need a little encouragment

[newlifeahead]

I have been reading this for a few weeks. It has really helped but i decided i too would like the support and realized by posting i could get and give the same encouragement to and from others goitn through the same crap. Just a breif backround i have been on vic and perc's for a LONG time i was clean for 2 years then relapsed why idk because that was by far the BEST 2 yrs of my life i didnt go on them as bad this time but it has been about a year now.  I stopped my last vic 10 days ago but through this last weekend took some tramadol i only had 10 (i dont usually take tram but it seemed to help) HOWEVER i am sure it was a mistake so my last tram was on mon morning but over the weekend i had only taken a total of 10. Since monday late afternoon i have felt not so good. Some points were REALLY bad i am sureit was still from vic and the tram jsut covered it tues i did quite a bit of cleaning ( i also have a 10 month old) so i have no choice but to keep moving.Slept really well mon but last night was HELL i didnt sleep but maybe 2 hrs combined just because of RLS (restless legs) they come faithfully every night by 7 pm that is the WORSE symptom and seems to be the one that i have the most.Today didnt feel too motivated but still took care of my sweet boy (which is one of my major motivations for staying clean he deserves me to be clean) and I deserve it too.... anyway jsut wondering if anyone can tell me how long the restless legs and sleep issues went on for. I eat bannannas dont help i also take warm baths (which help me feel better but not w the RLS) i ahve tried the restless legs med from hyland TOTAL WASTE of money. What has gotten me through this is my faith in God and prayer i know if i pray he helps me immensly. But this RLS doesnt want to stop i would be feelign pretty good if it werent for this i even get it during the day if i sit too much. cant wait for life to be back to normal and i can sleep naturally again. I am inspired by all the strength and clean time on here jsut need a little encouragment thanks:)

[batmanrules45]

Congrats to both of you on making it this far!

I too got the extreme fatigue and let me tell you that was so hard to deal with.  I thought I was going to die.  I ate bananas and apples for strength.  Caffeine is not good for withdrawals but the benefits of it outweighed the negatives for me - you will need to decide how it works for you.  I also drank my favorite drink as a reward - diet mountain dew.

I did not get the RLS as bad because I took Clonidine, a blood pressure medication that is well known in its effect on opiate withdrawal.  Everyone is different but it really helped me.  You need a prescription but I also know that people get it off the internet.  I would try to get it from a dr first.  It only cost me 10 dollars with my insurance.

Hang in there!

[newlifeahead]

thaqt is GREAT that u did NOT listen to the dr it drives me CRAZY that they do that i went to a local hospital for detox the last time over 3 yrs ago wasa admitted and do u know if i go to that er the first thing they do do u need something for pain??? r u FREAKING kidding me how bout read my chart. It is hard for us to be the strong ones but it is important to know and stay on our toes. U r SOOOO right u DONT want to go live those 3 days out again hey and CONGRATS on ur 3 days doing good.... keep it up keep moiving forward. Well the rest of my day was not so good. i havent really felt good today but i have kept moving cleaning the house we r doing some deep cleaning in this house and rearranging the garage so we have room for the car for the winter. My hubby came home from work w diaherreah (sp??) and he ussuallly never gets sick so i am wondering if we dont have a little flu bug in the house on top of it cuz i just have not been feeling right i stay moving because i can NOT deal w the restless legs i would rather be dragging myself through the house. and it is making toime go by faster. We have church tommorrow REALLY looking forward to that i know it will help me. anyway i am gonna get off the puter it is going on 6 nd like clockwork the restless legs r kicking in i could jsut SCREAM i really wish that part would go away have a good rest of the evening i will check back later

[desperatetobefree]

ok today was by far the worst day evaaaa,i have been crawling around from room to room literally,never felt so fatigued in my life,its day 3 now nearly coming to an end,thank god,i had my doc trell me to just take one pill of tram tonight cuz my reaction was so severe and i wanted to smack him across the head,that was not what i needed to hear from him,can u imagine how my sick lil mind nearly jumped for joy at the prospect,lol,but i knew he had no clue and i knew that if i just took even one it wud be the undoing of three days of torture that i wud have to do all over again sometime in the future and thats not worth anything,im hoping it gets better tho,i really do,i hope ur doing ok today,u shud be nearly coming out the other end anytime now,im addicted to morphine and codeine too,so its all three at once that im coming off,please god help meeeee.
lol,im always dramatic...hope u had great day ,let me know how u got on today.

[newlifeahead]

lol desperate u did hear me screaming through the puter LOL.... u know u will be happier i went through that too and missed the life i had on the pills but it just is NOT worth it to me or my family. i HATE that life and i just keep reminding myself of that to get through these days. I have been FORCING myself to stay busy even when i dont feel i have the strength to stand up. It comes and goes i will get energy then loose it i woke up at 4 this am stayed up till 5 then was able to sleep till 7 i was really happy but i started cleani.ng the house and i had to come sit. i am gonna keep pushing i know staying active is best and the day WILL come wehre i dont fele bad anymore at all:) i slept really restless last night and up every hr i know the lack of sleep is killing me. Well cant sit too long ahve a good day all and i will check back later

[desperatetobefree]

my days are dragging sooo much an hour is like a full day on tram,seriously,how is that,its like i was missing out on my life but im not sure if that was a good thing or bad lol,.just kidding im gonna make the best of my new life and when i get any normal ebergy back i hope to do all the things i wanted to do but cudnet cuz this evil pill never let me,have a great day today and i pay that we all stay strong....still find fighting the temptaition i wont lir to u,but happiness is better than numbness i hope,just cant wait to feel the day when i know i am better and happier without it,cuz i know i will be but cant remember it anymore and my sick mind telling me i was happier on tram,,,,i know i know,,,i can imagine what ur shouting,,,lol,,,ill stay strong for my lil brood,and u do too..bye

[newlifeahead]

hey desperate and life2live u guys HAVE to DUMP the pills there will be NO succeding if u hang on to them the w/d will get to a point where u jsut take somet hen u have to start ALL over NOT fun... or they will be constantly calling ur name. calling the dr is a GREAT idea once they know they wont give them anymore cutting ALL ur ties is SOOOO vital in this that is FOR SURE.... i hope u get the courage to get rid of them and get going on this road i feel REALLY drained but i keep forcing myself, earlier after feeling like i could not even walk i laid on my bed for 20 min didnt sleep jsut laid there i was then able to get up go pay a few bills, get hubby from work, and go to the laundry mat at the laundry mat i felt like i cant even walk anymore but i FORCED myself it is now 9 pm and i jsut got home gonna take a IBU 800 and a epsom salt bath and pray that i get some sleep i actually slept last night it was NOT a full night it was inturupted and i even had 3 dreams or i should say nightmare one was about pills UGH i jsut want ot be better but i now i am getting there and i am doing this:) Hope u all r hanging in there U CAN do it too and we can do it together jsut get up the strength get RID of those pills CUT the ties and get moving i think it is sooooo important that u get mad at the pills get mad at what they have done and THROW them it is a form of saying BYE BYE and u a=no longer have a hold on me as long as they sit in ur house calling ur name they still have u JUST DO IT (like nike says lol) everyone have a blessed night/or day i guess for some interesting to meet people from ALL  over the world