I am seventeen and have been dealing with what I think is general anxiety disorder for at least a year now but lately it has become much worse. I have read symptoms online and mine seem to match. I was wondering if physical sickness can be a symptom of GAD as well. Before certain events I can become very anxious or nervous and the other day I vomited twice and was unable to eat anything before a certain situation.
I’ll give some background to help clarify what is happening. For the last few years, I have spent a lot of time alone and this was not because no one wanted to spend time with me, it was because I didn’t want to spend time with them. Certain social situations can make me very nervous, my mouth becomes very dry, I start sweating, sand start to feel sick sometimes. Lately I have been trying to spend more time with people because I really do enjoy spending times with my friends. There are certain people that I can plan to do something with and have no anxiety or worries about it. I have a boyfriend who I really enjoy spending time with, when we are together I am comfortable but before hanging out with him I can become very very anxious to the point of me becoming sick. This happened before the first time we hung out but I assumed that was just because I hadn’t really hung out with people in a long time. After that, I didn’t have any problems with anxiety, I felt great, but a couple days ago I started dreading spending time with him even though I knew I would enjoy it. That morning I woke up too early and I felt sick and I became sick. This doesn’t make sense to me because I was fine for so long and nothing has changed.
This doesn’t only happen with him. In general I worry way too much even though I know that my worries and a fear of being with people is not valid. But when I am freaking out, I know that it isn’t necessary but I can’t stop myself. It is very frustrating because I feel like I can’t control how I feel. I also tend to overanalyze things that have already happened even though there is nothing I can do to change them. Any suggestions?
Oh yeah, I know I should probably get help of some sort from a professional but that scares me more than anything because then I would have to tell my parents. My mom tends to blow things out of proportion and I am not comfortable with telling her I have a problem.
I don’t know what to do because I really hate feeling like this.