Getting through Withdrawals

[jordy662]

I want to stop taking perks and vic and need some help.  I started taking them about 3 years ago for many reasons.  There was a health concern but that was only for about 1 month, it was back problems.  Since then I have continued to take them off and on.  I am taking 3 perk 10's a day, which I'm not really sure if that's alot.  It has always felt that the high makes me deal with my life better.  I'm more social and tend to be more laid back.  I feel thats the biggest reason why I made the choice to continue to take them.  I do not doc shop or make up reasons to get them at a ER.  I just have a friend who has the ability to get some.  I don't ask questions on how they do it.  I have a very good job and have Masters degree, so money has never been a issue, which at times I feel is a bad thing.  I can't go to a doc or detox program with the problem because of my status within my community.  I am in the public's eye alot, and many people know me.  It would cost me my job without a doubt.  I want to stop because I find myself counting pills, and not being in control.  The feeling of wanting to make sure I don't run out, really gives me concern.  I want to put this chapter behind me and be pill free. My family has no idea about the problem.  I do not think my wife would understand it.  She is a woman that doesn't drink or have any drug issues.  She did get sick about 3 years ago with some mental issues- in short after a death of a family member she had a break down.  She was in the hospital for about a week and was giving meds to help cope but refused to take them and hasn't since. To be honest she has regrouped well.  This was about the time I started to take the pills, being the father ,this placed me in control of all parent responsilbities. I think that's why I started to use, it gave me that energy to take kids to all the events and care for my little one.  I quess I just wanted to post to get some feed back on someone outside looking in. Any suggestions on how to stop this addiction. Cold Turkey? Cut back a little each day before I stop c/t.  Withdrawals are a concern but I do have time to miss work.  That would not be a problem, and I really do want to stop, and I believe I can. I am new to this form although I have read it alot in the past. I simply never posted

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MY NAME IS SCOTT. I HAD A DISC FUSION ON FRIDAY MAY 21ST. IVE BEEN ON PERCS FOR ABOUT A YEAR DUE TO A CAR ACCIDENT. I STARTED WITH 1 PILL A 5MG NOW IM UP TO 4 OR 5 10 MGS  A DAY I LOVE THE FEELING BUT KNOW IM HEADED DOWN A BAD ROAD. I CAN GO A COUPLE OF DAYS WITH OUT THEM BUT I KNOW I WANT THEM. IM UP ALL NIGHT I DONT EAT MUCH AND I FALL ASLEEP DURING THE DAY. I GOT 60 PILLS THE DAY OF MY SURGERY (4 DAYS AGO) AND I HAVE TAKEN PROB 25 OR SO SINCE.THAT WAS MAY 21ST.I HAVE BEEN GETTING PERCS EVERY TIME MY SCRIPT RUNS OUT ALL THOUGH I WAIT THE REQUIRED TIME FRAME. I DONT DOC SHOP AND I DONT GO TO THE ER AND I DONT BUY THEM FROM ANY1.......ITS NOW AUGUST1ST I HAVE SWITCHED FROM PERCS TO VICS I TAKE 3- 7.5S AT ONE TIME ONCE A DAY.I KEEP SAYING I WILL STOP AFTER THIS SCRIPT RUNS OUT. I AM AN ADDICT I KNOW I AM MY WIFE KNOWS I AM BUT TO HER I DENY IT. IRONICALLY THEY STILL WORK. IF YOU READ THIS GET OFF THESE DANGEROUS PILLS BEFORE ITS TO LATE. IF I CANT I WILL CHECK MY SELF IN TO AN OUT PATIENT DRUG PROGRAM. I HAVE TO FOR MY HEALTH AND FAMILIES WELL BEING.
THANKS FOR LISTENING!!!!!!!

[jstntime]

Hey again,

It looks like you are well on your way.  I agree about the staying busy part.  It was the single best advice anyone ever gave me to get through wd.  

You are so wise to have stopped this before it gets out of hand.  

You have also proven that using is merely a symptom of addiction and has nothing whatsoever to do with the size of your habit.  Perhaps some seeing this thread may just realize that they too have a problem despite only taking several per day.  To those people, you have done a great service.

Very very happy for your progress,
Keep keeping!!!!!

bob

[jordy662]

Thanks for checking on me.  Another day, still hanging in there.  Less pain today, staying busy.  3 complete days of c/t. Just being active has help alot. Amino Acid has helped some too.  Sleep about 5 hours last night, we will see how things go the rest of the day.  Thanks again guys!!!

Jordy

[jstntime]

Really happy to hear you doing ok,

5 hours of sleep is great.  If you were going to get wd real bad, you sure would know it by now.  I think you're going to be fine.

Keep keeping!!!!

bob

[jordy662]

Well Im on day 2 of c/t.  Actually I took 1/2 a perk three days ago.  Things going well.  The cravings in the morning seem to be gone at least the past three or four days. Again Im taking the products I got at GNC (Amino Acids).  I do seem to get hot and cold flashes, sweating alot.  Last night I had a little trouble sleeping, but did get about 5 hours in of sleep. I do not want to go backwards thats for sure.  Also, the bannas before bed time I think is helping as well (RLS). Alot of praying too. I hope everybody stays the course and gets through this.  We must remember staying clean is very important to our families.  The support on here is wonderful, it helps me so much.  You guys have no idea how it makes me keep going. I can do this right!!!!

[laurel453]

hey, i wanted to wish you luck now and congratulate you for the decision you have taken....

you have been given very good advice :)

now, all the best, jordy