I didn't even keep friends that strayed from the straight edge lifestyle. THEN, life happened and i was sucked in with a little white pill. Someone forgot to tell me about this drug and it has slowly took over my life..

I hope you are doing well and I hope WE can help someone realize that they can do it..

OXY15MGIRL

Aug 08, 2012

To: hangetsu

dont know how to start that. was just looking for support i guess

Bryon1976

Aug 08, 2012

To: All

Today is my first day in trying to quit. I take over 120 mg of oxycodone a day. Usually crush up about 35-40 mg a pop.
I have shown signs of overdose and that scares me.
I have some OxyContin op 20mg I took one this morning without chewing it... That was weird right there. I'm hoping to take just enough to keep DT'S away and taper off... Wish me luck

winstrol

Aug 11, 2012

I have taken about 500 percocet 10 within the last 3 month. I am up to 10 pills a day. Beore this i was taking them on and off starting when I was playing college football about 7 years ago.. So i have been on and off, but this time I have been taking everyday ranging from 5 to 10... I need to get off.. I set aside 20 pills to taper off with and i am concerned it is not enough. The doctor told me to taper and lower the dose each day but he didnt tell me how many to take. Does anyone know how many I should take each day to taper off. I am also taking ambien and ativan, and I am hoping that will help... Please help with some information that might work

losttime

Aug 12, 2012

To: all

i have been taking 20 to 30 10/325 hydros per day for a few years now 200 to 300mg every stinking day, everything i own is paid off truck motorcycle ect..yet i dont have any savings because i spend thousands of dollars a week on these little yellow pills that are just destroying my life. i want to quit i ask the lord to help me quit, but just the knowing of i will be running out i put my life in grave danger just to find more on the streets, GOD help us all! we are all your children we are here united needing your power GOD, when there is two there is church, GOD we are in the hundreds even thousands and we call you now lord for your touch your power your love and mercy GOD i pray you touch us all and lift this curse that is destroying our lives your childrens lives. please everyone keep praying keep your faith and dont think you fail because you get more because you cant handle the withdraw,keep trying keep reducing the amount and keep PRAYING the lord gave us a promise and with that promise we will all be healed, Even me and im so deep in this curse....and this is day one for me to start quiting. please pray for me and ill pray for yall!!!!! the lord will hear us and heal us before he allows these drugs to destroy us, we just need faith

FockerRN

Aug 14, 2012

To: All

I am R.N. broke my back in a car accident....spinal fusion / broken both wrist on the sterring wheel...etc....pain killers are the biggest scam the pharm companies are pulling on all of us. They have cures for pain....but cures.....cures don't make money $$$$$$$$$$$$$  so what do they do? Keep presciping the same old addictive opiates from the 60s to keep you hooked and addicted. We all should do something and come together to stop these billion $ pharm co. from ruining our lives...

I am one day without... pecocet (percocet) 10  and methadone ....feels just like the flu. Haven't slept in 72 hours...all the withdrawls......first day I have ever called out of work... Mu suggestion tapper down...I got down to a 1/4 tab using pill cuts....gatorade, buy a juicer $99 walmart Jack Lalaine, and steam room. Eat only raw foods....then FLUSH YOUR MEDS...or GO INTO treatmrnt..

I use to be a psych. R.N.and detox people from opiates...it will take about 5-7 days..you will sleep most of the time..You will recieve subxone and ativan ane they will keep you sedatide most of the time.

.I took 2/4 tabs Q  4/6 prn...as needed..DETOX AND DO IT RIGHT!!! YOU COULD HAVE A SEIZURE AND THEN COMA..THEN DEATH...

I have an appt.. with my MD tomorrow and I am going to throw both bottlesw in his face....Then medical community it ripping you off...I'm in it. I know....

scooterbug2

Aug 17, 2012

To: anyone that can help me

i have been on painkillers and alot of other stuff for years, i have quit everything else but meds i am ready to kick this habit and be completely drug free ii am tired am scared b/c i know what i am looking at i am not gonna depend on this any longer can anyone give me

bestrongg

Aug 18, 2012

awhile back I was taking 120+mg of oxy a day. With the help of saboxone and a hotel room a kicked it. After that I couldn't take the mental withdraws so I started taking vic/perq about 6~7 a day, its been 13 days since I've taken anything and my head is screaming at me. I wish all of you luck and prayers bc I know what hell it can be. Know you can Doit believe you van. Anyone know if I eat a five if it'll relapse me?. Best wishes.

sr1007

Aug 19, 2012

To: anyone

i am a mother of 2 my little one is 3 and my older one is 9. i am married but its been hard, i have done some awesul **** to him because i got addicted to pain pills and hated myself so i took it out on him since i love him the most. he now lives with his parents and i am alone with the kids, he helps me out and we are still togethter he is just scared i am going to be the evil person i was to him if he comes home. I quit for a month and now i am taking them again and lord help me stop, to add to my problem i took kolonipin to help get off the lortab and now i am addicted to those. I dont eat i just take pills. I feel like i want to die every morning cause i wake up in so much pain until i can get myself up to take my pills and feel normal again. i seriously have to set a timer to get up and take them before my kids have to wake up because i cant be like that in front of them. what can i do i have tried it all. I need to detox and be able to care for my kids at the same time. I cant go to rehab because im to broke and everytime i talk to a doctor about my problem they try to get me to take an anxidepressiant which only makes me want to kill myself worse. someone please help me. I have tried tappering and i swear everytime i get to the last half i give up. i know its my strength that has to get me passed day 4 but how can i get there... i have no one to talk to because all my family is addicts and i think that makes it harder because everytime i turn someone is offering me something. PLEASE HELP

al18b

Aug 19, 2012

Hello to everyone this is the first time that I post something online I have bad news and good news. Well let's start with the bad news I started using pain killers like 3 months ago or maybe a little longer, I was depending on this pills everyday I thought that it would be easy for me to stop that's the reason why I had never care of me using pills, well I guess I was not right about that. I was trying to stop using pills and I couldn't, so does 3 months became 6 months, I was to the point that I was going crazy if i didn't have the pills, I was using OP'S 80mg 3 to 4 a day sometimes 5. I did different ones too like oxy, M30, bananas, I did a lot of pills. NOW THE GOOD NEWS I stop using pills a month ago. How? What I'm about to tell you it's not easy to do but if I did it trust me everyone can do it, you just need to be ready and sure that you want to do like I did Well it wasn't easy I wanna tell you that but I did it. What I did was I started cutting the amount of pills that I was taking every day day by day I was using a little less and little less. I started read I started reading stuff about detoxing so I went grab a couple things like PASSIONFLOWER FLUID AND ALSO THE PILL that helps a lot for the anxiety that you go through the detox period. The main thing of all is to try to they use phonon to you get to the p on to you get to the point that you only depending on a small doses. Then right after that what I did was I got myself into a health food store and got tea to help me me sleep at night. I went through all type symptoms that you get through the but withdraw period like diarrhea,headaches,vomiting,tiredness, anxiety, I was very stressed out but I knew it was because my body was needing the pills well it was very difficult for me but I did it. All you need is a good support people and also be willing to do it. all of this may sound a easy stuff to do but it's not. Well guess what is not impossible either. Thank you to all of you and I hope that you can do it too.

al18b

Aug 19, 2012

Hello to everyone this is the first time that I post something online I have bad news and good news. Well let's start with the bad news I started using pain killers like 3 months ago or maybe a little longer, I was depending on this pills everyday I thought that it would be easy for me to stop that's the reason why I had never care of me using pills, well I guess I was not right about that. I was trying to stop using pills and I couldn't, so does 3 months became 6 months, I was to the point that I was going crazy if i didn't have the pills, I was using OP'S 80mg 3 to 4 a day sometimes 5. I did different ones too like oxy, M30, bananas, I did a lot of pills. NOW THE GOOD NEWS I stop using pills a month ago. How? What I'm about to tell you it's not easy to do but if I did it trust me everyone can do it, you just need to be ready and sure that you want to do like I did Well it wasn't easy I wanna tell you that but I did it. What I did was I started cutting the amount of pills that I was taking every day day by day I was using a little less and little less. I started read I started reading stuff about detoxing so I went grab a couple things like PASSIONFLOWER FLUID AND ALSO THE PILL that helps a lot for the anxiety that you go through the detox period. The main thing of all is to try to they use phonon to you get to the p on to you get to the point that you only depending on a small doses. Then right after that what I did was I got myself into a health food store and got tea to help me me sleep at night. I went through all type symptoms that you get through the but withdraw period like diarrhea,headaches,vomiting,tiredness, anxiety, I was very stressed out but I knew it was because my body was needing the pills well it was very difficult for me but I did it. All you need is a good support people and also be willing to do it. all of this may sound a easy stuff to do but it's not. Well guess what is not impossible either. Thank you to all of you and I hope that you can do it to

The_Ocean_Heals

Aug 21, 2012

To: theoceanheals

Been on legal script of dilaudid since 2005, time does fly. Up to 8's from 4s, realized it was time when I went through 90 pills in 20 days, just last week. Have amazing insurance and a pain management Dr that thinks I am not being kind to myself, when I get off the pain meds. I get off and put myself through detox every few months as a reminder of how f'ed up I let myself become; let me add to this medical mess in my brain. I am also bipolar 2, not the happy kind - have a great phsyco / pharmacologist who manages those meds. Once I was an elite athlete. As an early middle aged person I hoped that the pain meds would get me through the necessary training. Instead I used my pain meds to deal with the reality of the 16 screws, 4 plates and two rods that prevent me truly training or competing in my sport of choice. Don't do that, just accept yourself for what you are and be happy you are alive with a life to live.
So I am off on the joys of my self created mess. Folks, don't fear the pain, the night sweats, the legs or trots. Remember why you want off of these drugs, you are all strong enough to handle the detox. have to remember there is a time and place to pay the piper and it is either here and now or with a poor excuse of a life later on. You can do this! The Ocean Heals All

betterlatethannever

Aug 26, 2012

To: IwillDoThis

this ***** 3rd day.i feel like i can't do this...but i know i'm strong how long do the with draws last cold turkey..i got to many responsiablities for this.

