I have 4 days to withdraw from Vicodin

[gsheps]

I have 4 days to get off of Vicodin. The 5th day I have to pick up my year and a half old grandson to babysit him for 6 days. I have taken 1-2 Vicodin a day 7.5mgs for the past 3 years for pelvic pain. At first, like most people, they put me in a very happy mood (I have bipolar- mostly depression). Then after awhile, I didn't get happy anymore, I just needed one a day to get out of bed. Then I would crave one mid-afternoon. It got to be more and more that I had to take 2 a day. I had my script filled for 20- 11 days ago. I only have 6 left. I gave them  to my husband to hold on so I can take one a day for the six days I have my grandson, so I will be able to function and enjoy him. Without the 6 pills for the 6 days I am fearful of going through a depression and not being able to function as well as I should. SO the problem is what should I do to lessen the side effects of getting off these pills for 5 days? After that, when I take the 6 for 6 days- I want OFF them for good. One time I did order from overseas pharmacy, but they charged my credit card twice for one script, so I canceled the script as I was mad about that and also afraid to get in trouble because I heard it is illegal.  Does anyone out there think my withdrawals won't be so bad because I don't take that much? The problem is the amount of years I have been taking them I think. I have klonopin here and also librium, I am not sure which would be the better drug to just stay sedated while I withdraw. That is what the would give you in the hospital. I know because I was in there for alcohol detox, but there again that was alcohol and I am not sure if the klonopin or librium will help with a vicodin withdrawal. I am not sure what amount of either drug per day is acceptable or should I just go by how nervous I am getting? I have a love/hate relationship with this drug- and I know I have to get off of them because if I am taking this $hit then I am truly not 100% sober. And I am disgusted and ashamed that here I am, now a grandmother, taking care of her grandson and feeling I need those pills to function in order to take good care of him. My husband has been laid off almost 2 years and at least he will be around if the baby gets to be too much for me (he is very energetic and crawls around at about 90 mph and you can't keep your eyes off him for a second). SO I guess my big question is: IS there anyone out there that has withdrawn from this small of amount and is my addiction more pyschological then physical and will klonopin or librium be helpful to get me through it. THIS TOTALLY $UCKS!!!

[flmagi]

My apologies if my post above sounded like I was suggesting you were posting with "for support of my poor me syndrome". It wasn't my intention at all.
I know how hard this whole addiction and trying to get clean thing is.
Stay strong.
Magi

[want2quitsa]

im trying to read all the posts in this forum. its hard with the length of some of them. all im trying to do is get my self to realize there is others with the same problem i have. being put down for relapsing is not the way to support people with addiction. my problem is im married to a addict- i am an addict myself. i started drinking when i was 14 my father is an alcoholic. i too had abuse in my life (5 sisters 1 brother. all of us were abused) my mother as well. i however do not use that as an excuse, i feel i am a grown woman with 4 of my own children, i make my own choices, my own decisions. i thought most of my life i"ve been doing the right thing, unfortunatley i realize now im definatley not the person i thought i was. this addiction is the hardest. im a smoker, i drink alcohol everyday, and i take my pills everyday. the only good thing i think is if you looked at me or talked to me in person you would never be able to tell. i dont have the 'poor me' syndrome. i have the 'what the hell are you doing with your life' syndrome. this ***** i dont know if im even ready to quit yet. all i can do is get my mind in shape and realize i really do need to quit, i am very, very confused.  

[gsheps]

