Hi all, I am pulling myself up from my slump. After my relapse, i became very depressed and anxious to say the least. I am doing all the nessary things i need to do to take control over the situation. I went to my primary care dr, confessed to him about my love affair for the pills told him about my relapse and wow, the saying goes"the truth shall set you free"!! Well i felt better getting that off my chest, and as a result i was put on an anti depressant, i am not liking this idea but i do believe its necessary. So, hopefully in 2 weeks i will notice some improvement. I am currently on day 8 clean now, i would have been around 80, but its time to forget that mark and just work from day 8. I cannot begin to stress the importance of AFTERCARE, i found an addiction therapist, she is a blessing, and i see her once a week. Not going to lie, after one hour in that session, i walk out of there drained. We all use or used for a reason, basically to escape reality, well, now i am in the learning stages of coping. The only way i know how to cope is to take a pill so i really look forward to embracing life and see what its all about clean and sober. YES, its scary, but its a fact of life.