Wow...6 days...

[FesterTool]

Hey Everybody.

I wanted to thank everybody for helping me get this far. Today is my siixth day without any meth or pills! I am ammazed. I never even thought that I would make it to day two. But I did. I would like to  give special thans to  bmac, pixi, and chezz. Don't forget hippy either. Theire encouragement and success stories (49 days bill!) kept me going. No matter what, I wont ever forget you guys. You saved my life.

Festertool

[suzieneedshelp]

Chezz.. excuse my ignorance but what is CT?
Sezn, ty hon.  I know you're prolly right.  Anyway I just wanted some ideas to see if there was a possibility to try em out. Afterall anything is worth a shot.
Thx,
Suzie

[Chezz]

BTW - EVERYONE can relate to the mental tricks we play. From the addict under the bridge, to the CEO who thinks hi is too good and invincible.
Chezz

[Sean5110]

Relate, we can, be sure of that. And as for the 500 vics back home, if they appear to be an option now, I dare say they'll be a fact then. Do yourself a wonderful turn and as soon as at all possible, do what it takes to negate that order. That may sound ludicrous, unworkable, unnecessary, unacceptable. But sometimes those future prospects loom to large and eventually, like stone-eyed automatrons we head down the path we've allowed to become gaping possibilities.

And man, can I relate to your spousal circumstance. My poor wife has no idea (conscious idea, that is) of my withdrawal from drugs (hydro / oxy 4-500mg day)for the last eight months. And we are equally alike in our circumstances of releasing our addiction: I'm involved in the corporate finance community and in most ways things were going fine and I just simply invited the demon back in response to who knows what. I'm thinking more of the initial cause that aided my picking up those pills after kicking a heroine habit many years ago.

It's amazing, Strider that you are in deep S.America. A poster here today revealed he had found a clinic for detox in a certain area and as it turns, that is the very clinic (a very small one) that I started at on Monday. Today is my 3rd day on the journey home and it is being much alleviated by the meds provided me by the clinic. That will end on Friday.

I dread the lethargy that you describe. I know exactly of what you speak and it is just miserable. In my case it is especially so because I have several little children whom I need to pick up, change diapers, play ball -- frankly, everything about my home life demands strength and energy. Yet, I know lethargy will be my constant companion for the weeks to come. But I know it gets better.

And there will come a day in the not so far future when you will be involved in the daily tasks of living a real life of integrity and you will not notice the burden of your body and the pills will seem like acquaintances long faded. When that happens, I've found, watch out! Addiction is sizing me up at all times, just strategizing how to interject itself into my thinking as subtley as possible.

Congratulations on day 10! You are well on your way. Be good to yourself and don't allow undue temptation to chip away at your resolve.

Sean

[Wardman]

Strider,
   DO NOT pick them up.  You will feel so much better.  I know you will lose your money, but 10 days is a great stretch.

[suzieneedshelp]

uf doesnt stand for the university of fl does it?
anyway..thx for the advice.  Any more ideas on tapering????????????????????? techniques...etc. pleaes tell me people...I dont have anyone to hold it for me.  So if anyone else has any great ideas please tell me.
I've already used the stadol like 10 times and once would have been enough to hold me over.
Ty
Suzie

[bmac]

Thanks for the thought today.And you are right about your 49th day.You will be drug free.You have come along way and just think of the possibilities being straight can afford you.Physically and mentally.Once again thanks and be straight.
                               bmac