Good Morning- I totally agree 110% with what you are saying. Except for the parts that I am just on here for support of my poor me syndrome. I am on here as a way of venting my frustrations with myself. If anyone reads my posts and thinks I am in denial of being an addict, also, that is not correct. I have no doubt I am an addict. I mean that! That is why I can accept Step 1 of AA- that I can admit I am powerless over alcohol (and pain killers)  As far as my going on and on about my problems and my past yesterday -it was because I was drinking. I own that. Believe it or not, it has taken me many years to forgive my mother for things she has done to me and my sister. I have also forgiven my father, and the hardest was my first husband (my daughter' s father) but I also did that and he apologized to me on the phone after many years and I told him that i accepted his apology and forgave him. It does sound like I am using my past as an excuse to drink. I finally except it is no EXCUSE to drink. In fact, I think today is actually when I have totally accepted this! There is no excuse to drink when you are alcoholic. Normal people don't reach for a bottle every time something happens, or over their past. I am not normal. I have to finally accept that the past is what it is, that I have to let Go and let God, if I am ever to lead a better life and be a better person and be truly free . Although I did slip up this weekend (2 days) today is another day and I will not drink for today.  I sincerely do want to get and stay sober, and I would hope in some things I have said here that between the lines people here can read and believe me. Perhaps not. I certainly don't expect anyone here to support my drinking and taking pills to get through this weekend of having my grandson here. In fact, I expected a pile of responses much like the last two. And I consider those posts to be honest and the tough love approach and believe it or not I appreciate it and thank you for taking the time to write me. I accept that I have a ton of work yet to do on myself, and yes, I agree I have to start being honest with MYSELF as to what my actions are and to work harder and learn how to live life without drinking or drugging. I didn't start drinking until later in life. I never drank the entire time I raised my daughter, no matter what happened. I also didn't drink during my second marriage. So I think back to that and ask myself if I didn't drink then, why did I start drinking so heavily later in life? I really have no answers, no reasons, no excuses. What happened, happened, even the last few days I can't take back. What I can do today is stay sober and enjoy this last day with my grandson, which I have all intentions of doing. Tomorrow he goes back to his Mom and tomorrow I need to go to AA and then I have work on my soberiety, because yes, I truly do want it. I have to work on my depression, which obviously alcohol does not help with, I have to accept the things I cannot change, and find the courage to change the things I can like the Serenity Prayer says. I feel I can do that. I am also going to call and make an appointment with my doctor to tell her what I have been doing and what she can do to help me. I know I need to start doing something physical, such as walking, hiking, biking- all things I used to do until the bottle got a hold of me- or should I say I got a hold of the bottle. I used to be addicted to exercise and I think if I am going to have an addiction then that would be the one to have...but even that can be a problem, as I have seen people so addicted to exercise that they do nothing else. I want to get back to the person I used to be. Enjoying my hobbies I used to have...gardening, hiking with my dogs, things that are healthy and good for me. I have to start eating better to heal my body from all the damage i did to it. I have to try and heal my brain as well and think positive, not negative- which does not come easy for me. I have to stop complaining! Yes, I have to get off my pity pot and accept the fact that I have been on it far too long. So I will continue to post as to my progress, this forum helps me in that i treat it as a journal, but a journal that actually responds to what I write! I have been told that I should journal, but I never could keep it up. Today is a brand new day, so time to stop writing and time to hang out with my grandson.  I pray daily and every night at bedtime for help and guidance from God to put me on the right path. I know the hard work part is my responsibility.          

[flmagi]

I've read all your posts and the memories of addiction come flooding back. I can relate to what you're going threw, although I never had a drinking problem. I was taking 10-12 Vics or Percs a day for about 4 years. It never seemed to be a good time to stop them, something was always going on. It's not easy. Not when just that one pill or drink can solve all the pain and problems. We all know that. But eventually we must run out of reasons for not quiting, if we truly are ready to quit.    I think you are ready.   No, it may not have been the best time to try while you had your grandson, but he'll be going home soon, and then your time is here.  You can do this. It will not be easy and it will be painful, but you'll get threw it. You will be very fatigued for quite a while. Accept it. Plan for it. Tell your husband what will be happening, so he can plan for it. Enlist your husbands help, in refusing to buy your booze or anything else. Have him take your car keys away, when you're getting desperate.  Set aside your past for now. You're doing this for your future. You can deal with your past when you're well into sobriety.
You CAN do this!
Magi

[Storme]

I hope you are doing alright. This is hard for me to write to you because I honestly don't feel you are here for support in fighting and conquering your addiction but to try to garner support for your "poor me" syndrome. Pomo is right hon that you need to own up to all of your addictions and you need to decide what to do about them. Life is handing you a huge pile of $hit right now and I can so relate in many ways. I will definitely support you in the "Gawd life ***** right now" department but I can't support your taking one pill here and another an hour later and then topping it off with a few drinks "just to make it through"

Girl, you need to own up and stop kidding yourself. You have a serious situation going on and you need to get help immediately. You tell us your husband is a decent man then let him be your backbone and allow him to support you while you finally do what is needed to get yourself clean and sober for good. I hope you can do that sweetheart, I truly do and will keep you in my thoughts and prayers.

Teresa

[PomoLady]

WOW!!! I struggled to get through all your posts but did, the vicodin is the least of your worries, I don't know you I only know what you post and from that I have to be honest with you. You have a ton of excuses, excuses for everything. Try being honest with yourself, you are not an addict because of your parents or the abuse let the reasons go and accept that you are just that "an addict". If you have to continue to take the vicodin or drink let it be just that , your not ready to BE sober but  please let go of all the other crap. You knew deep down that you had no buisness taking care of your grandson in your condition and yet you did it anyway and found an excuse as to why. You are a grown woman if you are going to use then own it please, this is why you have the so called "Bully" in AA, I get the feeling that it's not so much that he is a bully as much as he see's through yourbullshit and excuses. He can call it like it is. I am saying this with the utmost respect, honestly this is meant to help support you weather you see it that way or not. The problem with many addicts is that they have been selling themselfs this "poor me" ******** for so long they forget what's relevent or not. You are an addict because you are that's it accept it. You are not a looser, you are a woman who needs help, and I am just someone observing your story with the opinion that You need to help yourself by first letting go of all the excuses. Let go and Let God, do what they advise in AA even if you relapse then so be it but the sooner you accept who you are the better chance you havve for a lasting recovery if that's what you really want. After all not all adict want sobriety. I hope this helps, and I won;t tell you to forgive your mother but seriously change the way you think about things it will only benefit you. Your mother owes you nothing, NOTHING and the sooner you accept that the better off you will be.

Pomo