Core issue for using

[worried878]

Does anyone here know why they used in the first place?  can u go back and pinpoint the reason or was it just a vague void that needed to be filled...or a chronic pain thing that slipped up on u?...I identified my trigger after quitting...one major one...but i do see now that i feel lows that i do not like but it is de ja vu...i felt this way before and used pills to stay happy and on top of things...chronic pain...yes...but i will take responsibiltiy for abusing for the high and the happines it brought,,,getting alot done....chronic pain breeds depression tho so it is hard to know for sure which came first.....i wonder about my mental status before pills...where was i at exactly?

[toomanytimes]

I started so young-and so long ago, but i remember it well.  We had moved to a new place, my dad had just gotten out of the Air Force, and i didn't know anyone-the first person to befriend me had white cross...i think i always used to cover feelings that were unpleasant.

[confused456]

Joann.....LOL!! That is funny!! You can blame me and that is fine by me!! LOL

Worried: ummmmmm I got it on line

[worried878]

I got my self in a mess the other day with my big mouth...i may need to practice the taping up the mouth thing!  LOL

[confused456]

I think I read that but you are one that is VERY RARELY the kind that does that so I really would not worry about it too much. You are always sweet, caring, and totally helpful!!!!!

[worried878]

nope...i am outspoken and have a humongous mouth that gets me in trouble alot!  LOL

[kimmieb]

hey, girlfriend....i think what happened with me is that i initially took the lortabs strictly on occasion, one whenever i had a migraine, along with my migraine meds....and somehow, someway, they crept up on me....i'm probably one of the very few on this forum who ever abused lortabs for the LOW (lol)...i mean, i wanted to feel drowsy and relaxed and sleepy, not high and energetic and like i could do anything after i took a pill....eventually though, as emotional pain crept into the scenario and not just physical pain, i realized that hey, i could NUMB that pain (feel drowsy, relaxed and sleepy) by taking a lortab or two....and the rest as they say is history....emotional upheaval (e.g., marital disagreements, life stressors, kids!) was/is my biggest trigger, makes me want to take one even though i have no physical pain, no physical reason for taking one....for me, abuse was strictly triggered by emotional and mental pain and stress and aggravation....i just wanted to escape into a better world....a world where all pain was numbed