percsrnogood

Aug 31, 2012

To: oxyclean

I just want to say thank you. I am on day 5. Wow. Wow. Wow. That about sums it up. I was hurt real bad 2 and half years ago. I had 5 surgeries and dureing that time started taking oxycodone. Before I new it I had 2 doctors with 2 scripts. I was at 10 to 15 pers a day. Well this Monday I walked away from the bottle. Cold turkey. Wow wow wow. I did take a xanax the second night. And a sleeping pill the third night. Well here it is my 5 day with no pers. I feel way better then the first two days. I involved my three kids and wife in my detox. At first I wasn't going to but I started reading everyones posts. I am so glad I did. I didn't wake up one morning and started taking for recreation. As I said 5 surgeries. Well that was great advice to involve family. I fellt ashamed until I read the posts. My family knows I was hurt. They all went on internet to find help. Someone wrote to try and eat maybe you. My wife read it and made me eat 3 time a day. Even feeling sick as hell I chocked them down. My daughter read about showers. And my son. He laughed at me. But I could see he cared. That's what we do to each other. Well here I am day 5. I went out to breakfast day 4 with a family member. Don't really remember cause I was hurting. But I moved around on day 4 until noon. Then layed down. Still siick still diarrea (diarrhea). I feel real light headed. I ache all over. Well today I got up and at ceral 6 am then 8 am one egg. My friend bought a boat so we went to lunch. Guess what. The moving around from the waves was like I was working out. We had lunch then drove home. It was about an 8 hour day I was moving around. Still sick but I did it. At 8 o'clock tonight I technically start my 6 day. Do you or anyone know how long the light head cloudy feeling will go away. Plus the diarrea (diarrhea) wiil stop. And the aches and sickness will stop. I sure hope soon. I told my family and they have been very supportive plus we ain't fooling nobody we looked high or spoke screwed up. They all told me that the last 2 monthes I was all over the place. Sort of like this post. Well if oxyclean or someelse could answer my questons I would appriciate it. Thank you oxyclean and everyone else. Its not fare to single oxyclean out because I have read so many I lost count. But I couldn't post all of you. This is a great thing here. Anyone in bed like me hurting. Just hang in. I am. Day 5 almost over.

jenniferbarnhill0509

Sep 07, 2012

To: zo6ls603

stick in there this is going to be some of the worst days of your life. you will feel like you are dying but you are actually getting better i just went throught this myself. i used for two years and when my six year old looked at me and told me that i like my pills more then her i knew it was time to stop... dont give up thing of the size of that pill is it nearlly as big as holding your son or kissing your girlfriend. dont let it tear you apart. if you want to talk privitly here is my email ***@**** dont hesetate to ask questions id love to help

GripIt_RipIt

Sep 08, 2012

To: All Opiate Detoxers and PAWS

Many of you have traveled similar paths as I. I was injured in a dirt bike accident, was put on painkillers, and as the story goes....
I broke my back in 3 places, 5 ribs, punctured lung, torn esophagus, destroyed shoulder, broken scapula, and collarbone....all in one wreck. Got a nice, morphine enhanced, helicopter ride out of it.
Anyway, as the story goes....it started with some MS Contin (ER Morphine) and Norco 10/325 for breakthru....eventually, over the course of 18 months, I had tried ever painkiller in the book: norco, morphine, Oxycontin, Fentanyl patch, Dilaudid, 15mg Oxy's, and eventually arrived at 30mg Oxy's at a rate of 16 or 20 per day. That's right folks....I could drop 6 or 8 hundred mg's of Oxy in a day without batting an eye. Talk about addiction? The 18 months went by in the bat of an eye, and like any addict, I would always start the taper NEXT Rx, but never did. Finally, enough was enough, and I checked into a detox center. You always hear, "... no one has ever died from opiate withdrawal." BUT... I am pretty sure at the rate I was taking opiates I would have been the first to actually die from opiate detox at home. Long story short, the model of detox, from a professional standpoint, was 6 days. The method was suboxone, with an immediate taper strategy. 24 hours into it, when withdrawal is at it's peak, you get a loading dose, then immediately start a taper....by half each day. Five days, MAX, and stop the suboxone or you will become a statistic of having swapped one addiction for the other. After released, I still had PAWS to deal with, and still am. Post Acute Withdrawal Syndrome is the hard part, to be honest. It's day in and day out of feeling like a dog bone that has been chewed buried, repeat. I am starting my 6 week CNS, and today is the first day I have felt a "good mood" starting to push through. It's encouraging, and I am hoping perpetual, to finally feel something other than anxiety, emptiness, depression. Good luck to all of you and stay clean and take it one minute, one hour, one day at a time, knowing that eventually it gets better.

donniena357

Sep 08, 2012

To: momentarydu02

******** find a nother doctor

LUKETHEYDRIFTER

Sep 10, 2012

To: ashamednks

I have been on every kind of drug there is to take. So I tried methadone and after about two months I was popping pills again so I heard about suboxone went for a yr paying out the butt for a visit then the scrip so I said its time to do this.Now listen very close to the one wanting to go the sob.. way at coming off opiates you will have a counsler and a Dr. that will tell you how to go about coming down by that I mean your dosage I came down to a very very low dose and just had got my life where I wanted it started a great job they wanted 300 dollars for the visit I tried every one finally I said ok lets do it started my new job felt fine I went mon. thru fri. with out one withdrawal when I woke up sat. I could not even began to tell you how this ole country man felt I have gone cold turkey at least 6 times and peps its a walk in the park compared to sub. withdrawal I was in the bed for 8 days and 6 of those days I thought I was going to die the only thing that got me through it was God I know I was praying alot.Please dont take this the wrong way it can work but from what I went through hell no peps when you get your mind rt it will happen you will make it do what alot of peps are talking about gatorade sleep as much as you can atleast for the first two days then you have to push yourself after about two to three weeks you will be so happy and then you can start living.Now I would like to say a special prayer for those who are willing to receive it peps GOD can help you and if you dont thank so just try if your like me I'd try anything but listen close you most believe Heavenly father I pray that everyone that reads this will get healing LORD I ask that you wrap them in your holy arms and that they may get to start a long life drug free I know where there at rt now thinking theres no way out but LORDyou said if two or more gather in my name i wll hear your cry.THANK YOU JESUS THANK YOU peps please don't judge me I'm just trying to help anyone I can I'm no saint if you only knew where I've been you would understand I been down that road before so hang in there I promise you will make it now go get your life back I love and care about everyone on this page and my GOD ALMIGHTY BE WITH YOU AND BLESS YOU

waytolife

Sep 12, 2012

I have sat and read all your comments because like you i also jave a very serious addiction. I have been takeng vicodens for about 5 yrs now and take way too many. I am very ashames of my addiction cause I have done some horrible things just to get the pills. I feel whorthless and suicide comes to me more often than it shld. I hate the thought of taking anything, I never did until I wet through a really bad divorce and had chronic back pain. I started takn a few here and there and don't even know how this addiction came about. I have tired for yrs to just quit but I ALWAYS relapse. Now they are getn harder and harder to find and it is makn feel like I'm going crazy. I want to stop I just don't know how, andi have no insurance to go see a doctor and when I went to the er they treated me like crap. Sp what now, plz help and thanks for listening.

waytolife

Sep 12, 2012

I have sat and read all your comments because like you i also jave a very serious addiction. I have been takeng vicodens for about 5 yrs now and take way too many. I am very ashames of my addiction cause I have done some horrible things just to get the pills. I feel whorthless and suicide comes to me more often than it shld. I hate the thought of taking anything, I never did until I wet through a really bad divorce and had chronic back pain. I started takn a few here and there and don't even know how this addiction came about. I have tired for yrs to just quit but I ALWAYS relapse. Now they are getn harder and harder to find and it is makn feel like I'm going crazy. I want to stop I just don't know how, andi have no insurance to go see a doctor and when I went to the er they treated me like crap. Sp what now, plz help and thanks for listening.

waytolife

Sep 12, 2012

To: bigmistake

I have sat and read all your comments because like you i also jave a very serious addiction. I have been takeng vicodens for about 5 yrs now and take way too many. I am very ashames of my addiction cause I have done some horrible things just to get the pills. I feel whorthless and suicide comes to me more often than it shld. I hate the thought of taking anything, I never did until I wet through a really bad divorce and had chronic back pain. I started takn a few here and there and don't even know how this addiction came about. I have tired for yrs to just quit but I ALWAYS relapse. Now they are getn harder and harder to find and it is makn feel like I'm going crazy. I want to stop I just don't know how, andi have no insurance to go see a doctor and when I went to the er they treated me like crap. Sp what now, plz help and thanks for listening.

ImDONENoMore

Sep 12, 2012

Hi waytolife and welcome!

There are a lot of things you can do at home to make the detox easier and there are a ton of free options for aftercare (AA/NA meetings, etc.) -

And I just wanted to say you should post a new question here - this is an old thread and the older threads tend to get overlooked. But if you post your own question I know you'll get a ton of support and knowledge from the other members here.

