"I know you got to be getting more high off the methadone than you ever did the Norcos!!"
Without a doubt.
You may have a tolerance to Hydrocodone but you don't to Methadone and it has a longer half-life. Give it a couple days to build up in your system and you'll be nodding if you aren't already.
I had a friend who used to get me Vicodin and had a Hydrocodone habit. He called me to say he had found a Methadone connection and was going to call me in the morning to hook up so I could buy some. His mother called me the next morning to inform me he laid back on his bed and passed out, vomited, and choked to death on it. That could be you too. What would happen to your kids then?
The guy who was staying with my Methadone connection left to get cigarettes. When he got back 15 minutes later my friend was sitting at the kitchen table dead. He had been taking Xanax along with Methadone to increase the high and just stopped breathing. I think about him every day and wish he was still here just to talk to.
If you notice, everyone who has talked about going on the Methadone program did so to get off Heroin. I had to go on Suboxone to get off Methadone. Is this really something you want to get started on? And if so, are you going to stay on it for the rest of your life? Look at what you're getting yourself into. You're having a hard time coming off Hydrocodone. How are you going to come off Methadone, which is many times more powerful? Go on Sub?
I have nothing to lose no matter what you choose. I just hate to see you wreck your life more than you already have by making an uninformed, reckless decision, but it is your decision.
Good luck and I'll leave you to it.
Xenni---did you read the post? She already saw a lawyer.
And please do not advocate Methadone. It may have been fine for you with a long history of Heroin addiction but I, and many others, feel it is reckless to prescribe for a Norco/Vicodin/Hydrocodone habit. We don't advocate it's use here.
Oops, and I posted in error too soon, I was saying... My arrest was horrible and scary at the time, and but my honesty and cooperation went a long way and everything turned out just fine. I it actually propelled me into starting methadone maintenance... Which I know can be controversial, and but for me with a 23 year heroin addiction, it is a miracle program. The all I can say is please call the investigator back because avoiding it will make it worse. I if you cannot afford legal representation, and call your county's legal aid hot line. If you can't find the number, call your county Courthouse and ask for it. I you can get representation thru legal aid if you qualify, and but at the very least, the you can get legal advice about your current situation. The good luck
Yes, this is very sad...
Who recommended methadone to you?? It's a very bad idea, I'm sorry...
It means nothing to a Judge and, to most people, it does not mean you're getting clean and sober. Do you know much about methadone? That it's an opiate? The withdrawals are terrible? Mostly, people go on methadone to stay out of legal trouble like stealing and forging rx's . Other than that, it's just a legal high.
You need serious help because you cannot help yourself. I'm saying this as a friend: you need in patient treatment. Your daughter is safe with your Mom and you can get another job,right? You need to be very honest with yourself, first of all...then you need to take some action. What do you do for work? There are things like a FMLA and others where you can take a leave with permission. Addiction is considered a medical illness.
Think it all over and re read what everyone has written to you. This is some of the best advice from some of the smartest people you will ever know...
I am so sorry to hear you chose Methadone. I wish you the best. This is such a sad story.
You should call before he comes to your house with your kids there. That to me would be worse!