I've been so hesitant to ask for opinions on this, but...

[Jacqui805]

Oh God, I can't believe I'm gonna do this....may sound trivial to some, but for me, with all that's happened to me regarding poor treatment, it's not.  A couple weeks ago, some of you may remember the "state" I was in.  I could not stand not sleeping anymore, along with the severe anxiety, all from the w/d.  I was right in the middle of switching docs., and the one I'm going to see, who's been actually helping me with my health issue, swears the one I did see is as much of a putz as I think she is, and has been negligent with me.  She sat on her butt all the while I was getting sicker and sicker, and now some of this damage may be permanent.  Anyway, here's the issue at hand..

She was my doc. at the time two weeks ago, although I had not seen her since '06 (she had me on the med.).  I called out of desperation to get some relief, and, she obliged, but had her nurse have me set up an appt. with her.  I made that appt. for two weeks from then, which falls tomorrow.  Like an axe, for me.  I'm petrified of her.  It's not a doc./pt. thing so much as it being pis*ed off at her, knowing she's not done o.k. by me, ignored problems that others docs. picked up, and wouldn't take their advice, or listen to me plead to send me to The Mayo Clinic.  I loathe her, and I am going to see a new doc. within two weeks.  I'm also afraid I will not be able to hide my contempt for her, and afraid of the venom I might spew.  Trouble is, I feel "obligated" to go for the one time visit because she prescribed me the "help" to get through the end of the w/d.  I've been counting down every day, and sweating out tomorrow.  I'm so embarrassed to be putting this here, but I am not sure what to do.  Fear can mess my thinking up in the worst way.  Any suggestions?

Jacqui

[toxictome]

OK...you need to stop spinning...when i spin over something...these are the issues that will take me back out there.

I've learned thru AA I need to stay in the day...do what i can do about the problem today...and when tomorrow comes..i will do what i can for it that day...but if i just SPIN in it...i create the fear/frustration/anger....
Remember....one day at a time!!!

NO MORE SPINNING!!!   promise???   LOL

[Flutterby111]

I believe that Medical coverage is by  far THE most expensive service we pay for and we get treated with the least regard...I should say I not we....I should speak on my behalf..sorry.  I've learned not to feel obligated anymore...I pay them alot of money and I deserve top notch service.  THey owe me, not me owe them, you follow?  I've filed complaints on doctors and actually had visits comp'd because of it.  You need to do what is least stressful for you and most beneficial...it is all about you sister...period...you, your health, your sanity, your safety, your money, your everything.  

[Jacqui805]

I actually don't need the pills anymore.  Don't even take 'em.  I took 'em for a few days.  Ain't that the kicker?  This whole issue is a sore spot for me even more so, as a nurse, I know how she SHOULD be, and I know what she SHOULD do, and for the life of me, I cannot, above all, understand how or why she could have treated me so poorly.  I'm a human being!  I don't deserve this, no one does.  I tried coming at her from every aspect, and even had other docs. speak on my behalf.  You just can't make someone see something if they've got their eyes closed I suppose.  It's supremely frustrating, and hurtful.  Thanks for your input Johnny.

[Jacqui805]

Thanks so much for your opinions.  And no Mimi, I did not take it the wrong way, I always appreciate a girl who's got someone's back!  

I have a lot of fight, will, somehow hidden strength, and tenacity in me.  I even know my rights as a client/patient, like toxic was saying, and it's still so hard for me when clouded by fear/frustration.  I have been really bothered by this for most of the past two weeks and was SO embarrassed to even think about putting this us here, let alone the fact that I was having such a hard time decision making on this particular issue.  

Thanks.  I knew you'd all be supportive, but I'm my own worst enemy I suppose, and, aren't we all?

Jacqui

[johnnykelly]

Hello Jacquie, you are doing the right thing,confronting the problem.Jacquie do you think that maybe!! this woman may be oblivious to the fact there are commumication issues. Jacquie some of these people are very self-centred and only think about us (PATIENTS) when they open our file.I have experienced a dr. barely remembering my name,only when he looked at that file.IF you come across in a hostile manner,well that will immediately put up a barrier to any useful meeting.Why not get a supply of pills to told you over for 1month or so and in the uinterim,get a new better suited physican.Remember if you come across with attitude then that might damage any useful comprmises. goodluck john

[Chi_Chi_Lover]

i agree with Confused. Why go? You don't owe this doctor anything just cancel and if they ask why say you found another doctor. Don't stress over going to this doctor you are dropping. It's not worth it.
Cheers!!!