anxiety starting up again

[Jacksons_mommy]

I had a miscarriage while I was carrying my second child. I had a D&C done about a month ago. I just got my monthly visit about a week or so ago & was just curious about some things. I've never been through this before. Some days are good & others I can't stop thinking about it or just start crying over little things. I'm  not really sure how to get past this. I will never forget the baby but I do want to move on & try again with my fiance to have another child. We do have a son who is 2 years old. I have been having nightmares the last few weeks, which have stopped, also been sweating at night, haven't been sleeping well, my appetite hasn't been the best, been getting dizzy, & kinda spacing out sometimes since my thoughts are a mess. Now my dreams I have feel completely real. I've had a lot going on in the past few months...relationship problems, have no job, spent a night in jail which was my first time in trouble with the law, my car is gonna be gone in 90 days if I don't pay it out so looking into another car when I get my school check next month...me & my son had to move in with my dad.. stuck at home quite often...also been getting black outs a little lately like I forget where I am or what I'm doing, which has happened before it was anxiety... I don't have money to see the doc to get prescribed back on the medicine I had before. I'm just looking for advice on if all this is normal & how to get through this.

[Jacksons_mommy]

Yeah he's the best thing in my life. Without him & his daddy(my fiance) I don't know how my life would be. Luckily I have a supportive family & a few good friends I can talk to. My dad is kind of hard to get along with sometimes because we don't see eye-to-eye on a lot of things & considering we live with him, I get aggravated a lot since most of the time we are here. We are trying again....I went for my checkup today after having my surgery & doc says things are great. She said to wait 2 more cycles & try again...also to take prenatals or folic acid & to come back once I get a positive test. We are wanting to try again...I just hope things go better this time. With our son he was 5 weeks early but other than that no complications at all during pregnancy.

[Jacksons_mommy]

I know that there is a free clinic for therapy & I was thinking about going back. I have to talk to them about the price though, before it was $10 a visit which isn't bad, but without having a job that's kind of difficult right now. I wanted to go back to the doctor I had before but she's kind of expensive. She knows my history with anxiety though so I'd say she may be more help for me. I've had a lot of stress in the last few months that's for sure. My fiance & I were so excited to hear that we were expecting again & a month later we were told that we lost it. I can't get that thought out of my head of why we lost it...you know? I am sorry for your losses as well. Thanks for the advice!

[fltricia]

Well the great news is you have a 2 year old.  You get to look at their beautiful little face all the time.  I would focus more on the things you have more control over like finding a job and getting back on your feet.  You will be much less stressed when you get pregnant again and will be able to provide a more stable situation for your new child and the one you already have.  GOD BLESS and you will be in my prayers.  I'm really sorry you are going through this.

[Angeleyes1015]

Hi, I'm no expert on whats normal or whats not.I'm not sure if there is any such  thing as normal, but between my 19th birthday and my 20th. I had 2 miscarriages and lost 3 babies the first was twins. Your going through grief and the grieving process. Losing a child is losing a child weather the child is born yet or not. I also have anxiety and in high stress I can walk into a room and not know why I went there and then leave it and go oh yeah, and go back. I also have gone into self destructive behavior not by breaking the law but in other ways. I'ed say you are depressed beccause of what you went through and are going through. Most cities have free clinics for medical care and counseling. I f you haven't already checkes into it you should. Best of luck.