hey ike. everything you're saying sounds like a very normal reaction to a very serious challenge. i know you have what it takes to meet this challenge! you're a fighter and we will be right here fighting with you. i like what vicki said. do what you need to do to take good care of yourself.
Hey buddy:
You have every right to experience some bad days. Let yourself go through them, but try to keep busy. and remember that every new sunrise is a brand new chance to have a different day. I can't remember; do you go to meetings?
Slow down and breathe. Everything is going to be okay...we are all in this big jumbled mess called life TOGETHER, and the anxiety you're experiencing is common to every human being on the planet. Try not to project into the future...just do what is in front of you on THIS day, and know that you are loved...by your family, friends, recovery community, and most importantly, by God.
You can do this, my friend. You are strong, and have much, much more power than you realize.
Keeping you in my prayers, hon. I haven't been on here for a week or so (busy and getting ready to go away for a week...for a much needed and quiet vacation) but I wanted to answer you...xoxoxox
-Robin
IM only on day one and feeling everything that you describe. I know its a ling road aho butt being here and able to get it all out really does make it better. I hope you get to feeling better
Hey Ike,
God I'm sorry I missed this post, but wasn't on this weekend. I know how afraid you must be, but you will beat this. This is not gonna take you down. Always remember that. Think positive always and know that your friends are here to hold you up when you are feeling down. Medical treatments have come so far and people are responding very well to new technology. You're gonna be ok. You have an army behind you brother....
Kat
XOXO
Hi, I'm in tears for you as I write. You've got some lovely words of comfort here. I just want to be part of them. I think about you every day even though I don't post. I want to take that all away for you. You will be in m thoughts and prayers n the 17th, along with the rest of your angel posse. Much light and love finding their way to you. (O) x
Whoaa and Wow! Thanks to everybody. The caring responses are something to behold. Feeling better today and I'm thinking I'm as ready as ever. Had a particularly bad night a couple of days back. The anxiety has been real high for a while now. Recovery is not a free pass to be be left off the drama list of life. Stuff happens and sometimes it's not all good stuff. My recovery remains at the top of my list. I read Weavers quote by Gandhi, which has been posted here before, "Pain is Inevitable, Suffering is Optional". Why do we do the things to do to ourselves? I just wanted to say Thanks again and let you all know, I'm Back and doing much better....ike