do i have anxiety

[Dob24]

hi eveyone this is gona sound weird but i have to say it because its been on my mind for years i slept with this girl about 7 or 8 years ago i was very drunk, after we had sex that night i never seen here again it was just a one night thing, anyway ever since that dredfull night i have never felt the same iv allways thought i caught something from here but i just wouldnt go and get tested i was 2 scared and finally about 3 months ago i got a HIV test i really 1 million percent thought it was going to be positive but the  test was negative i didnt believe that test so i got another one and it was negative i never trusted that one either so i got another one it came bk negative again and i still dont belive it i really do think i have HIV i wish i dont have it but i think i have it all the time, its really makeing My life crap ever since that night i have been very weak and badly fatuiged loss of energy do i have anxiety

[Dob24]

ok thanks mate and thanks beth0277 best regards

[patient49]

It sounds like you have anxiety to me! And you can get better from this, and have a girlfrind. haha, many girls would still accept you with your present condition. It doesn't sound like you have contracted anything! I think you should study the side affects of HIV and other disease to see if your symptoms are realistic within the timeframe you developed them. But I hate to say, but anxiety can cause any seemingly nerological/phyisical symptoms that a real disease can. This is fact, and I know from experience. I have also and sometimes still do (it is my main anxiety symptom) to get week in my legs, this is also common for many others. We drain ourself and become fatigue with our fear, and then feel week in our legs especially, cos that is what holds us up. And then we think we have a physical problem, like HIV or something. This is the nature of anxiety and you can learn this by reading on the anxiety forum. Continue to get your concerns addressed, and you can get better!! :)

[beth0277]

I'm sorry that you are going through this but I can assure you that if you had 3 negative tests that you don't have anything to worry about. I recommend talking to a psychiatrist about your health anxiety.

Best of luck :)

[Dob24]

ok thank you i will give it a try best regards

[hmf099]

they talk about this A LOT on the ocd forum, i would read some of the archives and advice on there, it could help. sounds like therapy would help as well.

[Dob24]

thanks for ur reply i just carnt help the way i feel my arms feel tierd all the time my legs does aswell, i have lipoma so i think the worse about that all the time i keep thinking that has somthing got to do with HIV and to be honest i dont think this will ever go away i really dont,

[Anonymizeruk]

It sounds very much like a kind of health anxiety. I've had problems with anxiety for a few years, and every time I get a slight pain, runny nose, headache - you name it - I'm totally convinced I have some life threatening problem.

In one sense, I react in the opposite way - I tend to be very quick to seek medical advice - but the problem is similar, being absolutley sure of a medical condition, and not beleiving doctors when they tell me I'm OK.

I took anti-depressnts for a few years, but they didn't really work for me. I've also seen a psychotherapist, and it's helped a little. The only thing I find helpful for me is to constantly question my thoughts. For example - "my arm is numb". I would automatically assume this is something really bad, like a stroke, so I have to try and question myself. "have you banged your arm, or have you been leaning on that arm for a while, remember the doctor said you were fine". It doesn't always work for me, but it helps a bit.

[Dob24]

haha sorry anyways i ahve felt like this since the morning after i slept with HER and ever since that night i have never slept with anyone ever since with out a condom i just carnt seem to be happy i just keep telling my self i have Hiv i know its horrible but i just carnt help it i keep looking for signs anything to convince myself even more that i have it my legs allways seem very weak and my body seems so tierd all the time i dont know what to do i am very unhappy i have to be honest, i dont even want to get my self a girlfriend because i keep thinking that i will give here somthing, and ireland is ok women are everywhere just a shame i carnt have one

[patient49]

You said that was a dreadful experience. Well anything precieved to be dreadful will very likely produce anxiety.. and your symptoms of fatigue are basically the most classic/common symptom of anxiety, as you can learn about especially on this forum. Thinking you caught something from her is a good source of anxiety. You can trust those results, and free yourself from the fear. Maybe what might help is if you contact that girl and see where she is at. I also hear that it is hard for guys to contract HIV from woman, This is not a good source of protection however. See how she feels-- if she's not fatigue why should you be?!

Oh yeah, and it is spelled "her" not "here" :)  How is Ireland?