Full of anxiety and?

[sadinmichigan]

I was hesitant to post...but then not wanting to,made me realize ,I probably should now more than any other time.
I am on day 16..All I can think about the nasty pills that i know are in my own home..I can't get rid of them because they are not mine. I feel like k-todd said earlier..Just want to punch something..I feel like "IT" is trying to win. I was feeling so good and the last few days..Just down,down,down. The overwhelming anxiety that comes...out of nowhere!! I mean BAMB! Your doing ok and then it hits you like a ton of bricks. i guess not wanting to post ..scared me.making me feel like I didn't want to hear it..but I do.I  am so tired of fighting with myself. I was on the phone with my good friend  confused and didn't even tell her how I was feeling. (I have since apologized to her) Why did i just do that? I have come so far..but not far enough.

[chef4u]

well looks like i cant sleep either one min im tired the next im wired would love a cup of coffee afraid to drink to much might keep me amped even more! my legs cant stop moving!!!

[K Todd]

LOL,

I like "happyinmichigan" much better! - It's more fitting for you..(-:

God Lord, I'll be back in a few, I have to go eat something before I throw up!

Love ya lots!
Todd

[persnick38]

Looks like you two are in for a long night. It's 3 a.m. here and I am finally tired. Going to take a hot bath and go to bed and hopefully sleep soundly.

I sent both of you pm's so check 'em out when you get a chance. You were both a big help to me today. Thanks. Amy

[sadinmichigan]

I am an idiot...it's thelmas birthday today...

[sadinmichigan]

Actually..i can't sleep..for like a month now..(seems like) so I just get mad..and instead of getting mad..I just get up and make coffee.believe it or not..I do try really hard. i just gave it up since i went cold turkey on the pills. plus..i know your going to find this hard to believe..my brain won't ever shut the f3ck up.LOL.and then I can't sleep. plus..I can't sleep in my bed until @ 11 a.m any way..I hate the couch and I don't like to watch t.v..

Eat something..Motrin is a stomach killer.

Whats who gonna do with me?

[K Todd]

So that's why your up all night....non stop coffee drinker! Let me give you a tip, at night time, try decalf...I know, yuck...but then you could sleep!

Yeah, I try not to rub in the weather thing, there's only a handful of us in here in so cal.

What in the world in He going to do with you? - lol  (-:

The alcoholic thing, I read your post, nothing wrong...I also posted twice.

Okay....geeeze I think I took to much Motrin on an empty stomach...it's starting to hurt..blah

Well...talk  - hee hee