Should I take her back?

[extrmeski]

This could be a really long story but I'll try and be brief as possible.  My G/f and I were together for 2 1/2 years.  It was a strange relationship to say the least as for some reason she would run away from me then come back.  It wasn't as if she ran away to someone else, it just seemed that she would go through these cycles.  Anyway I loved her so much I would do anything for her.  When she is her "normal self" she is wonderful, but seems that she goes through these personality changes I can't explain it.  Her childhood was horrible and it maybe left over from that.  Her self preservation feelings are very high, and it makes her do funny things.  
Anyway we haven't been together since Nov.  In Jan. she wanted to give things another shot but I was in Arizona and she was in Ohio.  We tried the long distance thing and I did what I could to help her and support her.  In April she tells me that she is pregnant and she was cheating on me with some idiot of a guy, way younger than her (which is funny as she always like older guys).  I was totally devistated as I adored this woman.  A few days go by and she tells me that she knows she made a mistake and she wants to be with me.  So I start the process all over again of talking things through and being there for her.  Then in June of this year, her calls were less and less.  I find out she moved in with some other guy.  Again I was almost suicidal!  I was hurting so much.  Now she tells me that she is done with him, moving out, and had learned her lesson.  She is telling me that these experiences have changed her and she knows that she will never find anyone as good as me.
I should be elated to have her back again but I am having mixed emotions.  I mean I've been praying so hard for her to come back but how do I trust her?  Am I just a fool?

[extrmeski]

You are right.  I know but for some reason it's hard to get her off my mind!  I just wish she could be held accountable for her actions, she always seems to duck underneath all that she has done!

[toxictome]

Insanity is doing the same thing over and over, expecting different results!!!

Nothing changes, if nothing changes!

IMO....I would say it's time to move on, concentrate on you and your sobriety...get healthy......and good things will start to happen. This is a TOXIC relationship for you!!!

Good Luck!!

[extrmeski]

WOW!!  Do you know her??  You hit the nail right one the head so to speak.  She is very selfish and self-centered and she is the worse mother I have ever seen.  She has no capicity to love anyone but herself.  This guy she is with now has no idea what he is getting into!  I pity him, she will use him until there is nothing left and move on again, that is what she does.  She is worse than a pack of locusts!!

[extrmeski]

I would just love some insight to this, why the heck would she even do this to me?  The whole thing defies logic!

[extrmeski]

Thanks, I have too big of a heart, and she doesnt have one at all.  I get taken advantage of because of it.

[mami1323]

I'm sorry to hear this...I think we saw what you couldn't see.  We are outsiders looking in, you are using your heart to make your decisions.  She seems to go to you every time she's having problems with this guy.  Maybe now you can see more clearly and you will not give her another shot the next time she comes running to you.  I hope you can move past her, she isn't deserving of you.  Good luck.