Good luck to you - and GOOD FOR YOU for wanting to quit. :)

Chefeam

Sep 18, 2012

To: Anyone who can Help

It is so nice to see people who have the same problems and issues I do with these narcotics. I've tried several times in the past 8 years to quit and I'm still struggling with trying to quit. I have 1 fear & that going through withdrawing that is the worst thing for me and everytime I think about it I get even sicker. I'm going to keep checking on this page so that I can get the support and be able to Speak with people that are going through the same thing as I am in hopefully the 1 day I will be able to end all this. I want to be happy again with my daughter with my family but I know I can't make that happen as long as I'm doing these pain pills. They don't even take away my pain anymore I have endometriosis I have to have sciatica is well nothing cures my pain anymore they just make me feel normal I don't even get energy anymore Like I use to. Thanks everyone for listening and letting me vent I'm going to keep in touch because reading other peoples stories seem to help me out.

AdidasAR

Sep 19, 2012

To: bigmistake

I have went through withdrawals more than I even can remember. I had an injury and was rx'd 240 30 mg Oxy, 30 100mg Morphine and 60 20mg Oxycodone for my first RX. I felt great of course, because my injury kept me from moving but after a few months on the high doses, which really should have killed me to begin with, I realized I had a tolerance and needed more. I had to ask my doctor to wean me, but even then it was hell.
If you can find it, Kratom works. The extract wards off the pain and diarrhea and most of the worst withdrawal effects. Alot of people will say it doesn't but the key is finding the extract. Not just regular Kratom. It has been used for centuries to help people addicted to opium. It worked well for me and it works. It is expensive but no more expensive than buying a bunch of vitamins and detox supplements from a GNC or health foods store.

shelly4765

Sep 25, 2012

I am looking to help my 22yr old daughter break her addiction. First it was pain pills, percocets and last night I found herion in her purse. My heart broke as she has two little kids and I found out she had been taking them with her when she does them. She has stolen a large sum of money from us plus other things that she pawned for cash. I had no idea all of this was going on nor how she became involved in it. We live in a small town and she doesn't have insurance so I don't even know where to begin trying to get her help. She says she wants to get off of it and get better but she has lied so many times to me about the things she has been doing that I don't know if she was just saying that so I wouldn't have her arrested for bringing drugs into my house. She said she wants to detox at home but she is not that strong willed and I don't know if we can do it. I am having to take the rest of the week off work because I can't leave her alone in my house. If she wants to detox this is the time but I don't know where to start. She said she has only been using herion for two months but the pills go back a couple of years. I am just looking for how to help my daughter and what to expect with a detox. Thank You

jesss22

Sep 26, 2012

I jus started readin this ,, this Mornin i'v Ben usin percs &.* Cets since my daughter was born &.* now she's 1 1/2 wil b 2 in Nov I jus took my las percs today , tomorrow is a new day for me I hav Ben wantin to get of pain killers for. along time now but I hurt if I don't take them. Wat should I do

otoh

Sep 26, 2012

To: shelly4765

this is a really old thread. alot of peole won't see this. if you go to the top of the page and post a new question , you'll get tons of help.

easyliving315

Sep 28, 2012

I have been on some form of opiates for over 5 yrs. I started off being prescribed hydrocodone 10mg xs a day so that means I took 8. Then I was prescribed oxycodone 10mg 5 xs a day and it stayed like that for about a month. Then I started going to pain management is was being prescribed 180 30mg oxys, 150 15mg oxys, 90 xanax and muscle relaxers. I slowly weaned myself down to about 3 30's a day.
1 day I called my mom and said I need to come visit you for a little while and get off these pills and away from where I know where to get them..
I have heard horror stories so I had always been scared to do it. I wanted to a year ago but was so afraid of being that sick and not being able to function. I was a functioning addict and worked and had a life and then I realized I'm just an addict..
Honestly, no lie! When I got to my moms I had a couple pills and I was going to stretch them out if I got really bad. But then I told myself If I'm going to do this I'm going to do it all the way. I took the last 2 and waited in fear of my misery. 1st day I was fine, 2nd day I was in and out of the bathroom and I was a little antsy at night with the hot and cold feeling. I took a couple over the counter sleeping pills and slept. The 3rd day I had no motivation and I laid around watched movies and cranked the AC down sat under a blanket and then took it off when I was hot. Took a couple sleeping pills and went to bed. The 4th day I was a little achy and had no motivation but just did the same thing. On the 5th day I had hardly any of those flu like symtoms (symptoms). I just had no motivation but I got up and got dressed and went out and did something. By the next day it was like nothing ever happened and I felt GREAT!
The trick I think that worked for me is that I kept my mind busy and if I thought about it I reminded myself of the bigger picture. The other thing I did was I removed myself from the problem. I knew I couldn't find them so I didn't want them or "need" them like I normally would have.
I feel great, my bank account looks great, I've gained about 10lbs in 3 weeks but thats okay and I haven't gone back home and I don't know if I will. Now I just need to surround myself with the right people and keep my family close to me.
GOOD LUCK TO ANYONE WHO'S GOING TO GET OFF THIS TRAIN WRECK OF A RIDE TO A SLOW DEATH. YOU CAN DO IT!! JUST REMEMBER THERE WAS LIFE BEFORE THESE PILLS. I know it doens't seem like it but there is. So there is life after them, don't lose your life to them.When I say don't lose your life for them I mean it in many different ways. Don't lose your family and friends that love you, don't lose your job, or car or apartment, or bf or gf or kids and don't lose your life!

desperate11determined

Oct 01, 2012

I am 44, I've had 2 neck surgeries, and many more physical and mental issues. I've been taking pain killers (Lortabs) for about 8 yrs. In the past year, I've developed a dependency, also Lortabs no longer help. My body is resistant to them, my doctor changed me to Percocet, same thing with that, it takes 15 a day just to function. I clean houses, which is totally hard work, and I cannot do it without pain meds. I'm at the same point I've read some of u describe. My life revolves around if I have enough, where I'm goin to get them? I spend money that should be paying bills. Its ruining my life, and I want to get off them so bad. In these 8 yrs I have never, not one day gone totally without a pill. Yes, there were days when I only had 5 and had to stretch them out, and I suffered with cold sweats, I laid and kicked my legs, I wanted to die. So I'm extremely scared to try to come off these. My family knows about my surgeries and pain, but nothing about my addiction. I do not want them to ever know. My children are everything to me, and I will not let them down. But if I don't do something, I'm am heading for self destruction. I did talk to a dr about this and she basically told me that with all my issues, I would always have to take pain meds, to have any quality of life. I want to do this, I have to do this, I just don't know how, or when, as I'm a single mom and have my daughter 24-7. She is 15, so she will know somethings wrong, I don't want her to see me flopping around freaking out. Any ideas aanyone? Also have had someone tell me that she got off pain meds and is now one one pill a day, seboxin? Not sure of the spelling. She said she never wants nor does she take more than one a day and is not in pain and has plenty energy to make it thru the work day. I've never seen or taken this pill, so I do not know if that is something that would just start another dependency problem, which I never want to do. Help! I need all the input you guys can give. I don't have insurance, I don't have money, and I don't want anyone knowing...

ih8ocs

Oct 03, 2012

To: anybody

i really need help ive neen doin ok i was on oxy 80s 60s whatever o could get just to have enough energy to go to work but ive been taking suboxone to get off now im hooked on those i cant miss work for long enoigh to get off i only have two days a week off what should i do may not be as serious as some of theese cases but its real and it ***** i work to support my habbit when i cant get subox i get pills which starts me all over again i hate myself for doin this someone please respond and help me please

ih8ocs

Oct 03, 2012

To: anybody

i really need help ive neen doin ok i was on oxy 80s 60s whatever o could get just to have enough energy to go to work but ive been taking suboxone to get off now im hooked on those i cant miss work for long enoigh to get off i only have two days a week off what should i do may not be as serious as some of theese cases but its real and it ***** i work to support my habbit when i cant get subox i get pills which starts me all over again i hate myself for doin this someone please respond and help me please

tomarowsanotherday

Oct 09, 2012

To: LodiDodi

to make a long story short i take pain medication way more than i should i do have problems with pain but to be dead honest im sort of like ur husband i always since im younger have had problems with anxiety and depression on and off (i guess kind of bi polar)feelings i would be happy 1 minute sad the next and i realized that i was taking them more and more to deal with that more than the pain but anyway i have a gf that i live with and were getting to the point that were thinking about our future and at 1st she understood that i took them here and there but now i take them alot and im wasting my money and she wants a future with me but without the drugs and so do i haha im rambling cause it easier to talk to some1 i dont know but what im basically trying to say is its hard and especially that he has other issues. it at time might seem impossible but u just have to understanding these f*king things ***** and are hard to get away from but im sure he reallly wants yous more than the drugs and it might take him a few times but i think for his family he will get away from them just be patient andf understanding..thanks for the ear or eyes hahah

tomarowsanotherday

Oct 09, 2012

To: LodiDodi

to make a long story short i take pain medication way more than i should i do have problems with pain but to be dead honest im sort of like ur husband i always since im younger have had problems with anxiety and depression on and off (i guess kind of bi polar)feelings i would be happy 1 minute sad the next and i realized that i was taking them more and more to deal with that more than the pain but anyway i have a gf that i live with and were getting to the point that were thinking about our future and at 1st she understood that i took them here and there but now i take them alot and im wasting my money and she wants a future with me but without the drugs and so do i haha im rambling cause it easier to talk to some1 i dont know but what im basically trying to say is its hard and especially that he has other issues. it at time might seem impossible but u just have to understanding these f*king things ***** and are hard to get away from but im sure he reallly wants yous more than the drugs and it might take him a few times but i think for his family he will get away from them just be patient andf understanding..thanks for the ear or eyes hahah

tomarowsanotherday

Oct 09, 2012

ok so here it goes i take vicodin for who knows how long and at first it was for pain than i had surgery and still kept taking them i really want to stop because im taking way more than i should for the pain im in.its really starting to effect my life in a bad way i live with my gf and really want to start a future family and all that good stuff but taking these pills are starting to become a real problem in our relationship so i really want to stop taking them but here were it gets better i have always been a lil depressed and had anxiety and i come to realize that taking vicodin was a cure all for some reason(cause i was always messed up and didnt think about what was going on) but i wanted to know if there was any things to help me out for the withdrawal thats natural.cause if i dont stop this **** im probably gonna end up alone broke and really going hard which is none of what i want so any suggestions????

nursegirl6572

Oct 09, 2012

To: tomarowsanotherday

You've posted on a VERY old thread. Please start your own new thread. People are not going to see your posts here.

sisiselina

Oct 11, 2012

To: littlebit667

Hi im trying to figure this site out help

sisiselina

Oct 11, 2012

To: nursegirl6572

Can u please help me

DinoStitch

Oct 13, 2012

To: zo6ls603

I feel for you. i share everything that you are going through even the same line of work. I have had numerous failed back surgeries and i feel my only options are to continue taking roxies and work but probly going to loose my mind as these meds are killing my mind or i could quit my job and quit the pain meds but loose my mind from staying at home. Im 30 years old and my wife got pregnant by another guy and ran off with him, all this was due to my med dependency. I am really at the point to where im thinking suacide is my only option i am so lonely and have pushed everyone that was close to me away. I wish the best for you man i hope you can be strong for the ones who love you i would give anything for a girlfriend and a child as motivation.

