Have i got a problem w/alcohol-part 2

[ibizan]

there is no such thing as can't quit....its just not ready too.... and won't quit!

[more0then0a0virus]

succeed=succeeded

[more0then0a0virus]

Yeah, I obviously do have that much power, I have got this ability to ruin everything, no matter if I want to do so, or not... I just screw up everything near me...

Yesterday I succeed to ruin this. I`ve ruined my 9th day... How stupid is that...

I think I won`t go out of the house anymore. I’m not independent enough for not drinking.

[dominosarah]

No my dear, not everything is your fault.   We dont have that much power.

[more0then0a0virus]

Yeah it is, but I can`t drink it anymore, because in every bottle of liqueur I`ve left maybe 1dl of alcohol. It`s not such a problem for me. But in Sunday morning was because opened beer was standing on the table when I was alone at home... But I didn`t drink...

I can`t worry them... And my father said to me once: "I can`t go trough this again". He was on the bottom... He`s sister was alcoholic, and he just wants to have a stabile family once in his life.

I was in a great mood yesterday. The fact I could drink made me so happy…  And I didn`t pass out. I was sure I was in control. And then I realized I`m at home, my mother was angry at me…  Everything is my fault…

So, today is my 1st day...

[dominosarah]

Isnt there alcohol in your home?  Why not tell them the truth?

[more0then0a0virus]

yeah... i actually want to, but i don’t think at all... i was too impulsive yesterday. never mind... i wont drink anymore, i guess... i´m depressed right now... i`m going to forget about last night on few hours...  but thank you for answering...

I`ll try to manipulate my mother to ground me… It`ll be safer then… When I`ll be at home all the time…