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Wow...6 days...
Hey Everybody.
I wanted to thank everybody for helping me get this far. Today is my siixth day without any meth or pills! I am ammazed. I never even thought that I would make it to day two. But I did. I would like to give special thans to bmac, pixi, and chezz. Don't forget hippy either. Theire encouragement and success stories (49 days bill!) kept me going. No matter what, I wont ever forget you guys. You saved my life.
Festertool
I wanted to thank everybody for helping me get this far. Today is my siixth day without any meth or pills! I am ammazed. I never even thought that I would make it to day two. But I did. I would like to give special thans to bmac, pixi, and chezz. Don't forget hippy either. Theire encouragement and success stories (49 days bill!) kept me going. No matter what, I wont ever forget you guys. You saved my life.
Festertool
It's so tough to come to terms with it, but for most of us, tapering is just not an option. I tried twice in the last two months and not only did I fail, I wound up using three times more than my previous habit. I heard people tell me what I'm saying to you. And truthfully, I dismissed their protestations, because, frankly, I had made up my mind that I was going to taper, and after all, I am me.
The best thing I did is took the advice of someone with whom I'd been in contact on these boards and started to make phone calls regarding detox programs. It had to be outpatient, and it had to meet well with my daily routine. I had to make a few calls. Many places told me that their programs were for a minimum of 6 months on methadone (I've only been using for 8 months, I thought to myself. And methadone is addicting as well over the long term). But I found what I think is a good solution at a good little clinic.
The point in all of this is, you may want to cut to the chase, assume it's cold turkey or a medically supervised detox, and make your plans accordingly. Just know that there is something driving you to put your addiction far behind you, that is working toward your ultimate best interests. Please know that we are here to support you (Lord knows, I've lived so many ups and downs on these boards over the last couple of months, and the people here have been more than gracious. They've truly been part of the fuel that has propelled me to get to this third day of sobriety and they continue to support me during these very difficult times). And they will do the same for you. When you're ready.
Keep posting, Susie.
Sean
The best thing I did is took the advice of someone with whom I'd been in contact on these boards and started to make phone calls regarding detox programs. It had to be outpatient, and it had to meet well with my daily routine. I had to make a few calls. Many places told me that their programs were for a minimum of 6 months on methadone (I've only been using for 8 months, I thought to myself. And methadone is addicting as well over the long term). But I found what I think is a good solution at a good little clinic.
The point in all of this is, you may want to cut to the chase, assume it's cold turkey or a medically supervised detox, and make your plans accordingly. Just know that there is something driving you to put your addiction far behind you, that is working toward your ultimate best interests. Please know that we are here to support you (Lord knows, I've lived so many ups and downs on these boards over the last couple of months, and the people here have been more than gracious. They've truly been part of the fuel that has propelled me to get to this third day of sobriety and they continue to support me during these very difficult times). And they will do the same for you. When you're ready.
Keep posting, Susie.
Sean
Obsessive/compulsive = CT
Just my humble opinion.
Chezz
Just my humble opinion.
Chezz
I wish I could taper. That's why I came to this site.. to learn how. But if I have drugs, I use them... I wish it was easy!
Frank
Frank
Ok.. how do I taper if im obsessive compulsive type. Its here and so accessible. Wut do u guys suggest? Wut has worked for u?
Thx,
Suzie
Thx,
Suzie
Hey Bill,
I havent heard from you yet today. I hope your 49th day is going well for you! If anybody here should be proud of anything, its you man. Congrats!
I was thinking today, What am I going to be like on my 49th day? I had the perfect anwser. I knew exactly. I was going to be DRUG-FREE! And that was enough for me. I know that if I wouldnt have had the strength to come to this forum, I would probably not have made it this far.
Cincee, hippy, sean, pixi, moxy-oxy, and all others. Thank you.
Festertool
I havent heard from you yet today. I hope your 49th day is going well for you! If anybody here should be proud of anything, its you man. Congrats!
I was thinking today, What am I going to be like on my 49th day? I had the perfect anwser. I knew exactly. I was going to be DRUG-FREE! And that was enough for me. I know that if I wouldnt have had the strength to come to this forum, I would probably not have made it this far.
Cincee, hippy, sean, pixi, moxy-oxy, and all others. Thank you.
Festertool
It is uncanny how similar our situations are. You are so right when you talk about the two different kinds of quitting: the one that says, "I really should; this is bad. But man, I'm gonna really miss the benefits it gives me", and the one that goes, "Oh my God, what have I done? I've sold my birthright for dung and I'll do anything to get back to that tremendous gift of drug-free living!" I did the first kind of quitting back in June. It lasted two weeks. I think today is the right kind though, the desperate kind, the kind where there are no warm thoughts of using, just a raunchy exposed lie.
I just got back from the clinic for my third buprenorphine dosage to get me to day 4. I drilled the nurse a little more regarding this program. She assures me that on day 6, I will feel like day 6 of cold turkey withdrawal, that I won't have additional bup withdrawal on top of that and that the bup doesn't postpone the opiate withdrawal only to come crashing down on me once the bup is out of my system. Her words are reassuring, but it doesn't really matter; I will deal with whatever comes, even if I have to feign the flu for a while...
Right now is hard enough, trying to keep up a front at home. At least at work I have convinced the people with whom I work that my malaise is a result of the periodic tweaking of my thyroid medication and that it will be over in 10-14 days. But my family-- to them I must put up the show. A wife who depends deeply on me (her pregnancy is incapacitating) and four children who need me to really be a daddy-- these have no understanding or tolerance for withdrawal symptoms.
You all can't know how much I appreciate your being here. Thank you a million times over,
Sean
I just got back from the clinic for my third buprenorphine dosage to get me to day 4. I drilled the nurse a little more regarding this program. She assures me that on day 6, I will feel like day 6 of cold turkey withdrawal, that I won't have additional bup withdrawal on top of that and that the bup doesn't postpone the opiate withdrawal only to come crashing down on me once the bup is out of my system. Her words are reassuring, but it doesn't really matter; I will deal with whatever comes, even if I have to feign the flu for a while...
Right now is hard enough, trying to keep up a front at home. At least at work I have convinced the people with whom I work that my malaise is a result of the periodic tweaking of my thyroid medication and that it will be over in 10-14 days. But my family-- to them I must put up the show. A wife who depends deeply on me (her pregnancy is incapacitating) and four children who need me to really be a daddy-- these have no understanding or tolerance for withdrawal symptoms.
You all can't know how much I appreciate your being here. Thank you a million times over,
Sean
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