Needhelp2122

Oct 15, 2012

To: Anyone

Hi im andrew I been reading on the site for a while now but never posted anything. Im been taking whatever I can get my hands on and went to any length to get them. I took between 60 to 120mg a day. I always relapsed wen trying to quit after the first day. Im on the ending of day 2. ******* ***** big time. Number one thing is my knees are whats killing me so far, and 2nd thing cant sleep for crap. What can I do to stay clean threw this detox and not relapse again? Its driving me nuts. Will smoking cannabis help.in anyway, if its only helps to fall asleep?

Jackie4508

Oct 20, 2012

To: zo6ls603

My cousin was addicted to Roxys, she was dealing and taking them. She lost her kid, lost her job, lost everything. She was doing them for years. She is now clean and sober. She has her kid back, a wonderful man, and her **** together. It is hard but with the support from family/friends you can do this. I know it is easier said then done but I believe anything is possible, If you want it bad enough you can do it! Addiction runs in my family and I have been taking tabs and perks for a while. I have come to realize that I have a problem and it scares me. Tomorrow is a new day and it is going to be day 1 of being drug free. I will keep you in mind and pray that we both can beat this battle. Nothing can stop us, we have too much to lose. Stay positive and keep your head up.

Jackie4508

Oct 20, 2012

To: RSTANKIEWICZ

There are people who are in the same boat. You are not alone. I am going through the same thing. I will be here to talk or anything you need! Be strong and we can fight this battle and win.

Jackie4508

Oct 20, 2012

To: Any one who will listen

They say there is a first time for everything and this is my first time ever to being to site like this, and the major thing is admitting to myself that I have a problem. I have been taking hydrocodone for over a year now. It started off doing it with friends, I would get energy and loved the high. I never wanted to admit that I have a problem because I take care of my kid, we have what we need, and I do not spend my last dollar on it. When I wake up in the morning, I think about a pill or how I am going to get one. That is how I know there is a problem. I have no real pain that I need to take it for. I take them orally and no not do it any other way. Addiction runs very strong in my family and scared I will get to the point they are. They do oxys, roxys, snort it shoot it, and I do not want to be that person. I am not sure what to expect but I hear a lot of horror stories about withdraws and it scares me. I want to stop. I need help. I know my story may not seem as bad, but I am 22yrs old have a child and a wonderful fiance that I would never want to hurt or loose. I know it is only a matter of time before I go to the next thing. Please any tips or advice will help. I am thinking tomorrow is going to be day 1 of no pills. Wish me luck because I know I am going to need it.

Teresa1717

Oct 20, 2012

To: Jackie4508

This is an old thread so you may want to post in a new one. You can go to the top of the page where it says "post a comment" and start it there. You will get lots of help and support by everyone here! Good luck!

Jackie4508

Oct 20, 2012

Last night I have come to realize that I have a problem with pain killers. I started taking them over a year ago. I have been taking hydrocodone 10/325 to Perks. I usually take at least 1-5 a day depending on what I have. I started using them because I was working with a cleaning company and a co-worker gave me one. I liked the fact that I had more energy and how they made me feel. Addiction runs in my family so I knew there was a high risk that I would become addicted. I would always tell myself that since you take care of your kids, pay all the bills, there is nothing wrong with spending a little money on what you like to do. I do not like waking up and thinking about a pill. I know how it is to have a mother that is addicted to drugs and I would never want my child to have that feeling. I want to have full control over my life. I am not sure what to expect as far as withdraws go, and some say your not that bad because I do not do a lot more. I know it is only a matter of time before I go to the next level. The people around me have started shooting roxys. I am scared to take anything else stronger because I know I will like it. Since I do not know how to stop, I am just going to start by not taking any. I am not sure what to expect and what I should look for. If there is anybody out there who can give me advice, I sure will take it in. I am ready for my life to change. I do not want to be like the people I see around me. I am going to take it one day at a time. Wish me luck.

None530

Nov 10, 2012

To: builder1976

Wow, what a story.  Feel really bad for you and your wife.  I was in an accident wherein I fell off a 7 ft wall and landed flat on my back on the cement.  Eventually my back started hurting so I stupidly talked the doctor into operating on me.  That made everything worse as they cut thru my muscles and tendons and left a lot of scar tissue in my back.  After a couple of years of periodic hospitalization and therapy the pain was still terrible so the doctor said there was nothing to do but put me on pain pills for the rest of my life.

For the last 47 years I have been on something or the other, mostly opiates taking no more than 3 a day. The last 10 years I have been taking 6 a day, 3 hydro and 3 methadone.

I never had a good day.  I felt awful every single day and the pain was still bad.  I was getting depressed often and then one day my body wanted more
than the 6.

That was it.  I went to the doctor and told him ENOUGH!  No more pills for me.  He said I could detox myself by taking 1/2 a pill less every week until I got down to taking none.  That's what I have been doing and this is my last week.  Here's the catch -  I feel a lot better and have no pain!  If I had of known I would have detoxed much earlier.  It's not all roses though as I am
sluggish and can't sleep hardly at all.  If that's the worst I can live with it.

AFTER 43 YEARS THAT'S NOT BAD!

weirdone

Nov 22, 2012

Just wondering I have been taking 8mg of hydromorphone for 3 years now.. And cut myself off cause I had no choice as used to many at one time and can't get anymore... How lomg will I feel like this??? Its been 2 and half days...

Sarah11212

Nov 22, 2012

You do realize this thread is from 2003, correct?

rachelsarahkay417

Nov 24, 2012

To: RSTANKIEWICZ

hang in there.. its better to deal with the pain .. punch the **** outa sumthin.......... doctors have US all of US painkillers to begin with...... all the other meds they "say" will help DONT because you have to withdraw off of them as well........... my best advice is to go to a great theripist.. they help if ther a good one & keep going to them till you find a good one

dpl1985

Nov 26, 2012

To: Everyone

I take 480 Mg of XR morpine and I'm not prescribed them. I think I'm dying and idc what anyone of yoju have to say, but I have a gun in my mouth right now so this is my final goodbye to you all... DPL

akmom74

Nov 30, 2012

To: anyone?

I'm thinking I hate these things. I'm thinking I'm alone. I have osteoarthritis in my hip and foot and after many tests I now know I have fibromyalgia. Nerve pain everywhere with 2 degenerative discs in my lower back. I tried all the non narcotics and they all had severe side effects where I was suicidal and manic.i never could swallow pills when i was younger its only been these last 4 years.Raising 3 boys that i need to function. My Dr says I'm dependant but I will always need something for my pain or i cant function.the alternative is laying around for 3 days at a time crippled up. I hate having anything have a hold on me. I rely on my mom and husband to try to hide my pills and deal them as prescribed I try to look in control but I will get extra sometimes without their knowledge and they think I'm doing great. This is not a way to live:( any suggestions?

Ladygm

Nov 30, 2012

Well I have been on 30mg oxyCodone for 3 yrs with a fentanyl patch I want off this stuff I did not know It would do me like this I never new about withdrawal my doctor never told me and I've been hospitalize for this 9 times this yr they always say I got a stomach virus and that's bile your vomiting but never withdrawal .how can they do that but I guess if your taken 180 pills a month your body can only react I can stop taken this stuff now and be in the hospital tomorrow from shaken sweating vomiting and pain it will go on for hours before they get it under control and how do they get it under control with more pain meds now I'm back were I started please help

syracuseman

Nov 30, 2012

To: all

Ive been dealing with alot of personal demons lately at 25 i feel fifty ive had a really bad addiction to percocet for at least three years im on my fifth day cold turkey me ive been takind prilosec for my stomach and jus exercise and vitamins but mostly,motavation i recently lost a very close relitive and also my sis jus had my beautiful niece so the key folks is motivation and how far ur willing to go the relitive who was taken so switly was my uncle who to had the same addiction rather sickness and beat it and i know if he could i can and without preaching mybe some help from a greater power might also help i kno my uncles hear helping and i have a beautiful baby niece to be here for good luck and god bless ps.im not a church fanatic i jus believe

MrWizard

Dec 01, 2012

To: all

Hey folks,... I am an addicted Nurse... I can tell you I have been the gambit of ways to get off pain killers. I tried Ultram which is a non-narcotic pain killer that acts like a pain killer. You can buy them off the internet,... VERY BAD CHOICE... before I knew it I was doing 180 tabs a week of that stuff and the withdrawals from that were worse than a narcotic... very bad medicine. I have severe arthritis in my back with bone spurs on my vertebrae,... that **** hurts, but the withdrawal from pain meds is worse... My only suggestion is this: prepare yourself,... make a conscience decision that you are coming off,... if you have any pain meds left,... use what you have to ease yourself down by reducing your intake by 1 tab a day,.... make yourself do it. FIGHT! Fight! Fight!! If you have a doc that is understanding, trust them,.. ask for a months worth of Methadone to ease off, tell them whats happening... Methadone has NO withdrawal symptoms, then find a NA group meeting to go to... it helps! I am right here with all of you,.. I am in the process now of coming off... try to stay positive... take plenty of B complex for the depression and keep fighting. !!

switchie9980

Dec 05, 2012

To: IwillDoThis

I want more info on this.... I have been tkg narcotics for like 4 yrs because of a back injury... Im tired of depending on them but scared ... can you help me??

ghostman801

Dec 05, 2012

To: Rickyneedshelp

For those with the resources...the following is the only way to go....

