Have i got a problem w/alcohol-part 2

[ibizan]

there is no such thing as can't quit....its just not ready too.... and won't quit!

[dominosarah]

These type of experiments turn deadly.

[more0then0a0virus]

I don`t see I have a problem with pot. Yeah, I do spend my all money on drugs and alcohol but never mind. Maybe it`ll get better sometimes in the future when I`ll have some realistic money...

1g is 100kn, 156 about 700-900, 50 is 1500, and so on...  some kind of normal salary is 3 000-6 000kn... But I need at least 3000 kn to make me satisfied just with M. And then I need cigarettes, or tobacco (because of lack of money). Maybe I`ll start to grow M when I`ll have my own place. How are your prices considering average salary?

And maybe it won`t get better. But that`s further future. And I really need something to hold me in here... And I want to experiment w/some stuff... I`m not done yet. Maybe it sounds stupid but my life goal is to experiment... it`s my only true preoccupation on this world...

[ibizan]

I read ur comments and u take me back in time and memory of the internal battle i began at age 19 to try to control my use.I once stopped for 2 months w/pot.....rationalized i had no problem and began smoking all over again.Hence the vicious merry go round began again!I finally stopped at 28......and u r 17....ugghhhhh!can u imagine urself going thru this for 11 more years?

[more0then0a0virus]

I didn´t know Eleanor Roosevelt or anyone else said that, but I do agree with that... I`ll google her quotes. Maybe I find something interesting.

Thanks 4 all advices...

Yeah, the action part begins... I’m enthusiastic about it again. My friend said to me I`m not so anti-social since I stopped or, better say, reduced my drinking, which is 11 days ago... weird, huh? For the first time, I really try to succeed in something after who knows how much time... So I`m interested in next part of the story...

[ibizan]

thank u 4 ur comments  to babygames......u know u have a problem dear...and u have good insight in2 it..now the action part must come.....and thank u for pointing out to babygames that she has CHOSEN to remain in her situation!like Eleanor roosevelt once said...No one takes advantage of u without ur consent!

[more0then0a0virus]

I hope you don`t mind. I have something more to say to you…

„He never should have quit“, you said that. I guess you knew alcoholic can start to drink again. If you weren`t ready for that, you should have left him years ago. I`m sorry if this sounds cruel, but I`ve made impression that facts are the most important thing for you, so I`m trying to show this situation on the other hand.

He never should have quit. But he has. For you, probably. You think that he started to drink again purposely. Well, he didn`t. It just happened. I’m not saying that this is not his fault. `Coz no matter if we (we=generally, human race, anyone) do it under or because of the influence, we still do it. It`s us. No one else. We did it to ourselves when we decided to experiment with alcohol or drugs. And the illness is just an excuse, because we were building it 4 quite some time. I see it that way, even though lot of members wouldn`t agree with me.

It seems to me you are not angry at your husband, you are angry at yourself because of your choice, because you trusted him.

I can just imagine what you went and are going trough. But you have 2 choices:
1.let it go, be happy, explore everything you wanted to, but couldn`t because of your husband, show your kids what life should look like (if they are young)
2.stay angry, impulsive, do not provide your kids enough love(you probably can`t because of this anger), and help them to become alcoholics (kids often became like their parents because they are their models of “normal” behavior)

I hope you are not offended by the fact that the person who needs to “STFU” is advising you. And good luck…

P.S. “Grow up”, you said that. But is this how you imagine being grown up? “an angry bitter woman, with 3 children”? If you still have got so much anger, how come you didn`t act like an adult and solve your problems? Maybe, if you stop judging your ex and try to do that, it will get better...