finacial ruin

[bama88]

Am i the only one who's ruined themselves financially?  how long does it take to recover your finances? i can't seem to make any headway on this subject....yesterday my new car was repoed because i was three months behind...so embarrassing. I've been trying to pick up payments but.....they came and got my car...i will have the money next wed. if they give me that long....i feel like something new bad keeps happening everyday...ugh. i have really made a mess of my life over oxies and roxies...i make too much money to be in this shape but....i was spending too much on the streets besides my own scripts....i can't seem to dig out of this hole!! Im still in h.e.l.l. everyday....now i feel like im being constantly reminded of my addiction because the bills bills bills.....it seems like no hope!!

Has anyone else lost things? I've pawned jewelry lost my car....and can't take anymore negative repercussions....i knew this was going to be hard. but didn't know how hard.  my parents won't help...never did or will...and my husbands family are broke.....i feel like i javelin nothing to look for forward to except more problems...

I can see why people relapse so easy...when life just keeps throwing you tomatoes and beating you down...its very hard not to give up....i keep telling myself there's worst things that could have happened but dang it....im getting wore out.


I've worked so hard for my stuff and now its getting worst....before when i was high i didn't care. im beginning not to care again....


I've kept it as honest as i can be with all of you. i am posting my story not for pity but for another person to see how bad addiction can get. i want knee person to read my story and realize where this thing will lead your life.  pills are not worth this. look at what a mess i made. ill never get out!!  days like yesterday are hard to stay clean
what more has to happen to me?   i need someone's advise who's done this to themselves to give me a smiggin of hope. because i am running out.

[bama88]

Thanks so much!! im so embarrassed!! I've never been in this shape financially before.  ever...im so done with pills....i have surgery Monday and won't even fill them no matter how much i hurt!! i mean it. i loved my car!! worked hard to get it and now...no more car...i don't know if they will wait til the 15th.... I've talked to them..yet they threatened to send it to the auction. we make  100k a year so this is very very embarrassing. I've heard of people loosing everything but i said it would never happen to me!! Im too good for that..i make to much money!! but id take all my bill money and score. i mean 400 dollars a week or more!! addiction snowballs out of control!!

For all the readers who are sitting on the fence and just taking loratabs or norcos  or whatever please please i beg you to stop!! nobody wants my life!! yet if you continue to use this is what will happen...guaranteed

[bama88]

I know i sound like im throwing a pity party. i know worst things could happen...i could have went to jail o.d.ed but im getting really tired. im trying so hard to stay clean. I've been paying as many bills...including car note as i can. i was so behind on everything!! eclectic cable water our garbage can even got reposessed over 36.00. land taxes paid....were paying and paying and its not enough!! surprisingly my husband didntt scream!! its a wonder. all my credit cards behind....its hard to catch up....gosh what have i done over stupid blue pills.....thankfully my house is paid in full...or that would be in forecloser. anyone who can relate help me please!!

[pleasehelpme115]

I LITTERALLY lost EVERYTHING except my girls and one thing i can say is when u realize what a mess u have made thats a HUGE trigger and u need to stay on your knees until u get blood clots and PRAY PRAY PRAY. I promise prayer is what has carried most of us threw. But if u look on the bright side if u were still using u would NEVER see your car again because when next week comes u would spend the car money on pills so just remember you r very loved and blessed no matter how bad things seem to b using will make u feel good for ten minutes so its NOT worth throwing away everything u have worked so hard to get. i am sending u a cyber hug and kiss.