I want to share with you my method of detox. Works 100% of the time. You follow two rules only.

1. each time you use...you use less. makes no difference how much less..only less. most shave off some with a razor blade or something...this is great!
2. the excess you reduce is flushed down the toilet.

Most of addiction is in your head. Everybody knows this...if your taking 100mg twice a day and you take 90 in the morning and 95 in the afternoon there is no impact...you don't even notice it. The reduction should be small to avoid problems...its a very simple concept...sooner or later you will done...the smaller the reduction, the fewer problems, the easier the detox. The golden rule is less...how much less is completely irrelevant. Start small reductions and stay small...if you reduce too much you will relapse and say **** it. If you follow the concept you will be stunned at how much you can reduce with no withdrawl (withdrawal) impact.

DO NOT KEEP THE AMOUNT YOU CUT. That undermines your success and you will fail...the act of throwing it away sets the mindset for your determination to follow through and eventually reach your goal of independence.

Most people realize this practice will work...they do not wish to remain cognizant of the requirements or take the time to challenge themselves or the addiction.

This plan only works if you have the time and the resources to do it...but it is absolutely the best way.

If you went on a vacation for 60 days and somebody else did this for you...you would go home clean and never know the difference. No sickness, no withdawl, nothing. But it is clearly up to you to work the program and stay away from **** you worked so hard to get off of.

DON'T PUSH IT!!!

TheRealTruth1221

Dec 06, 2012

Pain pills flat out suck!!! Completely 100%!!! They are absolutely without a shadow of a doubt, the most destructive things out there right now, period, point blank.

You just have to get past the first week. Do that and you're golden!!! Not easy, but totally able to be done!!!!!

Just Do It!!!!!

stunnerskill

Dec 16, 2012

To: zo6ls603

Have you tried a 12 step group? I was a pill junkie and got sober thru AA. Just a suggestion.

AnnMooore

Dec 16, 2012

To: zo6ls603

How r u now? Im a single mother, 23, with a 3 year old, and have been prescribed tramadol since I was 13, and vicodins for almost 4 years, they dont help anymore, im in pain almost all the time, and im a full time college student. I need to get off this ~Life Taker and back to feeling like a normal person. Im now spending every dollar I have on w.e is cheaper, percs, roxys, vics,and more seldomly methadones, opanas, deladid, morphine. Im just tryng to stay sane. and now the very thing helping me not to pull my hair out, is eating from the inside out. I cant deal with it anymore, cant afford it, and it gets worse *now almost daily. My tolerance goes up, my pain goes up, and my life is getting wrapped up in a demon of a problem...Any words for thought, or suggestions PLS

MSmith2220

Dec 16, 2012

Everyone, please, make your own new thread! It will get better results. We want to help you but staying in an old thread, buried, wont help as much as starting a new one.

bubbles7888

Dec 19, 2012

To: anyone

Hi my name is Paula and I'm 24 years old and I've been on pain pills for 6 years now and on ready to stop but dnt no how can't afford to go to the doctor and ask for help so what do I do to stop ice tryed and I dnt feel like doing anything and I feel like a piece of dirt dnt want to talk to people I can't sleep my lower BK hurts can't get comfortable cry one minute mad the next so how do I start

bubbles7888

Dec 19, 2012

To: bubbles7888

Can someone please help me I have stooped its my first day and I've been on pain pills for 6 years and I dnt feel write Ihurt all over and cry can't sleep and crying one minute and mad the next jst want to stay in bed can't afford to go to the doctor I'm just ready to stop there taking my life over but dnt no how

Pat1956100

Dec 19, 2012

To: bubbles7888

Hi bubbles
You have posted on a really old thread and you aren't likely to get much response.
Go to the main page of the forum and click on Ask a question and start your own thread so you can receive the support you need.
Many of us have been where you are.

Justanothergirl911

Dec 20, 2012

To: anyone that can listen

I am a 32 yr old mom, married, and a professional. I work n the medical field and know how hard it is to go thru withdrawals bc i have been thru them several times. I have a severe back injury and have had several epiderials, you name it. I am being honest and saying i usually have to také 12 to 18 Norco's a day on top of 10 mg of adderall (adderrall). I run out of meds 10 days easy after my script is written, i just easily spent $250 this week on pills just to help me get up out of the bed and go to work. The job i have, i never stop and its věry hard work.. i dont know what to do... I am scared to tell my family, husband, or anyone.. i want to tell my doctor that i have a problém but i dont know how to... Or how this will effect my job or life. What makes it worse is my husband is on percocets for back pain and i usually can get some of his.. is there a way to actually taper off and také the meds correctly bc i do not ever wake up and no feel pain going down my right leg.. i am scared that i could lose my daughter if i went to a detox and my job and the repect that i have n my community. No one knows or even expects i have a pill addiction... I need help..plz.. whats this tom's vitamin receipe? I know someone has or is going thru what i am. Is there anyway to live without pain without a pain reliever??? The withdrawals i have had before were so bad.. i cant go thru that alone or again.. it was horrible. The night sweats, no sleep aching, and diarrhea.. plz pray for me and that I find a way to get my life n order... Justanothergirl911

weasel420

Dec 30, 2012

Hii have been a addict for going on ten years,opana's percs Xanax you name it.been two rehab twice was on suboxine for year and half lost my job back in Sept couldn't afford my script, so turned back to the pills going on day two with nothing more than 2.5 mg Xanax feel like I'm going to to Die hELP

oxy_moron666

Jan 02, 2013

To: Sarah11212

all this info is still usefull so who cares if nits old. soo many of u are wasting my screen space by saying its an old thread. people are obviously still reading it and getting help from this post and people are still replying. it doesnt matter how old it is the info is still usefull. why dont u contribute and try to answer peoples questions or give some advice. you obviously saw a ton of posts saying how old this thread is so y say it again.

oxy_moron666

Jan 02, 2013

To: MrWizard

are u serious? methadone has severe withdrawal. i was on it for 2 yrs and when i tapered down to 3mg i quit and i was climbing the walls for 13 days and lost my job.

this_big

Jan 02, 2013

To: oxy_moron666

No doubt there is a ton of infomation in these old mega threads. Most people that come here dont ever realize there is a VERY actice forum board on this site.When i first found this site if you would have asked me what a forum was i'd have looked at you like you were a moron. Alot if not most peoples first time here was from a google search that took them to one of these old theads. There is a ton MORE information/support from the newer theads. If you go to MrWizards profile you'll see he/she hasnt posted in a month, and that was the only time he ever posted. chances are he will never respond to you. If you go to the top of this page click forums then Addiction: substance abuse. you will find a VERY active board.

Most people find this site desperate for answers and support. When they post on an old thead like this one they might not get the responses they are looking for. i'm to lazy to scroll up and see what sarah said, but im willing to be that she was only implying what I said above. Welcome to the forum.

robjr

Jan 06, 2013

To: everyone

Hello everyone out there I am 21 years old and I got hooked on pills for 3 years I takin 60mg morphine/oxycotten hydro's anything I could get a hold of I know how all of you feel I stopped cold turky and it was bad I went threw depression so bad everythin you can think of It took me 3 to 4 months for me to get better all the way but I did it I know you can to just be strong what helped me the most was making my self get up and go out to do somethin whatever you like to do take alot of showers eat and drink alot of water and my girlfriend did alot for me to have someone with you talk about how you. Feel that's what I did to make me strong but I know its hard every time your around the pills you just say hell with it and take it .for the people who did that don't feel ashamed cause I did that alot of times it happens it was hard for me cause I could get them cause they were all around me I didn't have to pay for them nothing the number one thing that helped me so much was reading on what people would say on here thank you everyone I pray for everyone that has this problem you will get better just believe in your self and just look at those pills and tell your self its garbage cause those things will make you feel like your in another world they will take over your life and controll you cause it seems like they only want you to them self to love them look up to them and treat them like they are your kids but don't waste no time on those devil things cause all the love all the things you depend on them you can do with your loved ones you don't want to waste that love from your family and love you can give them and not on the pills when you get off the pills your mind sees how you were and what you been doing and choices you made and you think to your self like what the heck was wrong with me like I did but I pray for everyone that's going threw this and I pray that you will be strong to say no I hope this post helps people if you have any questions feel free to ask

losthelpme

Jan 07, 2013

To: All on page

Hey just reading this makes me feel alittle better. I'm a mom. A mom who has never done anything except love my kids to death. I got on hydro & percs about 3 years ago with a cancer diagnosis. I had to take them bc tge pain & the surgeries , b4 I knew it I was getting sick & shaky if I didn't take them. I stopped going to tge dr thinking it would help. Um no I was wrong. Broken bones,& turn acl meds meds meds. Now I but them to not hurt & not get sick. I hate myself. I want to stop. I became a druggie everything I teach my kids not to be. I suffer from anxiety attacks & ptsd , so my withdrawls are worse. My husband says it's in my head. I can stop , my mind is making me feel this way. please tell me how to stop with tge least withdrawls. I can't live like this anymore. I want my life back , not to hate myself. Please, please help. I need to do this & safely I dont want to dye bc of my stupidy. My kids need me. Thank you so much. Lost & scared

