Getting through Withdrawals

[jordy662]

I want to stop taking perks and vic and need some help.  I started taking them about 3 years ago for many reasons.  There was a health concern but that was only for about 1 month, it was back problems.  Since then I have continued to take them off and on.  I am taking 3 perk 10's a day, which I'm not really sure if that's alot.  It has always felt that the high makes me deal with my life better.  I'm more social and tend to be more laid back.  I feel thats the biggest reason why I made the choice to continue to take them.  I do not doc shop or make up reasons to get them at a ER.  I just have a friend who has the ability to get some.  I don't ask questions on how they do it.  I have a very good job and have Masters degree, so money has never been a issue, which at times I feel is a bad thing.  I can't go to a doc or detox program with the problem because of my status within my community.  I am in the public's eye alot, and many people know me.  It would cost me my job without a doubt.  I want to stop because I find myself counting pills, and not being in control.  The feeling of wanting to make sure I don't run out, really gives me concern.  I want to put this chapter behind me and be pill free. My family has no idea about the problem.  I do not think my wife would understand it.  She is a woman that doesn't drink or have any drug issues.  She did get sick about 3 years ago with some mental issues- in short after a death of a family member she had a break down.  She was in the hospital for about a week and was giving meds to help cope but refused to take them and hasn't since. To be honest she has regrouped well.  This was about the time I started to take the pills, being the father ,this placed me in control of all parent responsilbities. I think that's why I started to use, it gave me that energy to take kids to all the events and care for my little one.  I quess I just wanted to post to get some feed back on someone outside looking in. Any suggestions on how to stop this addiction. Cold Turkey? Cut back a little each day before I stop c/t.  Withdrawals are a concern but I do have time to miss work.  That would not be a problem, and I really do want to stop, and I believe I can. I am new to this form although I have read it alot in the past. I simply never posted

[jordy662]

Well guys.  So far so good.  I've been taking alot of vitiams today, went to GNC.  So far I feel thats helped alot.  Again, the key for me is staying busy. I took half a perc yesterday around 5pm or so and nothing today.  I have 1/2 a perc left and don't think I will take it. So really as of today at 5 it will be actually one full day with nothing.  I went three days taking two, and yesterday I decided just to take 1/2 becuse I felt good. So I can really just say the taper process is now complete. Into c/t we go.  The next few days are going to be a tough one. In time will tell.
Jordy

[ANewLife4Me]

How are you doing today?

[jordy662]

I feel one of the most important things is staying busy, simply occupying your mind.  Finding something to take your focus off the withdrawals, so Im going to go do some work outside and go to the gym. I seem to be sweating alot anyway.lol

Everyone thanks for thinking about me.  Badshadow- This too shall pass, we can.

[ANewLife4Me]

Way to go jordy - hang in there!  That was another huge step you took in breaking that pill connection!

[badshadow]

Congratulations on your progress.  Your doing great.  I'm still working on my taper, but I will be glad when I'm free of these pills and have my life back.

The Sleeping is very hard for me, I have Ambien but have hardly ever used it for fear of becoming dependent on another medication, but I might use it for a week or two to help with the bad withdrawal and anxiety.

Reading about people like you that are quitting and dealing with their withdrawals helps me mentally think that I can do it too.

I think the mental part is definitely at least half if not more of the process.  The withdrawals can be hard, but eventually they do pass.  I have to keep telling myself that so I can get through the next minute/hour/day.   I agree that it does help to keep as busy as possible.  Time has never seemed to go so slow as when I've been really sick with withdrawals, no sleep, and can't focus or concentrate on anything.

Keep up the good job.

[jordy662]

So far so good. Beating it.