Aftercare, therapist

[freshstart01]

Okay- so I made my appt. I was against aftercare, and have been detoxed for 43 days, but use a pill at 16 / or 19 days. Been on and off 1 to 2 pills every other day ad needed. Haven't fell back into the 15 a day . However, I constantly think of pills, so I listened to u all and found a counselor, which focuses on addiction/depression. I took a pill yesterday for pain. My question is. Where do I begin?  What do
I say?  So nervous.

[Sam20111966]

Hey glad you flushed after I did so I was elated and scared at the same time....You did a really hard thing so darn actually damn proud of you.....Hey you know what happenned this weekend I so needed a pill as back was killing me moral of story none to take no sources flushed and prayed my way out of it while gritting my teeth.  Flush all those pills laying around if not already.....Sorry did not read this earlier so so proud of you.....

Sam

[freshstart01]

I've repeated it 11 times. Wow.

[freshstart01]

I've written it already in my journal. I keep reading it, everytime I crave. Which is alot today!:(

[dominosarah]

A journal is a good idea~~~

[freshstart01]

Wow I'm writing this in my journal. Love it. Going to repeat it all day!!!!!!

[atthebeach]

the pills are evil, i dont want them, i dont need them, they are from the pits of hell, i am going to win this battle, the LORD is with me, HE is able to break the chains and bondage of addiction, i want to be clean and sober for me and my children, i want a life without pills, the pills will no longer rule and run my life, i will make it, i can make it, i am a winner,
i will pray and ask the LORD to help me, i will stay busy, i will play games with my kids to keep my busy, i am going for a walk, i deserve to be happy and drug free, i am a new me,
the old is gone, i am stronger now, i am a brave woman, i am beautiful, i love myself,
i love my children, my life is better now that i dont take drugs, by faith i am going to make it on my  road to recovery, i will attend a meeting today, i will not feel sorry for myself, i will do what i have to do to make it on the road to recovery, i am happy, i love life, i am awesome, i am clean and sober, i will encourage myself, GOD loves me,