NieceeWiecee

Jan 11, 2013

To: Finished

Just gonna check to make sure this goes through before I start

NieceeWiecee

Jan 11, 2013

To: FINISHED

I just wanted to tell you how much your words mean. I'm so tired, and I do feel worthless, and don't have the desire to do anything anymore and that's with the anti d's. I don't want to do this anymore. I've been on the pain pills for about eight yrs. I just turned 44 last month and to this date I've had 7 spinal surgeries since my ordeal started eight yrs ago. I don't want to take them anymore but I would be unable to walk and the pain would be blinding without them. The thing I'm most tired of is living my life in four hr increments, as that's as long as long as one pill holds out. I'm in a hell of a mess with what appears to be no way out. But your words, although can't pertain to me, were non the less still comforting and for that I just wanted to say thanks

vaspyan

Jan 15, 2013

To: dd04622

Tramadol is NOT easy to get off of. It is just as horrible as the Lortabs, Percs, Hydros, etc. I know bc I am having a hard time getting off. The withdrawal symptoms are exactly the same as those for getting off the "narcotic" drugs. Tramadol is an opiate. And extremely addicting. I'm battling it right now and it's making me miserable.

neveragain134

Jan 15, 2013

To: anyone

I am going on 7 days tomorrow from detoxing from perks i feel like **** I cant sleep does anyone have any advise for making slepping easier pleaseeee

iaretroubles

Jan 26, 2013

To: Rickyneedshelp

I have had a spinal fusion. I had a pinched nerve and made the mistake of going to an orthopedic dr. instead of a neurosurgeon. I only had pain in my right leg. Now I have horrible back pain. I never had back pain till after the surgery. It left me completely bed ridden and in severe pain for 4 years. I finally found a dr. willing to give me the amount of narcotics I need to at least be able to get around my small apt. If you can avoid it DON'T HAVE A SPINAL FUSION!

hayley360

Jan 27, 2013

To: djean567

me too im on day one .. actually 10 hrs only.. and its rough, feel like im dying i calleed detox programs they r all full!! i live in a small town. your dr can apparently perscribe you conanine for sweats, something for anti depressant and a non narcotic pain pill like ultram to help discomfort good luck and keep hydrated

franklv28

Jan 29, 2013

my name is frank and i have been talking bules and precks now for 3 years all becuzz a back thing i am up to 14 a day and not happy i am losing a lot of my lift i and need to get off but it is so hard to can so one help be for its 20 a day

JavaMonkey

Jan 30, 2013

To: Free Yourself Quickly

Look up Dr.s in your area that are licensed to prescribe Suboxone. I was on hydrocordone for years. The 7.5 Vicodin and Norco 20/day. I almost died when I added a little alcohol to the mix. I went into a coma for 8 days. When I tried Suboxone it took away all the painful side effects and in 4 or 5 days I felt normal. Make sure to combine that with NA to truly get long term help. I also had HCV genotype 2. I did the pegulated interferon & ribavarin and the HCV has been nondeductible for 10 blood tests over five years. I understand they just brought out some superior treatment. Get off the hydrocordone with Suboxone before its too late. I hope this all helps you too! RB

SueT845

Jan 31, 2013

To: teitelmama

Thank you I needed to hear that someone had a success story good for you.

gilliam_70

Feb 02, 2013

To: phoebedoll

Hello Phoebe,
I had gastric bypass surgery 7 years ago and shortly after surgery things went drastically wrong and lost use of my legs! could not walk @ all! it took me a yr to walk again.. (lack of protein and nutrients) anyways, with PT I got on my feet again but with severe nueropothy (not sure how to spell it) it was horrible.. and with a fractured hip I was prescribed some heavy heavy stuff!! more then I care to admit and surprised I havent killed myself on a Overdose!.. I'm trying so hard to taper myself off and go cold turkey without these meds! im on my last script and am terrified of what I'm about to go through.. I just found this site and I pray it help us both out.. Im here for u and please b there for me.. I needs friends now more then ever!.. my name is angie...

DMH_

Feb 05, 2013

To: Anyone!

I'm a twenty four year old lady that needs help before this gets any worse. I've gone through three major surgerys. I'm so addicted to pain medication its sickening. I'm up to 20 bikes or percs a day no matter what the mg is. I've detoxed four times now and have failed every time. I come so far being clean and having the will power to do so. 2012 was the worst year of my life! I started up again like crazy due to loosing my dad, and a ugly custody battle. It's almost like it puts a cover over all your problems so you just say screw it and take more and more. I often think owell ill just take another I have atleast ten for tomorrow till I find more. I'm on a constant pill chase everyday of my life and I'm sick of it. I'm loosing friend's and everything I have over the damn things. I'm moving out of state to try and get my ex fiance back along with my life. Here comes the issue. I don't know anyone out there! How am I gonna find the pills so I don't withdraw? I'm scared because my mg doubled from my last detox. I'm so depressed and sacred. How do I do it? I have an option to buy 150 10 mg vikes.
I'm scared though because those will be gone fast and I'm opening up more problems to try and chase the high in Texas. What do I do? When I withdraw I feel near death. My heart and all. Help me please. What can I use? My dad died from this and I dont want my daughter to burry me next.

gettingoff

Feb 05, 2013

To: DMH_

Hey DMH,

This is s SUPER long thread so please re-post what you wrote in another questions so people see it immediately. You gotta get off of those pills now!!! It is going to kill you and you are worth living for. Try to focus on you and begin clean. I realize you have lots of stuff going down right now but the quicker you get off the stuff, the better you will be. Please try and please keep us posted on how you are doing. I am worried about you!

Lots of love and support!

PainFullBody

Feb 07, 2013

To: All

Honestly it's been nearly 9 years of opiate use. This began from a bilateral hernia repair and the medicine prescribed for the intense pain during recovery. Hit by two negligent drivers from behind twice, also a craniotomy surgery.

I've weaned down as much as I can many times however, after ive been off, it is the severe pain that comes stabbing in my head, neck, and back that brings back pain medicine.

Nothing else works. I've tried countless natural, pharmaceutical, and OTC remedies including Yoga, exercise.

I've lost many of the people in my life ( fiance, friends, and connections with family ) due to my pain and symptoms pushing my emotional barrier to the edge causing very rash behavior that I know just isn't me. The soundingly simple joys in life have become dull and tough to smile at. Tough to actually create a genuine smile at all.

Anyone with wisdom, thoughts, or advice on handling severe pain and long term use of pain medicine ( currently taking 2mg Dilaudid 4x a day )?

Many thanks.

buddah1237

Feb 10, 2013

To: ALL

I am currently taking 5 80mg Oxycontin in the morning and 80mg Oxycontin twelve hours later. I also take 4mg Hydromorphone every 4 hours as needed. This is my dose as of Sept. of 2012. I have found that not only am I needing more of the medication to just be "normal" and do things like go the the store, clean the house, attend social events such as visiting relatives etc, but I am now finding that my medication is running out days before my next prescription renewal. I get 7 day renewals.
I want to detox from this immediately, I am motivated but am truly scared because in the past when I have ran out, my w/d symptoms come almost within hours of my last 400mg dose. honestly, I begin going through w/d if I do not take the medication say when I first wake up in the am. I get that funly, strange taste in my mouth, my eyes water, fear, shakes, stomach begins to ache.
What are some good ways to assist with the symptoms other than getting a bundle of herion and fooling myself that this will assist me with the detox, as we all know thats bs.
been taking pain meds since 2004 when I first had my accident on the job.

Dorene911

Feb 19, 2013

To: Rickyneedshelp

Holy **** - go to NC and check into a hospital - UNC. They will help you - they will remove her pump - go to the ER - beg and plead with them - tell them you can t get help
NC is the capital for health help

linzym99

Feb 22, 2013

Today is day 1 for me. I am 32 years old. I have been on Vicodin 10/325 for almost 3 years in May. I have a severe back problems with ruptured discs and all that jazz.
I have two daughters 4 and 3 and after my second is when I started taking the meds. I usually take them pretty much like I am supposed to. I have run out early sometimes, but by a few days. However, I do have a problem. I am scared to death of withdrawls. I have quit several times just to see if I could and am so vilently ill that I cant do it. I work full time, am in nursing school, and have the kids so I dont have time to be sick. My doctor is a total prick and cut me off today without warning due to me not paying $400 for a random drug test. I do not even do any other drugs, but my insurance wouldnt pay for it, so I couldnt take the test. Now I am faced with the withdrawl (withdrawal) and Im really scared. My husband has NO IDEA i even take Vicodin. I just didnt want him to see me as weak because I do so many things. I am the rock of the family and I cant afford to waiver. I just wanted to share my feelings.

KBDixie11

Feb 25, 2013

I just want to thank everyone for their stories of struggle and hope. I am a mother of two and have been addicted to Crystal, as well as now Pain meds. I have been using off and on for over 3 years. I am sooo scared of stopping b/c of the withdrawl (withdrawal). My husband just found out about my using and urged me to stop or I was going to be booted outta the house. I can't do that. I love my kids more than anything, but it is SO SAD that a pill can change everything. I tried to stop the day he found out...Took the rest of what I had, and two days later...I felt as if I was going to die, literally feeling like I was crawling outta my skin. I had no energy what so ever and was trying to bring myself to get outta my head about it, and change my thinking. I have been in 12 step programs off and on and my husband forbids me to go. So It is like I have no support what so ever, and he has never been addicted to anything so he has no idea what everyone is going through here. He thinks it is all in my head. It might be, but this crap has a grip on me. I am scared, and I pray that God gets me through this. I have made it this far, but am so scared of this.

peezy2171

Feb 26, 2013

To: zo6ls603

wow almost just exactly how im feeling and what im going through. Ive been taking norcos( hydrocodone 10/325) for 4 or 5 years now. the first thing i do when i wake up is swallow a handful of pills, more at lunch, more after work. i cant go one day without them. wasdting all of my money, selling all my ****. i feel like a piece of ****. i want to quit more than anything. if i didnt have my boy then it wouldnt be so bad. I have a 3 year old boy who i have full custody of. he is the most important thing in my life and i feel basd cause all this money im wasting i should be using to make a good life for my son. the reason i have him is cause his mother is a drug addict, her situation is way worse than mine to much to get into right now. i am a mechanic for a honda dealership, who just gave me my job back 2 months ago. i am so grateful for my son, my job and my family, who is trying to support me. but ive promised im gonna quit so many times but its so damn hard. im scared of whats gonna happen or how im gonna feel and how long is it gonna last. i cant just sit at home and detox cause i have to work 40 hours a week. but it is time to quit, now, for my son. its not fair to him. at least i know im not alone. my mom tells me just doit. easy for you to say, you dont know how it feels or what im going through. easier said than done.

JordonNYC

Feb 26, 2013

To: peezy2171

Ah yes, aren't people grand who you confess your soul to and they say "just quit." Uh, yeah, OK, whatever you say. All you need to do is get one of those "That Was Easy" buttons from Staples, press it instead of taking pills, whammo, addiction is gone.

I guess I can understand when people say "well just quit" because that's what I say to myself when passing smokers on the sidewalk. I think "why don't you just put down those cigarettes. Sometimes I scowl at them and express disgust as I'm walking by, thinking surely that will get them to quit. They just give me dirty looks back or blow smoke in my face. :(

Anyway, what's worked for me is a very slow taper. Down to # 4 to # 5 10/325 Vikes daily, which is an improvement from # 12 a day (downing # 3 at a time, every four to six hours, just because. Really pathetic was I'd take two pills just before bedtime so I would wake up "refreshed" in the morning. How stupid is that.)

Then of course I had the usual stressful events before which I had to pop # 3 pills to get through whatever.

I was so bad that I NEVER traveled without a plastic container loaded with # 10 pills, so I would never be without. It was like a little pack of trail mix.

I would visit people, excuse myself to the restroom and pop some pills. I even had my technique down, where I could slip some pills into my mouth when no one was looking, even at the dinner table.

And I remember one time I ran out of pills before my refill was authorized. I did what everyone does, search high and low for pills. I found two of my travel pill containers with 20 pills inside. I chortled all night like I had found $1500 on the sidewalk. Sad.

Well that's enough true confessions for the day.

Happysoon

Feb 26, 2013

To: Finished

Hi, Well I must say I have learned a lot just reading. I didn't have any intentions on posting, but I feel I owe that. I thought I was going crazy, but Sounds like I'm detoxn. Just wanna say thank you! I feel horrible right now, I feel bad because I have a seven year old. I'm so ashamed wishing school would last longer so my child won't see me lying in bed miserable. I wish for the night to come asap. Just so its time to go to bed, not that I sleep feel like I'm constantly fighting. I'm so alone and ashamed. The sad part is idk what Im detoxn from. I recently had surgery, yes a great excuse to take painkillers. I was prescribed so many like.. 80 oxy and 80 morphine, which I nvr took until I ran out of perks which was my preference. Please pray for me, I'm so scared ! On top of everything I just found out last night my childhood bf has passed away. I want to be supportive to the children, but I can't go around anyone like this. I just pray that this is over soon.

babygirlb20

Feb 26, 2013

Your best option is to go to a suboxone clinic its very effective and helped me n im solid in recovery i highly recomend it

babygirlb20

Feb 26, 2013

Your best option is to go to a suboxone clinic its very effective and helped me n im solid in recovery i highly recomend it

just_a_young_girl_caught_in_the_middle

Mar 01, 2013

To: anyone that will listen and respond back to me thank you

Hi everyone, my name destinee. I am 23 years old and have been taking hydrocodone for about 4 years now give or take a little. I also take percocet, methadone and honestly anything along those lines if I can't find any hydros. I started out taking you know 1 or 2 hydros at a time and id pretty much get sick everytime, but for some reason, I guess because of things that have happened in my past and my present for that matter I continued taking them.. and the fact of course that when I wasn't puking I enjoyed the high... a year or two later and im up to 20-30 hydro 10mgs a day.and I still am to this day.. That's all my day consists of my mind just running; will this much get me high, where will I get more, who can I call to find more, where will I get the money to afford more, what if I can't find anything and so on all day everyday. I'm so sick of it I can't take this any longer, probably about 6 to 9 months ago I. Finally said I'm done I'm gonna quit. Now I didn't have a job so I had no money I have no insurance so I went in to my local welfare office and they got me an appointment to be evaluated and of course they said I needed rehab so I finally got a bed date and had my first day of detox, I felt so uncomfortable there no family or friends the staff wasnt very comforting at all so I spent one night and was out of there I know that was a mistake, I was clean for maybe a day or two and then boom I was back to the exact ways I was trying to escape. Now I'm honestly ready to quit but I want to do it at home, I still don't have insurance so I'm sure that's going to make it harder but I just need some advice I know this is possible but I just don't know what to even do first of course other then stop taking pills, I feel so insane. I just need to do this I know cutting down won't work for me id just end up taking more and more till I'm back to where I am now. I'm only 23 years old but I feel like I'm only 3 years old sometimes, I have nothing acomplished and ill be 25 in 2 years I need to quit and it needs to be now. I am scared of course of the pain but that will pass right? And my head will stop trying to figure out how to get them and so on right? I want to live already I want a relationship and a family in the future. And I want my mom to finally be able to be proud of her daughter. I'm just so scared of so many things not just one but I don't want fear and these damn pills to control my life anymore.... if I go to the e.r if things get bad during detox will they actually help me or make me feel like even more of a failure and piece of crap? I just need advice or help or I guess anything at this point beside pain killers. I don't want to die before I ever get to really live. I think of my self as a strong person, well at least I use to. I just want to feel in control of my life, thoughts and feelings... thanks for listening god bless I hope someone will respond it looks like the last post on here was from 2003, I hope being a pill addict isn't my destiny... thank u all
Destinee

vtpunchbug

Mar 01, 2013

To: just_a_young_girl_caught_in_the_middle

They say you need to post a new thread at the top to get a lot more questions answered. I'm new to this site as well and it does help.

Jenntou22

Mar 05, 2013

Hi. I'm 28 years old. I have 4 kids, 9,8,3 and 1 1/2. And I'm married. After I had my last baby in 2011, I became very depressed and had horrible horrible periods. I would be laid up for at least 3 days because the pain was so bad. My family doctor prescribed me Hydrocodone. I only took them when I needed, I had a very weak stomach and no tolerance at all. In August 2012, I had a full hysterectomy. My doctor told me that my uterus was the size of being 5 months pregnant and each of my ovaries were the same size because they were filled with cysts. And one of my ovaries had attached itself to my bladder, due to endometriosis. That's not even the worst. He also found that I had cervical cancer. Because we didn't know about the cancer, I had to go through chemo and radiation. During my recovery from the surgery, I was still on the Hydrocodone. My doctor also told me that I would be hurting during the chemo and radiation so he kept me on the pain medicine. Keep in mind, I took them only when I needed. I finished the chemo and radiation in late November 2012. Here we are in march 2013 and I'm still having very bad leg pains. At first, the doctors thought I had nerve damage from the treatments. They took me off the Hydrocodone. Yes, I had bad withdrawals. Couldn't sleep, couldn't eat, couldn't sit still, cold sweats, hot flashes, and more. But I made it!!! I started seeing a pain management doctor because my leg pains were that bad. He put me on a anticonvulsant and amatriptaline and a small dose of morphine. Nothing was working. And the amatriptaline messed me all up. I was still having leg pain, now my depression was way worse, and bad anxiety attacks. I went through some tests and no nerve damage was found. Now the doctor says that my leg pains could be just side effects from the chemo and radiation and that this could last 6 months to a year after. The doctor took me off all the medications that I was on and put me back on Hydrocodone. He started me off at 1 pill, 2 times a day. I take them the way I should but I know that when I go back, he's going to raise it cause I still have bad pain. I really don't want to be on these but it's the only thing that has helped take my pain away. Without the pain medicine I miss out on so much with my kids and husband. BUT I know at the end of this tunnel, I will once again have the withdrawals. I dread that!!! I was hoping that someone could give me some advice to help me.

Saxxon

Mar 06, 2013

To: Jenntou22

I am mother of 6 the ages 29 to 9 I am a grandmother now of 2, I had alot of female problems like you I still get that pain in my legs also I have plate and pins in my shoulder and arm and now problems with my back.
My doctor has put me on so many different things but the last years I see a pain management doctor I have had steroid injection and so on. But I know how it is if you don't have the med's in you for pain its hard to be that good wife and mother then when I am hurting more my husband tells me you took your med's I don't want to unless I truely need to because they become werwe they don't work well. I am on nerve med's and pain med's but what I do if its a slow day don't really to get out I try to skip my pain med'd then when I see I don't have to take as much I am vey happy I don't seem to go threw the withdrawels as back sometimes I try to go a week at a time to take a break. I fill just like you I don't look forward any withdrawel but I will live on these med's so if I can take B/C that seems to help also Midol both have caffenine so it gives you a little lift. But if this is your life then get a good doctor and do what they say and you do what you fill you should and you will be ok just ***** being stuck in this whole because of our health..Good luck hang in there.

Feelsad40

Mar 06, 2013

I have been on pain killers for a year now and the only reason I am on them is because I had a big surgery and before the surgery I was very sick and in a lot of pain! Now I am better but can not get off them! If I try I get sick and my stomach hurts really bad, my head hurts , I can't sit still, I get in a bad mood! I just want my life back please someone help!

Determined962

Mar 06, 2013

To: Pat1956100

I am a 50yr old Grandmother!!! who has been clean for 9 days. I have suffered most of my life in pain. (since 13 yrs old.) I have had back surgery and both hips replaced. I'm over the hump of my home detox, I think, but I'm wondering what to expect now??? NA meetings?

krasata20

Mar 13, 2013

To: jenniferbarnhill0509

Can I ask how you did it? Im in the same place as u. My 8 year old asks me why im taking pills all the time. Having a hard time :(

chia58

Mar 19, 2013

To: IwillDoThis

i liked what you said on your post. I have been on hydrocodone since 1999 and have taken up to 12-14 7.5 mgs a day. I am scared to death to quit and know i need to and want to but dont no where to start. i have plenty of family support who wood do anything that would help me. Where do I start? is in patient treatment the best thing for me? I dont know if i could do it on my own and too scared.

One_Day_A_Time

Mar 20, 2013

Iv been taking tabs for about 6months straight. Started taking one a day now I'm up to 6 or 7 a day 10's or 7.5's. probably not as bad as most but I can't go a day without taking a pill or I feel like my whole life is falling apart...the pain in my stomach or my legs, it's just a uncomfortable situation!! I'm only 21 and I refuse to take another pill as of today I'm goin cold turkey...this is going to be the hardest thing iv ever done in my life but it's a must!!

This is day one of detox and it's already hell. Body aches chills runny nose.!!
ANY SUGGESTIONS??

Redjens45

Mar 24, 2013

To: Finished

I know I need to get off pain killers. I've done it before, cold turkey. It was so awful, then relapse d after 8 months. I am willing to do it again. My problem, is I started a new job. I work in sales. If I feel bad, I won't be able to sell. I know my boss will not give me any days off. In fact I work 6 days a week. I'm scared and I can't lose my job. Also, O Don't have insurance. I feel stuck. Any advice?

Redjens45

Mar 31, 2013

To: Anyone that can answer.

I have decided to detox. (really scared). My story sounds a lot like everyone's in one way or another. I am starting the taper process. Gathering all the things I need to help get through the detox. My biggest issue. Only having one day off a week. Just started new job. I'm in sales and have to be on my game. My boss is a difficult man. He will not get it. I can't lose this job. Any advice on how to do what almost seems impossible. I hate that word, impossible. Please help with any insights, that would help me.

SBPT

Mar 31, 2013

This is my 7th day of DETOX HELL.. I have been addicted to any Narcotic pain pill I could get my hands on for 10 years now... Perks, Oxys, Roxys, Tabs, Hydros... This is HELL but I welcome the change... Sick of the Hunt.. Prayin for everybody on here tryin to beat Addiction...............

lasttime80

Apr 02, 2013

To: anyone

I am in the same boat as everyone here. I want rid of this. Free of the horrible mind game you have to play to be right. Day 8 for me although i was on vics for 10 yrs as many as i could get in my hand. 4 months ago the docs put me on methadone. Just 2 10mg a day never anymore. I had 10 to taper with it is day 8 I have 6 left never taking more than half just enough to pull out of that bad place, your body wont sit still your mind racing and honestly believeing this is it. I am determined to do this. I don't know really if all the vitiams are helping. Who knows to me most is a mind game. My brain is use to defense mode and knows what will make it feel better in return everything else feels better. That is my demon. Trying to force myself to do what I would normally do in a day. Lol just putting toilet paper on holder is a very big chore. One thing I have caught on to quick though showers, BATH, hot water in gernal is my new best friend. I know just getting in a bath is a chore gotta take clothes off get in get out get dry freeze put clothes back on sweat. I tell myself tomorrow is gonna be better. I am fortunate I stay home with my kids. Yes that is miserable I have a 1 yr and 3yr old at home diapers and bottles and nap and food wow what a big task. But I am home I have not left unless I am with my husband which knows but is very rude and mean about this for we have been in this for 10yrs gonna quit, sick, take more just for vaction then here we are both really done. It's our faimly or pills. Hands down 33yrs old have a more than wonderful life if I didn't chase pills. So day 8 of tapering. My legs are the worst. Very tired but pushing on. I am going to be me by summer......

Perk30sblows

Apr 02, 2013

To: Anyone

Hey my name is Robert I'm 24 I been taking 30mg Oxycodone hydrochloride pills like 2 or 3 times a day for about 2 years off and on between takin them and subs but some days I would take a sub for 4 or 5 day the slip and do 30s but I try cold turkey a few time the last perk I done was Saturday or Sunday but went two days without takin any sub but I took a Valium 10 mg to help me sleep out night never took them before but the only side affects I been getting is the cold sweats hot flashes I was wondering what would help me get threw this anything would help please don't want to live like this anymore

fightinglady

Apr 09, 2013

To: anyone

I been on pain and depression pills for 7 yrs since my mom past away and also i have scoliosis. I never had pain when i was skinny but know i want to stop and i can't. How can i stop all the meds i don't have the money to go to a rehab but i will love to. If anyone knows a place will you please let me know? thank you

Sypriss

Apr 10, 2013

To: zo6ls603

I don't have any idea how long ago this post was made, but I am so proud of your ability to TRY to quit. If you succeeded then I am so happy for you! You sound just like me. I haven't eaten a pain pill in over 3 years- and it was the hardest thing I think I will ever do in my lifetime. Just be careful trying to detox yourself at home!! Man, you have a lot of mg's in your body, and when you begin to DT you may want to be in contact with a Doctor who can give you something for the muscle spasms, nausea, etc. A doctor-assisted detox is the best alternative!! You can't start thinking about shooting yourself on day One- and think that it is ok! It's going to be sooooo hard, harder than anyone of us can put into words...you will think about nothing else but the pills, for days and days- so be Smart about it, and have a medical professional on-hand. There are lots of non-narcotic medications that can be prescribed for withdrawl (withdrawal) symptoms. JUST DON"T GO AT IT ALONE- the solitary environment will drive insane (or into the arms of a roxy). Be safe, and best of luck, Genuinely!

Crazy25

Apr 12, 2013

I need help

Crazy25

Apr 12, 2013

I need help

Crazy25

Apr 12, 2013

To: FINISHED!!

I feel like I am dying

Crazy25

Apr 12, 2013

I feel like I am dying

dominosarah

Apr 12, 2013

What is going on??

bishop243

Apr 12, 2013

To: Jesus heard my cry for help !!!

I am going to reccomend everyone here to my friend, he sticks closer to me that a brother. He can heal you of all your addictions and habits and set you free! He can restore you heart , mind, body & soul. His name is Jesus Christ, all you have to do is call on his name and believe he can heal you. One night I cried out to Jesus while my body was crying out for more percocets. I just sat there tears and all and talked to Jesus, with my bible clinched next to my body, he heard my prayers. Folks within next half hour there came a presence of peace over my mind,body and soul that surpassed all understanding. In the midst of that presence of Jesus I fell asleep, when I awoke in the morning that craving for percocets was gone, I got up and threw the remaining pills away ! I got on my knees and thank GOD, Jesus Christ, and the HOLY SPIRIT for setting me free! He can set you free also ! amen...

Ralfy1

Apr 21, 2013

To: IwillDoThis

i'm really worried about getting off the pain pills but they can't find out what's wrong with me and my tolerance is getting worst along with the pain in my legs

MrCleanUp

May 03, 2013

To: Everybody

I also have an addiction that I need help getting rid of. I made contact with the Opiate abuse line for assistance. I was introduced to pain killers (lortabs) after getting 3 teeth pulled in 2009 and I've been on them every since. After 3 prescriptions written by my doctor, most of all my other prescriptions came from street purchases amongst 3 women. On a monthly basis, I would sometimes have up to 150 pills. I just switched back in November because I ended up relocating with my job and found a guy selling percocets for .50 a piece.

My main problem is when I know I'm down to about 5 pills, I can feel the pain coming mentally. After I'm down to 2 or 1 pills, both mental and physical pain takes effect with the physical pain being worse. I try so hard not to think about it and fight it, but I cannot flush it out mentally. When I am completely out (it's happen a couple of times), I have no desire to do anything. All I want to do is lay down. I feel completely exhausted and drained. I cannot perk up to save my life. It feels as if inflammation builds up in my body, from my neck, arms, and thighs. I truly hate that detoxing feeling. Immediately if I find a pill or 2 to pop, those symptoms disappear immediately. I just truly want to rid this feeling overall.

phoebedoll

May 14, 2013

To: who can help me

I have done everything that I know how and now I just feel like I just want to die I have been having this crawling itching sensation do my body for the longest time now and I have gone to 4 dermatologist I've also gone to my regular doctor and all of them say that I have nothing. I have used lice treatments I have favs my apartment I have used black walnut and warm routines you're just to see if anything if anything will work. I am at my wits and sometimes I feel like things are jumping on me or crawling on me and in my hair too or I even feel for things like something is biting me or maybe even going into me I don't know I'm scared and I'm tired of going through this I feel like my life is going to be the whole life is going to be living with this situation.

phoebedoll

May 14, 2013

To: itchy crawling feeling on my body and stinging feeling

I have done everything that I know how and now I just feel like I just want to die I have been having this crawling itching sensation do my body for the longest time now and I have gone to 4 dermatologist I've also gone to my regular doctor and all of them say that I have nothing. I have used lice treatments I have favs my apartment I have used black walnut and warm routines you're just to see if anything if anything will work. I am at my wits and sometimes I feel like things are jumping on me or crawling on me and in my hair too or I even feel for things like something is biting me or maybe even going into me I don't know I'm scared and I'm tired of going through this I feel like my life is going to be the whole life is going to be living with this situation.